..out of beat..

+ the end +

2005-08-28T14:32:00.000+08:00

thts it.
the end.

im NOT indulging in self pity.
no longer. never.
n even if i am. this is my blog.
but.
it'll be a past tense after this post.

yeah. im very much in love with this blogname outofbeat. it's been faithful to me all these 9 mths of rants. yes. im very glad to have u bloggy. u din try to rob me off my priceless memories. u kept them dearly with u always. u gave me room to rant, to scream, to cry, and laugh with everything n everyone ard. last but not least, u bear every bit of broken english n singlish n distorted mandarin i use. yeah. i always treasure every minute of blogging with u. thanks so much. =)
but no worries bloggy.
u wun die. memories will nv fade away.
things that happened. can nv be erased.
i will be strong.

to the big world out there.
i will be better off without all the ugliness.
not that im accusing anyone at all.
just wanna quieten down.
and find myself.
in my small world.

till then.
ciaoZ.

+ failed +

2005-08-26T19:45:00.000+08:00

end of term 3 wk 9.
haaa.. so so soooo fast..

this wk.. hasnt been veh gd.. got back phy n geog.. passed by a mark or two.. hais.. nahhs. shallnt comment further.. den piano exam.. if i pass iz really really really a miracle. sighs. jiu zhe yang hao le..

abel.yang mentioned abt my blog having stuff on deaths n suicides shit.. got meh..? -.- nvms..

on a happier note. my bro's gf is on postcards. and on e big boards at bus stops. i din noe until ytd went out with eunice. go take postcards den happen to see a netball postcard. wanted to just take for e netballers in 3205. den 20mins later i talk to eunice half way. den realised. eyy. she looks familiar. eyyy. i noe her!! hahahs.. look veh weird lah.. not used to seeing her so serious de.. cuz she's e hyper kind bah.. i guess..

on another happier note. Uweekly has junyang on e cover page. veh big de. muz go buy tmr. yepps. junyang all e way! =)

im boredd.

10 things u nv noe abt my childhood:
#1. i din noe how to play monopoly until e end of p6. -.-
#2. i got my piano at 5, but started learning at 10. i actually love e violin. cuz it looks super cute. hahs.
#3. i learnt chinese painting n calligraphy for 6 yrs in pri sch.
#4. i hated to skip with a skipping rope cuz i got tripped by it once. on a marble floor mind u. ...
#5. i used to tie plaits to sleep every nite. =)
#6. i used to go crazy over huanzhugege.
#7. i loved to wear black shades n walk ard at home with a BIG telephone in my hand. dere's a photograph as evidence lor! hahs.
#8. i was a very very sickly child. prone to all kinds of illnesses ranging frm cough to chicken pox. .....
#9. i loved watching kids central n used to buy almost all the toys on advertisement every saturday.
#10. last but not least. i LOVED wearing dresses n doing all kinds of girly things. .....

kayys.
im stopping.
just dun feel like blogging much today.. busy n tired.. sighs.. aching limps.. oww..

nevertheless.
ann jiayou.. =)

xianx muz jiayou also. hmm. maybe i dunno wad u're going thru. but im always here for u okayys..? jiemeis forever! =) ahpu n jo are so quiet these 2 days w/o u.. kuai dian hui lai okays?

struggling to shine.
like a STAR.
sadly,
izit a one.three.zero yet?

'_ ai shang le ye de hei ]]'

+ insect bites//new car +

2005-08-22T19:05:00.000+08:00

today.
is such an eventful day. mans.
im currently having dinner.

rashes are itchy to bits. urghhh. nvms. i couldnt take it today during maths. was totally dry. i dozed off. den to keep myself awake. i tried scratching myself awake to listen for stupid trigo. and it worked. i was awake. but my whole rash area turned red and those bubbles thingy burst. ..... i freaked out but din dare to scare xianx with it. first time see her so hardworking doing trigo. dun wan disturb her. =P so i kept quiet till maths ended. cannot tahan sia. super super itchy. 10 times worse den normal mosquito bites. end up angeline mama pull me go opposite sch to see doc with her n qien papa. x) gave yukang a call. sians. at first i told him rash. end up doc say iz some weird insect bite. iz those that attack in a grp. funny.. how come insects attack me i dunno de.. ..... nvm.. e doc opp sch is SUPER lame i tell u. the lamest female doc i've ever seen. she spent 5 mins talking abt love bites. ..... anyways. i got some medicine. small but bitter. urghh. and some cream too. now it isnt THAT itchy le. yay. x)

den it was. choir time. hmm. today choir rocked more than normal days. maybe cuz sops finally made an improvement. so happie. =) muz continue to jiayou kayys..? yupps. yukang and his inspiring quote. mans. i wrote it for him laz fri lo. but i felt inspired when he read those stuff out. hahahs. ok nvm.. one big rocker that yk.. x)

stupid. i juz said yk rocks. den he msged stupid stuff to me. ... tell me. how stupid is he trying to tell me y he couldnt get full marks for tht mini functions test we had. we actually tied at 8 lo. hahahs. so heng. but he's so zhuai. nvm. dumb arse. hrmph.

after choir. i sat at e security guard de benches waiting for my parents. wait wait wait. long long wait. hweeli walk pass. weiwen walk pass. jiahao.papa walk pass. *yawns. they still haven come. den the quiet carpark outside suddenly. ZOOOM! veh loud de sound. i xia dao. wanted to shout BANG BANG. -.- nvm spas. but i saw a car approaching veh fast frm e far far staircase. den i see e front.. looks like AE86. zooooomm.. so loud.. den i stood up n ran to e gate outside. den whoooshh. i saw the words in bold. teng yuan tou fu dian. (zi jia yong). OMG OMG OMG. fyi, e logo on the AE86 in initial D. OMG. i actually shouted OMG out loud dere. no one was ard. so heng. hahahs. immediately called jiahao but he dun believe me. hrmph.. nvm.. iz 100% true ok.. unless e medicine for my rashes causes hallucinations. -.-

parents came. told them abt AE86 but duh. they din get a thing outta it. hrm. reached home. new car parked dere. RED. woahh. super cool. not big not small. juz a cute size. hahas. it belongs to my 2nd bro. yayy. one more chauffer on my list! hehhs.

woah iz getting late. i better finish up my dinner n practise scales. so so screwed for this ABRSM. hoho. which ABRSM do i not screw up mans? =.=

jiayou ann. =)
jiayou world. =)

before i go. this is sth i found while surfing e net laz nite.
sing it to e tune of the cadbury advert. wouldnt it be nice, by beach boys. =)
enjoy~

Postie

Wouldn't it be nice if the world was Cadbury
Chocolate roads and trees 'n' birds 'n' bees
Delivering all kinds of letters daily
Every kind of purple parcel too
And if the dog did try and grab a mouth full
You can bite him back, he'll taste delightful
Wouldn't it be nice!

Surfer

Wouldn't it be nice if the world was Cadbury
You could surf inside a chocolate tube
Ride your board across the wave forever
Get wiped out and never get a bruise.
And if a shark came up and tried to bite you
You could say "I'm chocolate I invite you"
Wouldn't it be nice!

Soccer

Wouldn't it be nice if the world was Cadbury
You could be a soccer super star
The referee would blow his chocolate whistle
A shot on goal would even break the bar
And if you went and scored the winner
You'd win the cup and eat it for your dinner
Wouldn't it be nice!

Car

Wouldn't it be nice if the world was Cadbury,
Driving in the car would be a tasty treat,
Changing gear would soon become a problem,
Cadbury Dairy Milk is so good to eat.
And when you arrive at your destination,
You'll be greeted with an exclamation,
Wouldn't it be nice!

Lawyers

Wouldn't it be nice if we were lawyers
No more studying through the whole night long
You would wear a robe and go to courtrooms
Bite your client if he plays the fool
And if Your Honour bangs his gavel
You could bite it, tastes incredible!
Wouldn't it be nice!

Escargot

Wouldn't it be nice if there were no S.N.A.I.L.S.
Punching calculators in the l a w library
Drawing graphs and writing out equations
Chewing on their pencils till it's gone
And if they try to take our tables
We would bite them "Ooohh you're crippled!"
Wouldn't it be nice!

Studying

Wouldn't it be nice if the world was cadbury
All our notes and textbooks in Dairy Milk
We would never have to study hungry
For we could eat our lap-tops in the library
And if we ever had to take a test
We could eat our notes and slowly digest!
Wouldn't it be nice!

'_ an ran de yan lei..
_ teng tong de xin fang..
_ yong bu ting zhi de bei shang.. ]]'

2005-08-21T22:49:00.000+08:00

helooo...?

ann to blogger?
are u working?
u've been hanging n hanging all day all night.. i wonder if u're dry yet.. =.=

ok nvms.. gnia says u are.. so im here to collect u n iron u n hang u in the cupboard. -.- lalala.

4 more days to ABRSM.. dun ask me how im feeling..
i juz practised for an hr.. all scales pieces n all.. n sightreading.. blahhs.. i tried to do aural.. but duh.. i ended up answering my own questions.. which is diao.. nvms..

been squabbling with jovett over junyang.. blahhhs.. listening to junyang's liu shui nian hua.. so nice... im madd.. jy jy jy.. wads wrong with me.. first is zhenyang now iz junyang.. -.- sheesh. anson. arent u ziyang? o.0 *runs.. hahahs..

stupid anson. cuz he keeps scaring me. hello? iz e 7th mth. im freaking afraid of those stuff yeah? so cut it. if not i'll zip ur mouth up. nono. i'll remove ur batteries. -.-

the freaking BOLD button isnt working.
looks like blogger isnt dry yet.
shall collect him later.
-.-

feel like im speaking in alien language. ok nvm.
im totally not in the correct mood to blog now.
so im practically crapping crapping n still. crapping.

dere's choir tmr. im so pressurised. look at the list of roles n responsibilities!! *faints. im ever so thankful to have chew yan as e secretary. do u have any idea how efficient she is?! freaky sia.

#1. meeting frm 5 to 630pm. she 12am send me the minutes, info etc. ........
#2. in 10mins. she crazily sent me 4 emails. all attached with some attendance list contact list blah blah..
im sho freaking impressed.

cut out superstar pics frm i.weekly todayy. haven paste into my notebk yet. tmr bah. yupps. talking abt superstar. that man actually asked my brother to buy kelly's album. ... wad for? i thought he only listens to oldies like theresa teng or wadever? o yah. i forgot. he got her whole collection of CDs. -.- nvm. anyways kelly's album was sold out. x)

it seems to be late. the sky looks dark. haha. all e curtains are drawn. so iz an agar agar thingy. -.- ok nvm. i wanted to say tian leng jiu hui jia [sky cold then go home] -.- . ok nvm. but i realised im already at home. .....

o yah. my hand de rashes is sooooooo ugly. im not gonna raise my hand tmr. iz freaking itchy too! but jiahao gnia n almost everyone at home told me not to scratch. cuz whenever i scratch. it'll turn super red n blotchy n disgusting. i wonder if it contains pus. i wonder if i use a knife n dig a hole in it, will the e yellow substance flow out anot? =.= mum said it looks lyk an insect bite. Stupid insect.. wan bite jiu bite lah.. put lipstick for wad.. now my wrist area there red red.. -.-

feel that im even more sadistic den jojo n ahpu. hahahs. nvm. internal joke. -.-

~rash rash go away
dun ever come back ever again~

hahahs. i love songs.
thinking of mr lim's quadratic formula song. sing to e tune of mary had a little lamb.

x equals to minus B,
plus minus, square root of,
B square minus four A C,
divided by 2 A.

hahahahs. cool yeah? a few of us recorded it down.
kuku kiwi sang twice wadd. hahahahahs..

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......

im feeling happy. c'mon SMILE!
S
M
I
L
E
=)

when u're happy and u noe it clap ur hand.
*clap clap
when u're happy and u noe it clap ur hand.
*clap clap
when u're happy and u noe it,
and u really wanna show it
when u're happy and u noe it clap ur hand.
*clap clap.

yayyy. wmp's playing junyang's if you come back.. haaa..

to ann:
hohoho. merry xmas.
from ann. =)

this is the spastic xmas card i wrote to myself in kindergarden. -.- or izit pri sch. ok nvm. ... i pasted a REAL stamp n threw it in my own letter box. dumb me. i shld have walked to e nearest post box n dump it in. den let the postman send it over wadd. if not waste the stamp lo.

haaaaaaaa..

go liao. it still looks dark.
ann's afraid of the dark. haaaaaaa..

byeeeeeeeeeeeeee

IM HAPPY!!
*screams
*jumps
*smiles

'_ one hundred and five ]]'

+ outing with eunice +

2005-08-20T21:00:00.000+08:00

ouch.

currently having some badd rashes on my right hand. the bottom area between my wrist n elbow. urghh. super itchy. had it b4 i slept last nite. applied some funny cream thingy. iz stinging my skin with e heat n all. sighs. i cant type properly.. cant lean my hand on e table.. cuz of e cream.. yucks..

today..
is a fun day..
hmm.. eunice came over.. late like siao.. her bus shot pass my house until thomson plaza.. so i ran down to get her.. we ran back in time to hear junyang sing tonghua again.. =) had lunch den took bus to beach rd market to get obs stuff.. bought track pants n some fire starter thingy.. den we went bugis.. bought i.weekly.. den went to take neos.. super diao.. our last shot was so natural. cuz we thot take finish wan go out liaos.. den sudd 3 2 1.. i quickly pull eunice down n EEEEE at e camera.. -.- we wrote junyang n derrick on our neos lo.. even added their smileys.. hahs.. pple keep staring at us when we deco-ing..

eunice pei me go utd sq.. went subway n buy cookies.. as usual lahhs.. so qiao met ms yeo dere.. she was gonna visit vijay in hospital lo.. i dunno wad happened to her lehh.. ms yeo say she'll msg me after visiting her de.. but she nv.. blahhs.. poor vijay.. wadever it is.. senior jiayou! get well soon alrites..? =)

show u all e neos i took with eunice..

tadahh.. this is e inpromtu shot.. natural hor? e backgrd is a car lo.. reminds me of initial D.. hahahs..

yayy.. junyang! and his smiley.. thx yuxian for drawing in eunice's notebk.. we took it out before deco-ing de.. behind de pple like wanna whack us liddat.. hahahs.. got time wadd.. see our fingers? three.two! X)

BC oohlala~ xianx not ard mah.. =(

but xianx was still on our minds! we wrote derrick! hahahs.. eunice drew tht smiley de.. dunno wad kinda pose we were giving.. -.-

hmm. thts all.

OMG! i was reading i.weekly. juz found out that PUNGGOL PARK got *ahem.. dirty things.. wth.. am i lag or lag.. went so many times now den noe.. wth.. ANSON! iz opposite ur house?!?! goshhh. *closes magazine n not look.. gosh. i must not think. wait tonite cannot sleep. ahhhhhhhh...

eunice summore say one day wan go dere with me to play swings.. piangs.. bu yao wan wo.. im not going dere.. never..

sians. not in e m0od to blog le. hair all standing.
shall run. aunt stole my i.weekly. she's actually interested in that feature page. madness...

SHIT. aunt juz told me. OLD UPPER THOMSON ROAD is one of the places named. ...........

dun ask me where i stay.. kaos.. y so zhun.. luff at anson i also kana.. wth.. wth...

no mood le..

runn-ed.

'_ yi bai ling si tian..
_ xing xing shi fou hai hui shan liang..
_ xing qing he shi cai hui hui fu zhen chang.. ]]'

+ enlightenments +

2005-08-19T22:05:00.000+08:00

*ding..

i feel enlightened.
maybe cuz of wad angeline said.
maybe cuz of wad eunice said.
maybe cuz of wad jiahao said.
or maybe cuz of wad puay fen n debbie said.

haaa. summarised a day with all that.
i guess thts all bah.

sudd juz feel like typing sth. anything. juz anything at all.

having a mild headache now. feel like sleeping liaos. but iz so so early. my body feels extremely lifeless today. esp after choir sectionals. new guy came. *ahem.. nvm.. it was nice to have the seniors back n all.. i miss my mama.. ever so fun n capable n nice n loving.. i miss my papa.. so shuai so act-cute so nice n funloving.. i miss my ziyuan laogong.. so nice so capable n not forgetting short. hahs. i miss my aunt deb n joy too.. super nice n capable seniors.. sighs..

i noe i shld have confidence in myself. as well as yukang n all. but sumhow. i feel so tight. so over stretched. so blotchy. no idea wad exactly that means. but sumhow. it just reflects on how i feel.

iz so weird to come up with words that dun make sense but yet still matches ur feelings. hahs.. perhaps yukang's right.. y have a blog..? y let pple noe wad u're thinking..? hahs.. it was a nice meeting with yk sherhan n chewyan today.. =) it was nice to walk with yk to amk mrt together.. we talk abt all e old stuff.. like i used to be afraid of him.. cuz i think he looked super fierce n scary.. sec 1 mr yong's concert i suey suey sit beside him.. begged feli to change seats with me summore.. n he said sth like.. he din even noe that i existed.. hahs.. but i think he's really a sensible guy and gd fren lo.. nv judge him by his height mans.. hahahahahs... okok... he juz makes me think alot deep down.. abt frens n all.. sumhow.. he just rocks as VP, SC, and bass SL. anderson choir shld be privileged to have u ard.. =) jiayou jiayou.. let the shorties unite n rock on.. yea? x)

somehow. my mind drifted to junyang alot today. cuz i actually cried when they announced e results. eh no. iz when they showed his journey in this competition n stuff.. n stuff he said.. e results.. was freaking shocking lahh.. my bro was super super !@!^#@*!*( abt it as well.. my mum was ranting abt it too.. -.- junyang was on e verge of tears also.. so poor thing lo.. hais.. i din use to feel so much for this superstar thingy.. started supporting him cuz of 3 songs.. jay's jiekou.. liu shui nian hua.. and TONGHUA. hahs.. tht was e winning song mans.. totally captivated my heart. i melted n juz felt so floaty after hearing him sing.. o mans.. eunice was super sad today as well.. cuz we purposely stayed up to watch e results show.. end up he lost.. sighs.. doodling some stuff on junyang on my notebk n eunice's as well.. now got pple appealing for junyang's singles to be released lo.. jiayou jiayou! *prays hardd..

somehow. i came to realise that things that happen in our age. iz kinda superficial. iz still those stuff whereby u'll laugh at ur own stupidity kind when u grow older.. haaa... perhaps im just spastic at my thots.. yeah.. funny things just get churn out unintentionally at times.. yk also say i siao.. no reason can just stare at him or james.loh or even my water bottle n laugh.. hahahs... dunno lahhs.. maybe i can also stare at some strange or unrelated stuff n start crying also.. haaa...

not exactly happy nor sadd..
just. liddat. yeah.. i guess.. iz best to just remain at e same spot.. running at ur own pace.. cuz it doesnt matter.. no matter how fast u run.. ur displacement still = 0. ..... physics. forget abt it. i shld chunk studies aside. for now. yeah. juz luff n cry whenever i wan to. juz. lead life like normal. pretend i dunno sth called hatred quarrels unhappiness lonely n disappointment. i rather be in a colourful world. or shld i say. i rather hallucinate n feel that i am? x)

keep e blog. or not?
sighs. i feel so. indecisive. haaa. perhaps i've always been liddat.
but now. i dun really have much impt things to decide right now. -.-
just. weird lahhs. -.-

im gonna change my layout soon. like when i've found a nice one. currently. nothing at all. spent 30mins looking thru blogskins. boringgg.

listening to junyang's tonghua. super super nice!! realised that his CHI PANG. sounds veh slang. hahahs. nvms. junyang jiayou.. =)

tmr going to buy stuff with eunice.. b4 that she coming my house juz to watch junyang sing on tv.. -.- the repeat episode of which he sang tonghua.. hahs.. yeah..

arghhh. throbbing headache's intensifying.
my head feels like it's gonna drop off any min.
shall go n sleep.
niteZz world.
niteZz ann.
sweet dreams. x)

boooooomm-ed.

'_ yi qi xie wo men de jie ju.. ]]'

+ thoughts +

2005-08-18T15:58:00.000+08:00

nice weather.
it's raining again. wanted to call jiahao for some drench. but it was juz a slight drizzle. wanted a heavier one. so didnt. just for the fun. i guess.

btw. sorry for e lousy previous post with @^@**(#! and all.
just a rant.

hRmm. im again home. early. had spaghetti for lunch. tasted weird cuz e sauce is 5 days old? -.- tht was wad mum told me when i was finishing it up. ... kind her. nvms. that man got a phone in e study room. for me n my bro. no idea y. we have been squeezing in this shit room. with e nearest phone 10 steps away. n he got us yet another extension phone. iz on my comp table. prolly for him to intercom me late at nite to ask me to sleep. wadever. we're gonna change rooms anyway. y waste money?

rite. money issue. darn.
somehow. i got this feeling. i cant make it to nz this dec. nothing's been confirmed. haven been seeing naomi ard these days. quiet and all. mum's mute abt it but i noe she's not paying for all those stuff i have. OBS, choir chalet, tentative 3205 chalet, n czech republic trip for choir competition nx june. im totally struggling to save some money. really wonder how. kinda feel that mum wud be against it cuz of o lvls. sumhow. yeah. she's been talking abt it.

looking at my results. i feel like dying for hcl. i barely passed. nv expected that i wud get such a score. considering the fact that i nv used to fret for my chinese. urgh. iz time to panic. chinese o lvls are like 2 mths plus away. sighs. no idea how lah. maybe EOY is more an issue to brood over. we have like 6 wks?! goshhh. wad the hell have i been doing in sec 3 mans. urghh. juz a yr. flew liddat. i rather mug for sec2 streaming. all over again. i wud relax n take everything in my stride. oh wells. the past. erase-d.

maybe i'll go visit feli nx dec. after o's. sumhow feli. i dunno how to face u this soon. like. weird. i dunno lahhs. dun think im worth anything regarding certain stuff. just wan to see u. thts it. i think iz better for both of us bahh. naomi probably wants to go over asap. 0h wells. forget it.

the rain.
reminds me of e song i made with mg's writings.. hahs.. nice..
somehow. these days. i tend to feel nothing for e word love. e barney song sounds more like a fantasy to me. though iz still pretty rocking in my brain. somehow. i understand why pple shun me at times. somehow. i came to realise how weird a girl i am.

haaa..

perhaps thats y it happened. perhaps iz nv about being tired. i noe i ought to trust. just that. i hate to trust empty thoughts. untrue. vague. n not realistic. i feel cheated. i feel abandoned. i feel unwanted.

no mg. im not pitying myself. iz really how i feel now. i dunno y. iz just this feeling. which refuses to go. no matter how much i tried to laugh n pretend im fine. iz just. not right.

maybe im not adapting well. yeah. juz a maybe. i guess.

pain; is a sign of a person being human.
but why must u remind all e time that im human. i noe it. so stop hurting.

iz just. so ironic. i dun get it either. i dun get why im thinking abt such stuff. i dunno if im the one controlling myself to be liddat. thinking abt stuff i ought to have forgotten n all. iz just a big question mark. yes. no doubt. pple can judge me frm e way i am now. but sumhow. iz not abt wad pple thinks. iz abt me. i wan to noe why.. why.. why..

haaa.......... wmp happen to start playing...
"and the reason is u....."
by booobabanks..
haaaa..
not funny.. ...

fight on ann.. fight on bravely..
fight on for no one but urself..
u've been standing alone all the while..
so fight on alone.. fight one bravelyy..

sumtimes. i wanna fight. but i dun have e energy to.
sumtimes. i dun wanna fight. just wanna close my mind n sleep. but i have too much energy that i cant sleep.
does it make sense?

dun blame me for being like this.
i cant help it. seriously. i cant. im trying meimei. i really am. but i cant..
cuz.. im me.. n this is me..

iz so bad that i feel my soul crumbling over n over again every day.
iz so bad that i just wanna let myself fall n slumber into a deep sleep n nv wake up..

yeah.. call me a coward.. but im really tired.. tired of appeasing so many pple for various reasons.. i dun see the point.. i wanna lead my own life.. n smile..
but.
i cant seem to get a grip of myself..

wanna go for some jogging soon.. perspiring is good.. i guess..
drench by rain or drench by sweat better?
both are free. ... k nvm..

junyang u rock..
thx for singing tonghua.. somehow.. thx for reminding me that i need to stand up someday..
junyang jiayou.. =)

reply taggs.

feli: heyya.. sorry if it mattered to u abt e nz trip.. or probably it didnt.. i dunno.. juz feeling kinda messed up thts it.. juz wanna say.. u still mean alot to me.. sumhow.. deep down.. u do.. thts all.. thx for being everyone's pal.. i guess.. hope u're doing fine over dere.. as much as i wanna visit u.. i also wan u to be happie.. yeah.. take care..

layjia: heys.. im rather ok abt it now.. juz getting on with my own life n pretend i dunno anything.. as much as he's trying to be nice.. i dun see e point being nice to him.. just that. mum seems to be ok abt everything. i guess. yepps. thx =) pray hard for OBS.. ciaoZ soon..

xianx: halo.. im sho confused over which colour to bold ur name with. izit yellow for derrick or black or blue since iz OUR favourite colour? -.- nvms. i like blue. so yeah. blue for u. -.- hmm. maths was a little screwed for today. so forget it. thx for nudging during phy. hahs. yeps. i actually voted for junyang last nite. 2 calls. super shuang. hahs.

ABRSM's in a wk's time.
and i haven memorised my scales.
congrats me quick.
...

drench-ed.

'_ lai dao ji mo bian jie..
_ xin yi zai tang zhe xie..
_ ji mo bian jie de shang xin ren..
_ chu le wo.. hai you shui..
_ dao le zui hou..
_ shang xin ren xue hui zi wo an wei..
_ fa xian fen shou bu zhi liang hang lei.. ]]'

+ i hate u +

2005-08-16T17:57:00.000+08:00

FIRSTLY, I WANNA SAY THAT IM IN A FREAKING FOUL MOOD. SO ONE WORD OF CAUTION. PLS PLS. STAY OUT IF U'RE NOT IN A GD MOOD.

AND WADEVER CONTENT HERE IS TOTALLY NOTHING GOTTA DO WITH ANDERSON CHOIR, ANDERSON SECONDARY SCH, OR ANY FRENS ARD. SO JUST TAKE IT AS A BITCH FIT OR PMS OR WADEVER. I JUZ CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE.

I DUN CARE IF THIS IS ONE MINUTE'S OF ANGER. BUT I TYPED THIS TO APPEASE MYSELF ANYWAY.

u still can exit b4 scrolling down.
ur choice.

rite.
here it is.

FUCK.

thats exactly wad i think of u man. unreasonable. irrational. impatient. obstinant n vulgar man. using meiching's favourite quote on u is a total insult to her as well as the wall. i simply detest u. can u ever be logical in ur words n fucking stop using vulgarities on ME.

wad the hell.

im ur daughter. and trust me. im not the least proud of it. and trust me. im giving u ONE FINAL BIT of respect cuz u are something the dictionary calls, father: A man who begets or raises or nurtures a child. hoho. probably u did that. y? cuz u have money to send me to sch. to send me to tuition. n piano lessons and wadever that im using now probably is URS. trust me. i REALLY THANK u for that. y? cuz if u dun send me to sch. i probably wun noe how to spell words. n neither can i use a computer. n also blog this entry. hence. i THANK U GRACIOUSLY, as my name speaks, for being MY DEAREST FATHER. hoho. ann the gracious one loves u SO much.

u guys probably think that im crazy for throwing insults at this man. but honestly. u have no idea wad he did to all of us. not only us. but also pple that dun even noe him. wth. mad man. not that i ever respected u much. but anyway. im trying to remind u abt ur life. GET A LIFE.

firstly. stop using vulgarities that dun make sense to any of us. furthermore. we dun deserve it at all. but FUCK. dun ever blame me for being rude. cuz u werent any respectful to any of us at home as a HUMAN. stop throwing ur weight ard juz becuz this house belongs to u and u think all of us owes u a living cuz u provide us with everything. YES. i dun deny that without u, we are nothing. but still. GET A LIFE. give us the normal respect u wud give to any one outside. stop all the nonsense abt us not giving a damn abt this blardy house n family. cuz iz NOT true. me n my brothers DO care. so does my mum.

question urself first. why cant u look after urself n blame mum on everything tht goes wrong. i THOUGHT u r e HEAD of this household? den where's ur abilities? where's ur superiority as a man? why muz mum suffer every single bit of ur unmanaged life juz cuz she's ur wife? and why do us children deserve to hear vulgarities frm every single dialect?

u shldnt even blame us for being rude/vulgar. cuz U were the one who taught us abt those stuff. not that we liked to hear it often. but honestly. it irritates me whenever u point e middle finger at women who dunno how to drive fast enough for u to over take their lanes. den u'll zoom pass them n turn to mouth a vulgar word or two. its brainless. and stop complaining that u cant bang the car into theirs cuz u're driving a mercs. like so wad if iz a mercs? go ahead n knock lah. go. u have money rite? go ahead n bang. den go repair. bang repair bang repair. not like everyone at home supported u in buying it.

again. plants n worms dun offend u in any way. they dun grow in ur ears or nose or on ur head. so stop saying FUCK at every single worm u catch in e garden. stop saying FUCK when u see weeds growing out of the way. BE REASONABLE. have some kind of anger management, wud u? plants n worms did not ask u to kajiao them in any way. no they didnt. so why muz u kick up a BIG fuss abt fertilisers n push all e responsiblity to e gardener when u always like to meddle with e garden every day?

and so what abt having choir on mondays n tuesdays? it's MY CCA. it's fucking hell MY LIFE. so what if i like to go home with choristers on choir days? i like it. iz MY LIFE. im happy. stop asking me to go home at 1pm everyday. cuz sch ends at 1 plus for normal days. n fuck. u dun own the sch. i cant go as and when i like. get it? gimme a life will u? stop controlling whatever i want to or HAVE to do. yes, i do use the comp till late nite. yes, i do use it for time-wasting purposes at times. but fuck. i have self control. i do STUDY alrite? stop ranting every morn that i dun cuz i dun get many As. im happy with my Bs n Cs n try showing me ur As if u're so good at it. go ahead mans. look who's gonna cry first. hoho.

so what if u have nothing to do at home n u're freaking bored? does that give u a right to verbally abuse us? NO. we are HUMANS. ashamed to be related to u by blood. but we are NOT ur slaves. u noe wad? all of us think that u shld check out ur attitude b4 talking to anyone. even the most sensible son u can ever produce thinks that thts sth really WRONG with u. so wadd if u're 40% deaf in one ear? have u ever considered OUR feelings? esp mum's? she's been bearing with u. she's had enough of all ur nonsense. she's been trying veh veh hard to give in to u and ask all of us to co-operate with u. but are u co-operating with us?

everything that makes u unhappy just gets us on our nerves. cuz everything dun seem to be right in ur eyes. and once u're unhappy. u scold. u lecture. u use REALLY NICE FLOWERY languages. im sho proud of u. that u noe how to use all these. cuz trust me. kids these days have languages NICER n BOLDER den urs.

honestly. check ur attitude. and then ur blood pressure. if things were to continue liddat for long. u're either gonna burst a blood vessel. or kana heart attack. den we wud be the secondary murderers. and trust me. i have no interest in wadsoever misfortune in ur life. cuz u nv really bothered abt ours. u can be in a foul mood today. but FUCK. neither am i in a good one.

quoting frm TET.
im not gonna talk to u unless u talk n behave like a normal human being again.

on behalf of the whole world. i would like to urge u to make neccessary arrangements to go for some anger management course. it wud be a GREAT benefit for everyone, esp mum. therefore. i thank u in advance.

pls do not ask wad happened.
im honestly not in e mood. who bothers to rmb wad happened anyway?
ultimate madness.

i've had enough. if there's anything for me to be angry at e gods, it wud be my birth in this family, and to have a father like him. hoho. i dun CHOOSE to be born in this family. so stop complaining how unlucky u are to have children like us. be thankful we dun bang ur head into e wall n make u wake up. hoho. throwing u into e kallang river wud be stinking up e waters too. unless u do sth to check ur attitude. there's no way ANYONE on earth can live peacefully with u. pls. GET. A. LIFE.

yes. i will still hafta take car rides frm u. unless u wan me to quit tuitions. which i can. any minute. as long as u give me the green light.
yes. i dun deny im being mean n evil n shld face e wall n cry to myself for being a meanie. but. it just sucks. right to e core. thts it.

i'll try my best to show u how wrong u are abt various things.
just OPEN ur eyes n THINK.

urghhhhh.
i almost burst my own blood vessel today.
sickening day. things juz seem to go wrong one after another.
so freaking not in e mood.
off to drown myself in cold water.
ciaoZz.

+ exposure'05 pics +

2005-08-13T10:42:00.000+08:00

heyhey..
im feeling fresher after a nite of sleep.. new day.. new start.. yeah.. smile to make my day brighter.. =))) ...
hmm. currently having breakfast.. uploading pictures..
pictures which anki reminded me of..
exposure'05.. photography workshop at RJC.. 2 wks ago..
after e lecture we juz roamed abt n keep taking crazy pics.. pics that dun make much sense at all.. juz uploaded a few.. enjoy..

the drain lid in the toilet cubicle.. -.- i thot i could see my reflection mahh.. but got so many holes.. ... it looks cool to me. like. a wu di dong. ermz. never-ending abyss? hahas.. im proud to be a lit student. -.-

ooooh! my fav pic of the day! the toilet bowl flush!! u see my finger? its reflection is like trying to press the button..? hahahs.. so cool!! -.-

okok.. me n anki nothing better to do. pple go toilet n make up etc etc. we go n take stupid pics. but anyways. 1 more to come... TADAH!!!

U NOE WAD IS THIS?! hahahs.. *ahem.. it's only found in the GIRLS toilet.. so sorry tht i forgot to rotate it b4 uploading. hahs. so u all hafta rotate ur head. but iz SO easy to guess wad this is?! only my tooted mother dunno. n only her tooted daughter will take this kinda ARTISTIC pic.. =P hahahahs. okk.. see who guess correctly first.. any answers pls post at my tagboard kays? anki! shhhhhhh... XDD

hahahs.. stupid picture of anki.. but i stupid-er. cuz i asked her to climb the elevated steps with MUCH difficulty. n she smiled n luffed while strolling up. ... we took 3 shots n i think this was e best. -.-

yayyyy she made it up the steps! reunited with me. ahahahs.. pic taken by gang quan.. the MAN who shelter a sec1 gal in e rain to e bus stop. both of them shy shy end up both were wet. ... so amusing lah. XDD

yayyy. my booooootiful shoes. =.= okok. im lying. i still love the black version. *cries. BUT THE WHOLE SG DUN HAF LIAO. STUPID!! urghhh..

random pic taken during the tutorial. i like e design. so plain but veh special yeah? =)

WOAH! dun cry little kids. iz my daddy. -.- the fearsome eyes which i caught in e car. 1 sec after this pic was taken. my dad scolded me. see. photographers are such a bunch of sacrifical pple. ... maybe this pic will tell u why pple r afraid of my dad. *shrugs.

WOOOOTZZ! 2nd fav pic! hahas. see it's got a FRAME anki! hahas. iz a windmill thingy actually. i tied it to e railings outside. near e garden. den e frame iz actually my sliding door. yeah. my brother's gf bought it for me in australia i think. x)

yupps. thts all. lazy to upload more. hmm.
actually. taking pics. makes me think of shutter. ... nvms.. *smiles at mg n anson..
o yah anki. our sang torch article is due on monday!! the one on national day. SHIT. call me kayyys..? tonite! =)

click-ed.
snapp-ed.
a flash of light.
a memory forever.

'_ yi duan duan hui yi zai mei..
_ ye zhi neng yong qi mei xing rong.. ]]'

+ confined +

2005-08-12T16:43:00.000+08:00

phew. finally over.
2 wks of blardy ca3. over over over. hmm. left with minor papers. chengyu test. english summary. thts abt it..

iz so freaking early now. lunch-ed at j8 pasta mania with xianx n ahpu juz now. and rachel py joanne chloe. hmm. currently broke. owes angeline mama $10. sighs. so so cham. actually wanted to shop alone after ahpu n xianx went back to sch. but no money. so juz walk walk walk. every level also walk. lyk a wandering spirit lahh can. called. jov. gnia. n even my mum. -.- juz random calls on pple on my mind. jov n gnia engaged. left with mum. yah i actually told her how bored i was. n she was lyk. dun be crazy. come home lah. nice show on tv leh. -.- i was like... .... den walk back bus interchange to take 410. pass by gnia's house. n a familiar block of flats. n RI.

yeow kian wee boarded e bus. my p6 classmate. e boy tht sat nx to me. who always tops in math n science n loves to compare with me. n i can only win him in english n chinese. -.- still rmb. he always luffs lyk a maniac whenever he tops in one sub. he's noiser den me. can u imagine? -.- he's super skinny n short. got one time during linlao's lesson. he kept telling me how stupid his sister was. den e nx min. he flew. he really FLEW outta class. linbiantai dragged him outta class blah blah. n he screamed. ahahahs. me n gnia luffed lyk siao.

home-d. tv-ed. bathed. online.
feel like typing out all my emotions but veh lazy to form sentences in my brain. -.- iz just. urghhhhhh. u noe. sumtimes u juz feel so frustrated tht u wanna scream n let all ur veins nerves cells n various body parts explode n tear apart. n e residue wud be ur heart. dripping with blood. fresh. raw. ready to be served. ... ....

sumhow. i thot after today's phy paper. i wud be so freed of all e sad n depressing stuff. but no. im feeling horrible deep down. really baddd. i wonder if gnia will ever understand. i wonder if feli will ever understand. each of u will understand different things. gnia abt frens. feli abt the sensitive topic. gnia will nv understand e sensitive topic. cuz u nv experienced it b4. feli will nv understand abt frens. cuz u nv experienced it b4 as well. u haf so many trustable frens. so many great pals surrounding u. sumtimes i wonder. if sumone were to confide in me. i think i'll probably end up confiding in her/him. cuz i think i really need a human diary. not that blogspot is useless. but iz just. veh difficult for me to type out my emotions. when most of the time. i feel like hiding under e blanket n juz cry to sleep every nite.

yes i probably understand that many things cant be solved by pure talking. action speaks louder den words. i probably noe tht i shld write a letter to evona. and naomi as well. i really wanna clear everything up. but probably nothing i do now will help. n im just. stucked. i juz dunno wad to do. n when to do. probably everyone shldnt be blamed. we're all humans. we pick up things frm pple. the intellectual mind is brilliant. in 1 min. u can dislike sumone. in 1 hr. u can detest sumone. in 1 day. u can hate sumone. in 1 wk. u probably hope tht e person shld juz drop dead n die.

im not afraid to disclose their names. cuz im really dying deep down. cuz i noe tht wadever tht happened. one of them is a total misunderstanding. while the one. is probably filled with black clouds n cold glances. 11 yrs. i wonder wad we have been doing. 3 yrs n many times spent together. i wonder wad our frenship is anymore..

whatever tht happens. i just wanna say. u are my fren. the past. the present. the future. a fren is for life. moreover. u are special to me. in ur own ways. u have always been. i have nv blamed u. nv. all these yrs u stood by me. so did i. and so will i. forever.

if one day. i were to change. will u be dere for me?
that i do not noe.
but if one day. u were to change. u were to bitch ard n piss pple off. i will be dere. to bitch n piss pple off with u.

i can NOT care wad others think i am regarding this. cuz it comes frm the heart. n if 11 yrs, n 3yrs, of frenship din gain u e trust frens ought to have. i have nothing to say.

maybe in ur eyes. im nothing. perhaps i dun mean anything to anyone on earth. but i'll love myself properly. i'll learn how to cherish myself. at least i noe. if e world were to give up on me. i wud be dere for myself. yes. thts wad i learnt outta e lonely times alone. juz thinking. juz pure thoughts that really made sense.

so what if i hang out with certain pple every day in sch..? does it mean tht we are great frens?
so what if i dun hang out with certain pple every day..? does it mean tht i dun care abt them..?
how superficial..
how untrue..
how biased n dumb the human brain can be..

my mum n me. we are so similar in various ways. but why. why is she so so strong, when im almost e weakest being on earth?

sumone told me b4. god is fair. when he takes sth away frm sumone, he'll give him/her sth in return. but now. what do i have? whatever i got. studies. comp. n probably even choir. wadever. is incomparable to wad i really wan. and thts e simplicity of my life. i just wanna be happy. will u grant me my wish?

god. whichever religion u come from. dun challenge me. im not as strong as u think. but im trying my best to show how strong i can be. im trying to overcome all e obstacles in life independently. im trying to not shed any more tears. im really trying. very hard. just that. u noe how difficult it is. getting over things isnt just not thinking abt it. really it isnt. i've tried. n im struggling. to stay alive.

perhaps. since then. i've been trying to channel all my concentration, time n efforts on non existant things. choir. sch. piano. tuition. did i tell u.. i started doing tuition hw.. i started reading books n newspapers.. started talking openly to my mum.. started telling my aunt that im not as happy as she thinks i am..

doing these things tht i nv did b4.. but i dunno why am i doing them now..

perhaps trying too hard isnt too good. it makes pple think that those stuff are ur priorities. but i badly need a place for me to channel everything to. a transition place. my sanctuary.

perhaps. everything is just a mental breakdown. a nightmare. a bad bad dream.
i am still a happy gal. even happy gals cry. even happy gals act strong.
when can my brain be just washed off stuff n just be a dumb ass. like gaojimei. i rather be like her. stupid n dumb. but happy.

eww. i need a wash.
stained n all.
i badly need a break.
a long long long break.

maybe all of u need one too.
maybe i shld change my blog to a private one after all..
where no one noes wad im actually feeling..

eugenia. i miss u. i miss aitong. i miss e times we had together.
*hug..

staine-d.

'_ zou zai yu zhong..
_ yu shui bing mei you chong zou wo de bei shang..
_ ye mei you xiang shi zai wei wo fa xie er kuang luo..
_ xi yu mian mian..
_ nao hai li chu xian de bu ke neng shi..
_ kai xin de hua mian.. ]]'

+ obs part 2 +

2005-08-10T10:54:00.000+08:00

wahahahahs..
i just came back frm amk polyclinic..
wahahhahhas..
i CAN go obs..
wahhahahahs..
the doctor said my ligament tear was a minor one plus a mild sprain.. and he actually guessed tht i walked alot these few days during recovery.. thts y iz kinda painful.. ahahhas.. and he said since there wasnt any swelling blah blah. e ligament shld heal on its own by sept. which is by obs. which means. viola. i CAN go obs. viola. IM PHYSICALLY FIT. *thinks of madagascar. ahahahs.
he's a malay. but he looks like chinese. his name is chao short. just like mine. wooottZzz. ahahahs. he's shuai mans. so freaking cool lah cans. he said i wun limp for life or wadever unless i try to break my legs by jumping down suntec city. -.- just hafta rest really well n take good care of my ankle till sept. hehe.. i'll force my mum to write an excuse letter for me to pon PE till obs. hrmph. i dun care. im NOT gonna do incline or sit-n-reach. blahhhhs. OBS is more impt.
ahahas. this doctor is freaking cool mans. amk polyclinic room 10. name.. err... nor azhar.. i think.. ahahahs.. he actually took my height n weight.. n freak lah. i almost screamed when i saw my height. he recorded it as 157. den tell me. ehhh. i think e scale isnt really working. ......... i was lyk. WTH. i thot i shrunk. so did i? n he said. errr. dun worry. u'll grow A LITTLE MORE. u're ONLY 15 ..... #@^&@*!(* hrmph. but nvm. i gained back my weight. 41.5kg. hahahas. not bad le lah. he still rocks. i left my obs packing list on his desk lo. den he ran all e way outside to return it to me. i happen to chase after him on e opposite direction summore. romantic sia. -.- ahahahs. jk. jk.

dun ask me y im sho hua chi these days. saw i chao shuai guy outside e neoprint booth tht day. ahahahs. but he was with a gal. n he was. holding her hands. ... okok.. lalala..

on e flip side. i feel lyk whacking e freaking cheeenah sinseh i visited laz wk. wad an arse. wad limping for life. wad a lie. my mother taught me not to lie since young. y u lie to her?! qi pian wo de gan qing.. arse.. but i'll still hafta put on e bandages. cuz e oilment my mum insists on applying till obs, really stinks. urghh. so i hafta wear sandles to sch n continue taking e lift. yeah.

ann will recover.
the ligament tear is NOTHING. juz muscle tissues n stuffie inside my nerves having a fight. they will be ok in a couple of wks. everything's gonna be so fine.
ann's gonna enjoy life.
ann WILL enjoy her life. as much as possible. i guess.

im gonna perservere. go home after sch every day. no staying back. my dad's gonna fetch me home. den i no need to spend money. hehhs. den i can save save save. end of e yr. WHEEE. iz NEW ZEALAND! ahahahs. *glares at e only 2 dollar note in my wallet now.. ...

choir chalet's gotta push till e 2nd wk of dec le. cuz i think i'll only be back in sg on the 10th. thts e earliest lah. yepps. as much as my parents kinda express their unwillingness. they din really have much objections. to obs. to chalet. to nz trip. yepps. so i guess. they still rocks. just that. u noe. i haf to pay for my own expenses. yeah? which is a. very big problem. -.-

for e past 4 days of holidays i have been slacking as much as possible. totally din touch a dip of lit. n im really wondering wad am i supposed to study. ... juz read thru e notes or sth izit? sighs. n phy is a horror. i really hope e paper is freaking easy compared to tys. if not. haha. goner.

as much as im trying to divert all my attention on barney n obs. i still get reminded of freaking things. even at e damn polyclinic. disgusting pple. nvm. perhaps i shld juz off my com. off my hp. den chill out at home n hide under e blankets. sleep. study. munch on chocZ. sickening mum's been nagging abt e whole NTUC bag of M&Ms cadbury hersheys delights. cuz we're like rationed to tht bag till end of this mth or sth and it's been constantly decreasing in choco population.. urgghhh. fine fine. meimei's mum said. no nuts no chocZ no wadever. more water more fruits n veg izit? -.- i've heard it a million times. just that. things dun seem to get better. cuz. i still eat chocZ in bulk. XDD hahas. bro smuggled more rations last nite. sweet brother. XDD

hp is such a waste of battery. i hafta charge it like. every day? sumtimes once in 2 days? yah. maybe one day i shld try going out without it. dunno wad it feels lyk mans. maybe it wud be like how meimei wud feel without her watch. ahahs. i've learnt to not wear my watch. just that. veh uncomfortable when i start staring at my bare wrist. ahahs.

off to do stuff for mum.
no tata msgs for this entry.
ciaoZz pple.

+ obs +

2005-08-08T21:06:00.000+08:00

woooahhh.
im backk to blog today. no tonite. -.-
happy bdae to anson ankita n angelyn. wootZz. reg no. 3, 4, and 5 of 2604. *claps claps claps..

bought anson a fake hp when he got his first REAL one ytd. ... feel sho not entertained. nvms. today's outing.. haha.. dunno wad to say bahhs. not exactly happy yet i was trying to entertain myself while smsing jiahao when he's lyk nx to me. haha. suicidal thots. wootZz. interesting yeah? ... had tuition juz now. kana scolded lyk hell cuz i went 20 mins late n i juz strolled in with all e undone hw. damn. i shld haf juz thrown them away b4 entering. ... anyway i also dunno how to do. keep for wad lah. they make me even more demoralised for this fri. sheesh.

kbox was farnie. though i really wanted to throw e glass cup at e cheeenahhh guy when he politely asked us to scram. wth. i was super bu shuang. u served e food 10mins b4 e time we were supposed to leave. den haven eat finish send e bill to us. chao bu shuang lah cans. hrmph. e nx time. im going to partyworld. bleahhhhhh. *sticks out tongue. eyyheyyy u cant cut it.. *runs..

me n jiahao got anson a AE86 large version. but heck. im lyk giving it to mg. cuz she's totally in love with her mega big one. n my mini version iz lyk. so pathetic DRIFTING nx to her. o yah. i wanna drift when my ankle gets better. dayona! DRIFT!!! *screams. =.= so cool! pretend i sitting in AE86 n jielun drive me.. wooooooaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh.... ...

never had a dream come true..
till e day tht i found u...
when can i ever find jay.....

hahs. im going for obs this sept! i dun care. my ankle MUZ get well n i MUZ go. im going for e medical checkup on wed. unless i find sth really wrong with my health. i INSIST on going. ahahs. all thx to my bro. e gay one who loves pink yes. even he went for obs in sec 3 lahhh. with his geeky specs and what have u. and he went cuz it was compulsory for his sch. oh wells. x) wadever man ... he placed a bet on some weird stuff tht i wun be able to live thru e 5 dayys. haha brother. u can = i can. unless my ligament flies away. bleahhhs.

actually. my ankle iz better le. i think? after my bro told me his funny experiences at obs. sth lyk. got 2 pple canoe-ing. he was e one behind. den e guy in front fell asleep while rolling e thing. den he nodded off to sleep, causing e canoe to tilt to one side. den my brother screamed lah. use his canoe stick or wadever paddle thingy to whack tht guy's head. woke him up just in time so they nv drop into e water. ahahahahahs. sho farnie. my brother cursed n swore at tht poor fellow lo. dun ask me y he's so afraid of water. when he actually noes how to swim. ... *thinks abt poor ann.. ... anyways my bro said i'll rmb it for e rest of my life like he did. ahahahs. he said lotsa bullshit things happened at obs so iz lyk. SO WORTH GOING!

they better station 10 lifeguards for me. now tht i dun haf any. ... kays nvm. we'll be wearing floats rite? n floats FLOAT. so i wun sink. so i wun drown. yayyyy. =.=

actually. now i just pray tht my ankle gets well. like. by tmr. -.-
iz not tht bad when i dun wear ankle guard. but. tht freaking sinseh asked me to wear. ... so contradicting. i can actually run at home liaos. not a dash lah. juz a mild jog or sth. or maybe slight skipping? i dunno. i always like to jump n skip ard at home. ... spas lah huh. but i shuang leh.

OBS OBS OBS. *chants. ahahahs. im sho excited.
i wanna go NOW. lyk mutter REPARIO or sth for my ankle to repair. -.- ahahahs.
many stuff on mans.
choir chalet.
nz trip.
n now got obs.
mum actually allows me to go for everything. not exactly allow. but she doesnt object to all my chantings abt obs. ahahs. im lyk. wow mummy. i love u mans. she actually went all e way to bishan with me to buy anson's fake hp ytd. cuz she wanted to play with it. ... im lyk. wth. mummie u're wayyy pass e kiddy age! lyk by 45 yrs?! opps. -.-
wahahhahas.
love love mama. XDD

spent lotsa money today. bought e musical box or wadever u call it? u noe e one u got frm germany meimei? yupps i finally got it. it plays it;s a small world. tht super dooper sweet song. used to listen it on a baby thingy. u noe those minnie mouse figurine tht will turn turn turn with e music. yah yah. i listened to tht nice thing to sleep every nite since young. till it went bonkers few yrs ago. so freaking happie to hear e tune again. been wanting it since i saw it at taka b4 u guys even went to germany. but it was super dooper X. i only haf lyk. 2 or 3 bucks for this wk. how cool is tht. -.- ...

hmm. had a good nice talk with eunice today. doing cip as karang guni mahhs. den my leg prob. was supposed to just sit dere n look after e valuables. ahahhhas. den asked eunice to accompany me. ahahas. den we just talk talk talk. all e way. eunice is such a sweet gal. serious lah. such a guai kia at cip blah blah. but not exactly a guai kia cuz she copies hw n i occassionally copy mine frm her. -.- she's really nice to talk to me abt stuff i really wanted to spill out. iz lyk. woahh. i felt really shuang after talking. yepps. not forgetting mad ahpu n xianx who learnt dancing lao shu ai da mi from those kindergarden kids. ahahahahahs. entertaining lah kayys. *claps. u made mr lim luff. kiwi.lim actually looks quite nice when he smiles. ahahhahas.

all thx to my bro im feeling so high.
and all thx to mediacorp tht he's so high. so rare sia. he's always grumpy n all. but today he's lyk super dooper happy. cuz they got him on a show with moses lim n nick shen or sth. n he won cash. lyk quite alot. but kind brother FORGOT abt his sis. oh wells. nvm. x( he even got to repair his hp for free when it's way off waranty. so gdd! ahahs. o yah. he's getting his first car on e 20th. sighs. will be seeing him lesser i guess. sad. everyone's lyk dumping me at home. bahhhs. sadd lahh.

off to do some work. since im happy. ahahahs. my gay brother has big influence sia. ahahhs. okok. he's NOT gay. he just. loves pink. .... and shopping. X)

my angels for e day.
#1. eunice
#2. 2nd bro jan [wahahahs. iz PINK for u! XDD]
#3. jiahao didi
#4. gnia
thx. =)

sorry meimei.
i will still try.
i promise.
i will try.

.it died.

.on the 8th again.

.stopped n skipped a beat.

.yes that was what my heart did.

.yes it was the deep scars that hurt beneath.

.yes it was caused by e footprints you left behind.

.looking back at our past again.

.im leaving behind a beautiful memory.

.an everlasting and perfect memory of us.

.all the times we had together will never fade away.

.but i will let e maple leaves fall like the curtains on stage.

'_ wu fa shuai diao jing jing gen sui de bei shang..

_ dan wo neng ba ni ji zai nei xin shen chu..

_ ba wo de tian shi kou liu zai sheng pang..

_ ni yong yuan dou shi wo na ge tian shi..

_ wo jiang wan mei wu xia de ni cang zai xin li..

_ ba na zui zhen shi de xin jing jing de wo zai shou li..

_ yong bu fang kai.. ]]'

+ crappp +

2005-08-07T14:43:00.000+08:00

booahhh. -.-
back. AGAIN.
suddenly got so much to crap. like on holiday mood liddat. nothing much happened but juz wanna type sth. -.- crazy me. nvms. juz realised i got nth to type but i juz feel lyk typing. yeah. so if u r extremely bored now feel free to read. if not juz click on e X on e top right hand corner. XDD

lalalas. currently. eating some beancurd desert. listening to mu nai yi by linjunjie. -.- and searching bu de bu ai lyrics for didi.

im not supposed to be slacking lahh huh. been slacking in almost every physics lesson. seriously dunno how im gonna die on fri lo. all e calculations. i only noe mass density those sec 2 topics. completely tooted at acceleration crapp abt some gravity or free fall thingy. n those GRAPHS. *faints. i hate graphs as well feli. i juz CANT do them lahhs. they dun lyk me lo. not my fault. ...

actually. which lessons do i really pay attention in harhh..? -.- most of e time my mind's lyk drifting off to somewhere. or juz pure doodling in my notebook till kiwi.lim catches me or sth. think i listen most in maths bahhs. geog ss physics are totally diao subjects where u see pple lyk jojo n ahpu sleeping. not forgetting dearest zhenyang. XDD ahahahs. ok nvms. chinese is pretty okok.. juz tht we're having this screwed relief tcher got mrtok is off for reservice. clever lah he. go liao leave us so much hw lah. ni hao. u come back see how we zhen si ni. kaos. i haven touched e 2 compos he gave us. sians.

sumhow. im not really enjoying sch lah. unlike meimei. ohoh. mei3 mei3 is meiching. -.- ahahahs. im li4 li4. so together, we are. meimei lili. -.- such a lame thing. lyk veh ego. ahahahs. lalalas.

i like barney.
not joking lah. i really lyk tht purple dinosaur. im not anson. but i lyk tht guy cuz e way he sings tht song is sho farnie. if u noticed. e first page of this blog. when u enter u'll see e song lyrics. i actually watched barney when i was young. n run ard in front of e tv doing wad e kids dere do. n teletubies too. i was lyk wad?! p3? yah. watched tinky winky dipsy lala n po at 6pm on kids central.. rolling on e ground n turn turn turn. den tooted ann will run ard n roll as well. -.- u pple just dunno how tooted i was before. okok. im still veh tooted now. nvms. dere is a remix version of tht barney song. sth liddat:

i hate him
he hates me
let's chase barney up a tree
grab a big fat gun and shot him in the head
look everybody barney is dead

ahahahs. okok. im supposed to love barney. *ahem. which evil person came up with this song ehh? u shld juz face e wall n let me shoot a bullet thru ur peabrain. ehh. but actually ur brain quite big larh. so genius sia. think of such a farnie song.. ahahahahs. okok. only for sadistic pple lyk me. u dun think iz farnie meh? ... =.=

barney is nice. barney is cool.
barney is sweet. barney is so amusing.
wahahhahas. not refering to weiching's brother in any way lah. -.-

barney is purple. international gay colour. YAYYY for gays. -.- i think if barney's light blue or sth. i will like him better. oh wells. x)
barney is a dinosaur. anson's favourite animal. u noe aozy. i wanted to get u a toy dino ytd when i walked pass toy r'us. dunno how to spell larh. but hor. all e dino too scary le. scaring a bday boy is a sin. ... -.-

i kinda miss tll.wed.730pm's lessons. those by mslillieng. where we get to luff at joshua for being late for lessons cuz he watches e barney shows downstairs. -.- luff at him cuz he's allergic to red yellow n green food colourings yet he loves to eat those chewy gummy bears with lotsa colouring. den go home n take medicine. -.- luff at charrisse for being short n forever not doing hw with me. XDD luff with feli.goh about jayyy being better den panweibo. ahahahas. den talk abt ryan's galfren n his shaved hair. n also catherine's infatuation with matrix n all. ahahs. not forgetting yvonne who turns up every once in a while with her madness over ORANGE. she n naomi can be best frens. juz tht. yvonne's ard 2 heads taller den me. ...... ahahahahs..

oohohh. wmp's playing TONG HUA!! *screams.. i wan go kbox tmr!! jiahao let's run dere after dismissal. yayy yayyy. let's go n watch charlie n the chocolate factory. yayyy yayyy. chocolates!! o mans. lets get e bestest seats so tht i can help charlie's factory go bankrupt by wallopping all e chocolate stuffie. XDD

crapp finish le.
tell u all sth.
actually type all these crap. is cuz mc say my blog's veh depressing. so i wanna prove tht im not depressed. so yah. u feel happier? XDD

*runnn!!! barney's here!! XDD

' _ yi ci you yi ci de yan shi bei shang..
_ bu duan you bu duan de hui yi cong qian..
_ yi qie dao di she me shi hou cai ke yi zuo ge liao duan.. ]]'

+ pouring out +

2005-08-06T11:07:00.000+08:00

BOO!
ahh.
back to blog again. trying to make e atmosphere funny. -.-
k nvms.. perhaps i had loads to type laz nite but juz din haf time to.. cuz of sth called BROTHERS. ...

ytd after ex-co meeting. hobbled one level. den took lifts 3 levels down. o yah. i nv blog abt my stupid feet. this is a GRAND account of ann and her poor feet. anyways. my ligament tear tore again. -.- as in. laz dec's tear. it TORE AGAIN on tues. which is amaths-cum-chinese CA horror day. which is napfa 2.4 day. ... can vaguely rmb wad happened ard me. cuz everything's lyk blurblur n all i noe was. AHH. ITS FREAKING PAINFUL. HELP. but i rmb i din wanna make things big cuz e stjohns came over n i tried hopping away. not until tht arthur guy came over n make me sit down, did i let him take off my shoes n smelly socks n apply some toothpaste. ok not toothpaste. some whitey stuff.

visited e sinseh. she freaking pulled my TOES. poor toes. she juz lyk. plucked them. i was lyk. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. den she ignored me. probably cuz we heard screams nx door too. n the nx. n the nx as well. or maybe cuz it's lyk the norm dere. .... k nvms. she put me on bandage n ankle guard for ard 1 wk. n for e past 3 days i've been going to sch with sandles n all beidgey stuff on my ankle. actually. it hurts alot only on rainy days. perhaps thts y i've been singing the rain rain go away song so often. ... normal days iz on and off. sumtimes pain sumtimes not. n im limping not cuz of e pain. iz cuz the damn ankle guard iz guarding my ankle. -.- iz lyk. restricting my ankle to move e way i wan it to move in order to walk. that kinda thing. u get it? -.-

but anyways i can walk fairly well at home. without ankle guards. yah. no running no PE no anything for 2 wks. not fun at all. cuz my mum says she gonna bring me to some BIG doctor to get a BIG paper to exam me frm ALL BIG napfa tests forever. ... all thx to e sinseh. she scared my mum lah. i noe i shld believe her but i dun trust her lah. how u expect me to trust sumone who pulled my toes?!?! ... anyways she said if i were to visit her a couple more times.. i may haf to limp for life. *shudders. anyways. sharmilah said tht iz e end of my running career. not lyk i had one at all initially. but just. no more soccer. i woke up a few mornings ago finding a deflated rubber ball. n i really wonder if thts wad my mum said abt banning soccer. well. she din touch e netball at all... .... nvm... iz not exactly soccer for me anyways. iz just. plain dribbling with e ball alone. yah. and iz just farnie to watch my bro get tripped over e ball n scream. ... yes u got it right. it's the brother loves PINK. and loves SHOPPING. and appeared on tv. and chased me outta e damn room. URGHHH. who on earth has brothers liddat. goshhh.

making plans for both choir chalet n nz trip this yr. o yah feli. probably visit u ard mid nov. den 2 wks later hope u can come back to sg with me n naomi. den first wk of dec. can come choir chalet. we help u celebrate ur bday. ahahahs. brilliant. just tht. i haven gotten my eldest bro to book it yet. ... and e air plane tix. checking out info frm my aunt le. XDD jo.tng may be coming with us lehh feli. ahahs. XDD

sumhow. life isnt as fun as before. before being before 0805. before T3 started. before common tests started. sighs. i dunno wad i wan liaos. iz just. veh veh different these few days. leading a rather quiet life. busy n hectic with e tests n all. but just. extremely empty. nv felt so empty since 0805. but just. sighs. i dunno how larhhs.

maybe ms lee min er is right.
abt the different types of love.
for eg. krishna loved susila mainly cuz of her looks. he likes to admire her. but tht kind of love i see in tht lit book. iz not superficial. he did love her. he did miss her. he did dote on her and she was his gem. yes. so dere's nothing wrong in loving sumone cuz she's chio or he's shuai. wads wrong? humans haf been judging on others' appearances ever since we opened our eyes. even this kind of basic judgement thingy, is love. just tht. dere are love based on trust. love based on the other's ability to meet a need. love based on money. love based on companionship. yah. thts right. companionship. when u need some one to juz walk ur life together with u. sharing all e stuff together. perhaps thts wad i need. perhaps even if sumone just helped me do sth. i wud love him/her. just that. perhaps thts wad others call plain stupidity. or flirt. or wadever. but u can love anyone in e world. just that. dere are various love-recipients. parents. siblings. frens. guyfrens. galfrens. whoever. u can love sumone with wadever reasons u have. they say. love need not haf a reason. but duh. u will haf a reason for loving sumone. n the reason could be stupid. dumb. or just that u dunno. or u dun wan to accept it. or perhaps u just feel that e person iz perfect in ur eyes. tht is a reason for loving. isnt it?

all the lovey couples u see in the canteen every morn frm 645 to 720. dere were ard 7? perhaps not all of them love each other. but they enjoy each other's company. perhaps it is love. perhaps its not. but who's to define love? no one can. i can tell tht someone cherishes someone else alot. but deep down. would we all noe how much tht person love e other? juz becuz u care alot. does it mean u love alot? ... nvm. i dun get it at all. i noe im supposed to get it. but i dun. n i seem to care abt it. so i'll continue thinking until i get it. ...

perhaps i have never loved anyone. perhaps it wasnt love at all. and it isnt love at all. perhaps we're all too young to love anyone. ... ok. i noe this shldnt come frm me. but. i dun understand many things. but im learning to accept the past tense. just that. e phobia in me to start all over again. it just wun go. every time i get reminded of stuff. i'll freak out. i'll cry. i'll scream. i'll call jiahao lyk ytd. i'll freak pple out. i'll remain acting strong. perhaps it's just me. im not strong. thus i will try to be strong. by acting strong. thts me. n thts my mum. she acts strong as well. just tht. her acting skills suck. ... mine are better. =)

suddenly feel tht my mum's so similar with me. our lameness. trust me. my mum's jokes are totally. OMG. iz probably colder den the fridge in 3/4. cuz i take lyk 5 to 10 secs to decipher wad e joke is all abt. ... ok nvm. perhaps iz hereditary. but nvm. it just proves tht we are mother n daughter. and. my mum's unreasonable at times. same as me. my mum can do anything as long as she wants it. same as me. my mum cares abt wad others think abt her. same as me. my mum is very siao. same as me. my mum.. looks lyk me when she was in pri sch. ... i think. cuz i saw myself in her 1960s pri sch pic. utterly shocked. but nvm. dun think we look alike now... -.-

perhaps. waiting is a sin. waiting is a crime.
perhaps. this blog lay dun exactly reflect my feelings. perhaps just 50%. i think.

last but not least.
thanks.
to everyone who cared to watch this show of mine.
or even bother to stop n look.
u played an important role.
cuz u're my audience.
and u watch my life.
wif ur pts of views.

limp-ed.

'_ yi xun jian..
_ wan wu dou ting liu xia lai..
_ zhi you ni.. bu duan de ben pao..
_ zhi you wo.. jing jing de gen sui..
_ zhi xiang hao hao de ai yi ci ah.. ]]'

+ continued +

2005-08-05T23:04:00.000+08:00

kayys im back.
iz lyk 11:04 and im terribly tired.
haven been sleeping for more den 4 hrs since monday. sighs. typical sg life.

hmm. geog test was pretty ok. after sch had lit crash course with ms lee. sians. xianx. u all nv go de notes all with eunice.. yups.. can copy de i all copy le.. -.- hmm. den after that had choir recording. some weird anderson bamboo song. -.- veh diao. ex-co members + some sec 2s + teachers who r ex andersonians. including mr.LEOW. shudders anyone? he's e !!!!! guy who setted e last 2 chem papers. ........ ok nvm.. ms baig's voice is really really nice lahh.. she's marking my geog paper so her voice is SUPER DOOPER nice on top of her chorister voice. ahahs. k nvms..

had choir ex-co meeting after tht. ms yeo treated us to canadian pizza. woootZz. brought up several issues. n i think im supposed to find out abt choir chalet tonite. but i haven started cuz bro's lyk chasing me outta e com room n my elder brother who's supposed to be able to book a decent chalet, isnt ard at all. darn. nvms. we WILL get an EXCELLENT chalet. hRmmz..

first time bond together with all e ex-co pple.. i felt so freaking proud.. ahahahs.. really.. it was a super super nice feeling.. huishan cried lo! ok nvms.. i was so damn shocked when she cried in front of me while grinning.. so diao.. -.- k nvms..

bro's chasing.
all the mental notes taken down e whole of today.
all e stuff to blog. i cant blog. darn.
I WAN MY OWN ROOM.
I WAN MY OWN BED.
SHOO!

`_ qiao qiao de li kai..
_ dan xin yu ni tong zai..
_ mei you she me hao hou hui..
_ zhi you wu fa he ni gong xiang ni de jiao ao..
_ rang wo fang bu xia yi qie de yi qie.. wang hou kan.. ]]'

+ one troubled mind +

2005-08-05T19:44:00.000+08:00

yay.
spent 1 hr on changing this layout n the codes stuff.
whee. finally done.
but i gtg for tuition in like. 15 mins. -.-
okay nvms.

one whole shitty week of tests.
this is a really special term to me. for e first time. im mugging without any motivation. err. sth like. nothing propelling me forward to read n memorise every single detail on my notebook. just do 75% of notes den memorise wad i think is easier to memorise. den. next morn. revise wad i rmb-ed. den before i noe it. e test paper is in front of me. tadah! ...
somehow. i can sense e difference in my attitude of mugging. changed le lo.. but this term also veh tyco. everything tht i memorised in detail came out for 4 - 8 marks ques. those tht i dunno only 1 or 2 marks. ahahahs. tyco sia. -.-

ques: do u think the method(suggested by the student) of removing carbon dioxide is effective?
ans: yes. cuz i was e student. i say effective means effective. .....

i wrote tht in pencil. but was trying to fit in lamer answers. i erased for e 10th time den mr tan say stop writing le. so end up mine was lyk. er.. i forgot. ... -.-

` tuition ; brb -

+ clearing up +

2005-07-23T19:07:00.000+08:00

brrrr. im practically freezing.
dunno if iz just me or wad. but i've been feeling cold the whole day. despite e fact tht im not wearing sleveless. and iz NOT snowing here. ... nvms..

told feli tht i'll blog to clear up some mess. and some broken parts in my life. yeps. just that. i dunno where to start. cuz wadever pple are seeing seems to be UR kind of fact. which is NOT so. yes. i dunno if i shld put it straight across pple's faces. tht im not attached. yah. right. tht shld lead u pple to e point. mhmm. reason being rumors can kill. and i wun risk my reputation for a guy who's well-known for being notorious, and whom i can only treat as a nice friend. yupps.

i wouldnt blame anyone for having wild guesses. cuz i myself too had some. i juz realised tht. this iz not my kind of method to get over my past. somehow. things juz dun work out. and wun work out. i see no future in this so called present. -.- dunno larhs. jiu shi zhe yang zi. up to u all to think n churn out some things called crap and gossips. wadever.

i've said wad i intended to say.
so now. talk abt me. yah me.
life's rather messed up now. frens. i guess. yeps. juz look ard in e corners, n sure, u'll find some. i guess. mhmm. somehow. life's filled with question marks n commas. yeah. till this very minute. i hold to my principles abt stuff. still the same. nothing has changed if u were wondering. i noe lots of u pple think im leading a wonderfully-good life now. but no, not exactly.

everyone's thinking the same wrong way. and iz pretty much my fault. cuz i portrayed the wrong image to pple. yes. rmb? life's a stage. im an actress. i played the wrong role. yahhs. i couldnt do wadever i wanted to do. cuz pple will think im selfish. yes. unfair to the other party. yes. i noe. but believe me. i did whatever i could do. i've tried. again n again. but the result will always be the person's blind determination n strong-headed-ness. i noe i will hurt him. sooner or later i will. but believe me. im trying my best to fade away. i believe i can. though i need time. cuz now just isnt the right time. and the only thing i can do iz to act ignorance. which sucks as well. arghh. blardy ann. iz all ur fault. now u shld be the one to face the wall n cry. thx mc. -.- this whole cool-pee just aint getting anywhere. cuz it isnt cool at all. -.- ok nvm.

sumtimes i juz wanna run ard screaming into pple's faces. asking if they truly understand me enough to conclude abt stuff. but. do u all noe wad im going thru? haf others gone thru it? of cuz.. in a big big big world like ours.. dere's bound to be a few million who went thru it b4. but at 15. i hate the feeling. somehow. i feel lyk. im ONLY 15. but then again. iz also sth lyk. wad?! 15?! so fast??? ... so weird. i dunno wad im talking abt liaos. i thought english is the universal language? a bridge which links up the whole world? thts y e government came up with the speak good english movement thing? but then. how come some things cant be put into words to communicate with others? how come words can sumtimes fail to show e true deep feelings of an individual? i dun get it sumtimes. really dun understand this big big world the small small me is living in. tsk. nvms.

great. im beginning to feel warmth. cuz of the hot soup i juz had. nice feeling.

sumtimes i wonder. wad exactly does a gal do after a break up?
no bad feelings here but just. honestly. will any gal try to act strong for 76 days in the counting? i really wonder. y muz she throw herself into e boiling pot of stew when she could run happily in her world of green grass, ignoring the affairs of the world outside. why?
page X of e latest issue of seventeen says. that she shld get to noe more guys. hang out with a guy. treat him as the transitional guy. sumone who makes u luff n cheer u up. but dun rush into a relationship. blah blah blah. i forgot e rest. ... sumhow. yah. but nvms. iz not sth big to rmb ehh?

perhaps pple will think tht im in e wrong. no doubt, frm e very first day, im already condemned as being wrong. i dun deny that. iz e choices we make in life tht leads us to our future. and also, in my point of view, tht my choice led me to my doom. yes. i thot tht by letting e string loose will help every one be happy. but no. im not. iz just. not the same kind of happiness. and not THAT kind of happiness. yeah? u get it?

and iz also not tht i dun wanna make a choice this very min. dere r lotsa consequences to bear. and u noe wad? i am the one facing it. not others. thts y i care. rite? nevertheless. i chose to be happy this term. i dun wan to be rmbed as the gal who almost lost herself due to some stuff pple thought was common. i wanted a new life. i wanted to be happy. but i din expect a whole load of white ppt to evolve cuz of my few moments of happiness. treat it as im e one selfish n irresponsible n inconsiderate n slutty. wadever. im sorry. okay?

take it as im deprived of love.
take it as everything is momentary.
take it as i still need time to find a new life without love.
take it as i juz realised i will nv find a surrogate for my past.
u win. okays?

________________________________________________

anyways. im so doomed for napfa. esp e upcoming 2.4 run. ytd went to kallang theatre with mc for e dance concert by SAJC. missed a step n i think my left ankle kana sprained. until now walk down stairs also veh painful. though not as painful as e ligament tear one. arghhs. tht makes me semi-handicapped in both legs. ligament tear one iz right. this one is left. bleahhhhs. sickening ankles. chop them off jiu no need run for napfa le. wahahhahas. =.= N/A is better den BRONZE. bleahhs.

im not sad. im not sad. im not sad.
dun ask me to cheer up.
cuz it'll remind me tht im sad.
den it'll make me sadder. -.-
makes sense?

u noe wad?
leon can really sing. so does weilian. and kelly.
sebastian is really cute. so is derrick. and silver.

zipp-ed.

'_ chong xing zai chu fa..
_ neng bu neng rang zhe ge tian di bu zai chao za..
_ wo de xin li mian an jing de bu xiang hua..
_ gu shi de zhen jia..
_ mei you duo yu de li qi qu fen bian ta..
_ zhi bu guo xiang hao hao de ai yi ci ah.. ]]'

+ mentality +

2005-07-17T19:32:00.000+08:00

woah. another post.
iz practically a daily post kinda thing. -.- hmms.

kayys nvm. i made lotsa mental notes on wad to blog juz now while bathing. but seem to forget everything le. hmms.

feli. i juz settled things. shld be fine. though i dunno wads gonna happen tmr in sch. wootZ. -.-

gnia. thx for ur mail. iz been ages since sumone close actually mailed me such heart to heart stuffie.. yupps.. so glad for ur post.. student conductor sehh.. muz jiayou kayyys? have confidence in urself. no confidence tht time think of me. abt us. those times in p6 where we made a pact to join choir in sec sch together. where we sang xi shui chang liu at e parents' corner. sighs. memories sia. will nv ever forget u. =) thx alot gnia xiao mei.

hmm. perhaps everything can be proven with time bahs. time is like a calculator. solves almost all mathematical probs with a few buttons n formula. den after some + - x etc, u'll get ur answer. sooner or later. but sumtimes. answers can be wrong. pple tend to add in human instincts n play with the formula. end up screwing everything up. i seem to see the big picture. just let time flow.. u'll get e answer frm deep inside ur heart.. i guess..?

perhaps. everything's just so fated bah. i dunno. i dunno if everything typed here is just crap to all of u or wad. i dunno if u're reading cuz u got nothing better to do, or u juz wan to find out abt my life. sometimes i really wonder. if depressing blog entries = depressing life.. den y am i always trying to blog happily.. yet deep down dere'll always be a part tht hurts...? i dun get it.. maybe time will do e job.. i guess..

perhaps. somethings can nv be forgotten. like past memories. ms lee was right. no matter how many prized possessions tht used to make u smile at urself late at night are thrown/kept away, stuff will nv be forgotten. so no matter wad i do. i can nv accept things graciously n just put them away at e back of my mind, pretending nothing actually happened. i kinda understand that i haf been a fool. for e past 3 wks. iz really. not that much of being me. iz juz the me who's trying to haf a new life. but deep down. i cant. i really cant. i've already stretched myself to e limits. but nothing can be done to erase all e scars. somehow. i dunno whether im making any sense actually. but nvms. im quite fine.

i found myself like a tiny metal ball rolling in a maze. u noe those type where u try to put 10 of them into a small space given in a box or sth? saw one at taka tht time. yahhs. iz lyk. rolling abt. trying to get outta ur sanctuary. hoping to find another comfort zone where u can really forget e past n lead a new life happily. but i realised. no matter how much life tried to turn e wooden box ard. i cant seem to get into a new heaven of mine. i may haf left my old sanctuary. but wads left is juz a wandering metal ball. rolling n rolling. u juz nv noe where u'll be going. tht kind.

i badly need a guide in life.
i badly need sumone experienced to show me the way.
i badly need u. to tell me tht everything's just a dream. sighs. they asked us to expect the unexpected waddd.. let me dream awhile also shuang mahhs.. nvms.. iz lame n unrealistic. so forget it lah huh. forget it.

i wan a musical box. the one with e romeo n juliet song. at taka. the toy shop a level above kinokuniya. can sumone get me one? pls?
sighs. if only everything iz so simple. music. juz continue playing n playing. over n over again. i wud be so glad to turn e handle. over n over again. juz play the song i like. skip all the unhappy portions. dump them away.

maybe it was a mistake right frm the start.
maybe i was already certain abt these things all along. tht i can nv go thru metamorphosis.
maybe im juz so so in love with my past. yeahhs. i'll learn to let go of e memories. i guess.

time jiayou.
wo quan kao ni le.

.it's like walking in a never-ending circle.

.where u find urself tracing ur footsteps again n again.

.on the 70th day. i finally realised that. somethings can nv be replaced.

.no one can. no one. except u.

'_ ru guo you yi tian..

_meng xiang hui shi xian..

_wo xi wang zi ji neng yong yuan huo zai guo qu..

_huo zai mei hao de hui yi li.. huo zai ai ni de shi jie..

+ distortion +

2005-07-15T18:35:00.000+08:00

i dunno y im blogging at this weird hour.
juz thot tht maybe i shld blog. since i got loads to say. though nothing much really happened.

iz been ages since i laz suffered frm depression.
haven been feeling sore n teary since june ended i think.. but now.. the pain seems to be coming backk.. n i haf no idea y..

i thot i shld be happier.. i always did.. cuz i ought to be happy.. i got frens. i got my parents. im gonna haf my own room. my o lvl oral n listening compre over. not much hw. choir's fine. wads bugging me den?
maybe i ought to learn how to be contented with my life. maybe i ought to learn from the gal i wrote in my chinese compo todayy. o btw. i went for e competition. mum postponed my tuition from today to tmr at 11 laz nite. -.- nvm heckks.

everything seems to be forgotten. my identity. my past. all the memories.
but actually. nothing has be erased frm my mind. just tht my attention is slightly diverted. perhaps all the happy things going on in my life rite now are fake. i dunno.. pple laugh.. i also laugh.. pple talk crap.. i also laugh.. just laughing my life thru liddat.. though im not that sure wads so funny.. so weird.. -.- perhaps i juz wan to divert my attention away from e supposedly painful past.. perhaps i juz wan to fit into my clique of frens.. perhaps it all roots down to me trying not to be alone at all times.. but duh. iz impossible. i noe. even now as im typing. im physically alone. im thinking too much. yes yes. i noe.

feeling so stranded. so lethargic. i dunno where to go. wad to do. i just wan my life back.. but come to think of it.. wads my life..? iz like throwing me into the pool without giving me a float.. and the lifeguard keeps screaming directions at me.. i wan to swim left. but i cant. so i swim right. but i cant move an inch. iz lyk. so frustrating.

iz not abt caring abt me after all. or perhaps it has nv been abt me. i dunno..

i miss u mg.. i dunno y.. although we're juz a level away.. dere seems to be sth between us.. maybe too long nv talk with u.. i dunno.. but im always wanting to talk to u.. just dun haf e chance to.. sighs..

i miss u naomi.. we're like 2 levels away.. but i miss ur madness.. iz always me who says BOO whenever i see u ard lo.. haix.. wan to talk to u badly jiu dui liao..

i miss u feli.. we're like..... half a globe away.. -.- nevertheless.. thx for trying to be ard when we need u.. perhaps i nv tasted life like urs.. or perhaps u nv tasted life like mine.. but iz okayy.. my heart is always with u.. rmb that.. love u feli.. becuz of this dedication.. smile kayys? =)

jonny is right.. perhaps everything is just a facade.. life's a stage.. everything u see is part of a play production.. yah.. maybe.. i dunno.. everything is filled with uncertainties..

i haf lost count in the number of days..
i shouldnt even start to count anyways..

move-d on.

'_ dang xing xing ye bu xiang shan liang..
_ you4 you3 shui hui zai wo sheng pang.. ]]'

+ boreddd +

2005-07-14T18:59:00.000+08:00

sians.
im blogging due to ultimate boredom.

iz lyk coming to e end of wk 3. sighs. so fast. nx wk sec 4s having prep prelims le.. puayfen mama n jiahao papa muz jiayou.. debbie too.. =) miss u all loads lahhs..

sians.. having not much confidence in myself lately.. choir was pretty fine.. take over liaos.. first day i kana a bunch of rotten batteries with leaking god-noes-wad inside the keyboardd.. ms lim said e keyboard spoilt so gotta get new one.. how suey can i get larhhs.. bleahhhs.. stupid keyboardd.. sian diao.. ahahs.. realised tht i nv really learn pasigin.. cuz i kept running in and out.. learn bits n pieces here n dere.. =.=

o yah.. jonathan quek is in choir.. bass sia!! ahahahs.. so iz cybil.. a sop.. yupps.. sec 3s jiayou!!! hehs.. the guy that duet with me at bishan mrt.. when u believe sia.. omg omg!! im sho high.. finally lah can.. join wad BADMINTON?! ahahahahahs.. choir is ur choice mans!! =P *runs away frm mg.. hahahas...

o yah choristers.. u all wan choir chalet in nov/dec mah? muz start planning le lo.. muz book asap.. wait other pple kop away.. -.- wan sentosa de chalet? heard iz pretty good lo.. =P

things are still pretty alrite in sch.. puqin jojo xianx are getting more n more SIAO over derrick and junyang.. hahs.. im almost neutral.. but support junyang more.. ahahahs.. he sang JIE KOU!!! *screams.. damn nice.. okay nvm.. lalalalas.. silverr is chao chio also.. i love her name cans?!?! omg. nx time my daughter shall be called silver. so cool!!! ahahahs..

juz got my ABRSM letter ytd.. piano exam lahhs.. ermz.. 25/8.. thurs.. 9:39am.. J8.. ahahs.. can pon sch.. =P

o yah meiching.. i think i changed more den u.. from sec 1 till now.. but i not enuff pics to show e changes.. i free den go make.. wahahahhas.. i changed alot larh cans.. pri sch pple cannot recognise me lo.. bleahhhs..

tmr got o lvl chinese listening compre.. after that got chinese compo competition.. me n eunice dun wan go.. facing PRCs lyk 3/7 tht lin hai.. can go knock wall larhhs.. write wad compo.. go home larhh.. -.- summore my chinese is yue lai yue chiat lat.. tsk tsk.. suan le.. dunno which lao kok kok choose my compo.. n mg.. i think tht compo iz e one u wrote the ending for me de.. so u shld go.. ahahs.. dunno lahhs heckk.. i think my parents dun allow me to go.. cuz i got tuition tmr.. dad spent whole journey home juz now talking abt priorities.. say wad.. tuition is more impt tht wad stupid competition.. -.- nvms.. liddat i got excuse.. no need go le!!! wahahhahas... pang seh eunice.. evil me.. =P

shall go for dinner..
starting to feel a little hungryy..
haven been sleeping tht much recently.. despite sleeping thru eng..

gone-d.

'_ yue lai yue yuan de dao bie..
_ wo men shi fou you zhuan sheng de ji hui..
_ yue lai yue jing de ju li..
_ wo men shi fou you xiang ai de ji hui.. ]] '

+ 080705 +

2005-07-08T19:33:00.000+08:00

wahahahs.
think i nv spent a fun-ner day in 3205 b4. today is such a rocking day mans. okays. cut out the crap abt rumors. blahhs. den it'll be perfect. hehs. =))

7788 rox!! listen to our zhu da ge!! *latest hit in anderson..
proudly presented by 3205..
7788..
7a joanne.. 7b puqin.. 8a ann.. 8b yuxian..
OUR SUNSHINE SONG!!!

you are my tai tai tai tai yang. [sun]
my only tai tai tai tai yang. [sun]
you make me kai kai kai kai xin. [happy]
when the skies are hui hui hui hui hui. [grey]
and you don't know dear.
wo duo mo ai ni. [how much i love you]
please don't bring my tai yang [sun] away..

*translations done in brackets. XDD

TADAH!!! impressed? song thought by ann the spas. lyrics changed by jo the toot toot. hahahhas. we all got nicks. jo is xiao mo gu. aka. xiao toot toot due to her fringe. wahahahs. ahpu is xiao ling meng. xianx iz xiao yu yu. -.- and i haf no idea why i must be xiao YI YI. wah lao. iz ANN lah. not ANT. cant u spell. hrmph. stupid ahpu. wad use insecticide to spray. evilll. bleahhhs.

todayy's funn lahhs. though my ear almost died. -.- cuz puqin madd de. sang london bridge and do-re-mi in maths lesson. every one turned over n look lah. heng kiwi.lim dunno. if not ask u assembly sing in front of everyone den u noe. wahhahahhas. go change ur blogname larh. i outofbeat. u outoftune larh can? -.- hahahs.

recess was alright. liyin scared me lahhs. sians. nvm. and tht asyeeqah? i dunno how to spell larhhs. tht short and cute gal from 3/4 jiu dui le. hahahas. WHICH ONE ASYEEQAH?!?! wahahhahs. ann feels evil. nvms. i changed nametag with meiching. now still haven change back. hahas. nvm. some day i shall go make one with a diff name de. just in case. -.-

ms baig let us off for geog early. after punishing abelyang. hahahs. he sat on the ground lah cans. throw choir de face eh u. bleahhhs. summore is my didi. *abush. hmm. den 7788 go locker. ahpu went hyper. go up the lousy stage to sing. we were completely =.= out larhhs. so siaos. den we performed to our non-existing audiences. wei yi and our sunshine song. wahahhahas. thank you thank you. *bows.. wahhahas..

hyped lah. so hyped.
me and xianx luffed at jo until pengx. -.-
cuz some xiao toot toot extra mah. no one take pencil box only she take. den she EHHHHH at us lyk itz our fault liddat. wahahahhas. XDD

we sang the same songs over n over again. to every innocent one who didnt want to hear. -.- went late for mr leow's make up chem prac lesson. but he's nice. nv scold us. hehs. i keep caling him over lyk call waiter liddat. hahahs. sad lahs. me n jo de chem suck de lah. summore dun listen in class. sua. juz call PARVATI!!! hahahs. zhenyang also veh zan! hahahs. my idol lehs. of cuz ZAN. muahahhas. he also waved at me okay puqin. bleahhhhhs.

after sch. me ahpu xianx naomi went for lunch opp sch. talk talk talk. lalalas. without jo become 788. we go advertise in front of jerico and darren. they were lyk. wth. siao kias. hahahahs. in case u were wondering wad we did, here it goes:
YOYO. DA JIA HAO. WO MEN SHI. 7788!! YAYYYYYYYY!!! ... ... ...
XDD

den go "help out" 3205 de booth stuffie. until now i still dunno wad our booth is doing. -.- let alone where izit. so tmr. i juz lalala walk ard. oi 7788 stick together. we go ard advertise our new songs. whahahahhas. =P

just had tuition and came home.
damn happy cuz my house's gonna undergo a major revamp soon. everybody's changing rooms except my parents. im gonna haf MY OWN ROOM. but. aunt's gonna be sleeping with me. and her wardrobe will be in my room. -.- but i veh happy liaos lahs. at least my things are not gonna be in every room of this damn house. like this -> bags in living room. com studytable piano in bro's room. bedroom share with aunt and maid. toilet share with grandma n aunt. half of my clothes in parents' room or sth. hahahs. pathetic yeah?

but anyways. yayyyyy.
hmm. i drew a proposal for my dad larhhs. den he got the carpenter n designer or dunno wad crap person. nx wk they coming to revamp or sth liddat. gonna haf NEW BEDS. *faints. finally. the bed im using now. was my bro's when he was ard my age. ... and he's lyk. 29 now? ....... NEW WARDROBES. cuz mum say my current wardrobe too big for me. i nothing to put. so change room that time give my bro who's taking over my bedroom. -.- lalalas. den wad? dad wants to install aircon and tv for me in my new room. hahahs. but i dun need tv lahs. but hor. if he insists. i dun mind lah. hahahhas.

dun be jealous lah huh.
im so freaking happy cuz my blasted house is finally gonna be in some kind of order.
for 15 yrs. i nv had my own room. every where i go just isnt my territory lah huh. i juz wan some privacy. yupps.
no one's gonna say: GET OUT. THIS IS MY ROOM.
no one's gonna say: IZ ALREADY 12. GET THE HELL UPSTAIRS.
ann is so glad.
for once. i love my dad. for having so many carpenter frens. -.-
i love my mum too!! cuz she's getting new stuff for me. yayyyyy.

im ponning walkathon on sun. heck. iz next to my house. 5 mins walk. but iz 730 so forget it. i dun give a damn. 7788's not going. jiemeis all not going. pang seh kiwi.lim. wahhahas. anyways i got tuition at 10am. lalalas.

off-ed.

'_ wo xu yao shi jian..
_ dan shi jian bu xu yao wo..
_ qing rang wo ji xu xiang shou zhe zhong kuai le..
_ rang wo tong shi ba guo qu de yi qie gei wang le.. ]]'

+ newlife +

2005-07-06T21:39:00.000+08:00

wow.
almost 6 days haf passed. into july now. so fast. it nv occured to me tht im already more den half way thru my sec 3 life. gosh. time flies. yeah. dere's only lyk 4 mths? den sec 4s leave liao.. sighs.. choir de takeover is nx wk.. i guess.. sian diao larh can.. i wan debbie n puayfen mama back.. 0405 committee is such a rocking batch of seniors.. love them to bits larhs.. =(

iz only been lyk a wk? ard there?
but i felt tht i've been given a new life. a new way to smile. a new way to have fun. a new way to live. cuz im finally outta tht coccoon. yeah man! metamorphosis!! 3205!! hahas. really hope i will live on my life liddat. even if i think abt stuff i also can carry myself up after some time. hahs. ann jiayou!!! you can do it!!!

muz change layout le!!! to a happier one. =)

cornetto royale triple chocolate rush. rocking ice cream. =))
swensen's frozen chocolate malt. rocking ice cream. =)))

nowadays the ice cream man dun come le. more lyk i'll go find ice cream to eat. yeps. icecream just rox. esp chocZ flavour. iz so rocking tht all my low spirits will be gone after eating it. hahs. rawking ice cream. =))

dunno izit i lagg or i lagg. -.- quoted frm mg. anyways. 3205 pple started missing ignite'05 since it ended 2 wks ago? and me? i start to miss it only today. after seeing the pics kiwi.lim. took for us at toapayoh hub. goshhh. my elderly!!! tht ah gong whom i bought the wrong type of prawn mee for. sighs. so paiseh abt that lo. -.- i feel chao ji lagged. ok nvm. mr kiwi lim rox. he got a picture of mr adidas. face left half. but can see iz him. xianx almost drooled. hahahs.

actually. alot of things happen thru-out this wk. i dunno y. life just took place so quickly lyk a dream. yet. i dunno where to begin if i were to type everything out. just. liddat. yeps. i guess im still fine. yahhs. still very much enjoying toilet trips with threetwo.jiemeis and waiting for ching every morn at the lockers. and going eng lessons with angeline. doing chem prac with jojo. [with the help of pa-va-ti the pro. =.= ] and all the lame n farnie stuff frm puqin. F7. hahahs. her derrick and junyang. diao. sabo me larh. go anyhow tell zhenyang stuff. hrmph. u got so many laogongs n imaginary boyfrens le. dun snatch with me!!! ahahahs.. nahhs jkjk.. puqin is madd over superstarr.. jojo and xianx madd over ge dou.. *faints.. today worse sia.. i became F8. sang guiji with puqin during efl. -.- turned xianx jojo and layling away. hahahahs. but i think syn yeow looked over. o.0 errr. ahahs. nvmm. ahpu! we got fan base!! hahahahs.. siao..

i kinda miss meiching's room. ok just the toilet actually. not that my hse no toilets larh.. but just. miss it lah. hahahahs. so siao. enjoyed all the times i talk to ching abt stuff. XDD so funnn. the lit proj is so gao xiao. we do until SHO FREAKING NICE. nice until when i saw the final product. i was lyk. OMG. IZ THIS MY BLARDY PROJECT? WE DID IT? REALLY?!?! hahahahs. but guess wad? iz only worth 10 marks. whEeeEeEeE.. our tissue proj rocks larhh.. who cares.. hrmph...

sumtimes iz just damn pure pissifying to haf guys liddat on earth. yucks. not refering to any twosixers or three.tootsies. arghhh. wadever lah huh. bleahhs. u shld just face the wall and cry. [quoted frm mc] -.- inspirational quotes. wahahhahs. ok nvm. nx monday is three.two's turn liaos. jiayou zijun n elaine!! hahahs. =))

ai. shi dang xia de gan jue.
bu gai yong zui hou de jie guo lai pan duan dang chu de jue ding dui huo cuo.

yayyy. ann is enlightened again. smart smart ann. =)))
ann muz be brave. =))
ann muz jiayou!!! XDD

'_ yue shi guo du dong de bao hu zi ji..
_ jiu yue nan yu zhen xin xiang yu.. ]]'

+ you know what is this? it's called "trying to be happy".

2005-06-29T22:12:00.000+08:00

oohlala. i haven blogged for more den a wk.
lalalas. iz been 3 days since sch started. and we already saw tht auntie relief tcher thrice. how fun. summore a couple of free periods lo. kiwi.lim finally absent le!! hahs. neo's away for 2 wks. but still had to join zalehah for ss. darn. we got goo-nahs for geog. ex chorister. ooohlala. she's so blardy cool. n farnie. thts it. she was a chorister. ah-hahaha. =.=

moved to e blardy new classrooms. bigger. but air-con-less. and the BLASTED lockers. so far. wan help us train for napfa izit? *abush. sickening. n morn assembly's been superrr fun these days. we get to luff at those councillors saying pledge n announcements blahhy. *points at naomi n luff. SCHOOL ATTENTION! wahahahhahhas. join in the laughter! cuz u'll nv see naomi frm where u're standing. ahhahas. okayys. hope she nv ever reads my blog. i'll be so ---- if she sees this. hahs. but my lao gong still rox okays. she got me a big blue notebk frm popular. guess how i noe where it came frm? the tooted orange forgot to remove the price tag. SMART! hahahs. love ya laogong. XDD

hmm. nowadays go recess with ching. end up comparing who's more popular. -.- dun ask me y. i think the only way i can win her iz to wave at pple at imh. hahas. bleahhs. nvm.

now new environment liaos. seats at together. all e 8 of us sit dere can organise illegal gathering. hmm. muz apologise to xianx. so sorry make u sacrifice by sitting on e right. the YC thing. u nv tell me. i din realise until i read ur blog ytd or sth. sorry kayys. i noe i abit selfish larhhs. but hope u understand can? hmm. yahs. toilet trips are fun too. with xianx, jo, and puqin. at first iz xianx n jo siao over ge dou. now pupu also influenced liaos. hahas. i onli like those nice nice phrases at e beginning of each chap. as for wangrenfu they all.. errr errr.. hahas. jay rox. XPP

hmm. actually all e hol hw i nv do finish lo. nv bothered to finish up any since sch started. wadever larh. do geog for wad lah? do liao change tcher. hahas lucky i smart. nv do finish e articles. *points at ching at luff. XDD k nvm. hmm. ss also. do for wad? neo nv come. come back sure forgot de larh. bleahhs. and we got more time for the causeway point proj. lolz. xianx puqin april. should we be starting on it soon? hahahs. XDD as for lit. wahahhahas. ching i wan go ur hse!!! so enthu. FRI!!! jiayou!! XDD narayan rox. saw priscilla's TET bk today. chao gao xiao. pasted a panweibo? pic over his face. hahas. i couldnt see clearly frm e back larhs. hmm. lets all go take neos. use the pose narayan used. think it wud be much nicer with our faces larh can? lyk wad ms lee said. can motivate us to look wors. XDD

sch sch sch. choir's been rocking these 2 days. no doubt larh. abit shuang. hahas. hmm. love e new song. though i gotta screech lyk siao. sop1 is no easy feat for an alto. it nv has. look at my puayfen mama. poor gal. used to drink honey every day. hais..

sians. nowadays lyk many pple down. not only me. so i cannot feel down. *stands on chair n look at naomi. wahahhahahhas. ok 2nd time suan-ing her in this entry. feel so guilty. XP hahas. nahhs. justin the tall one lyk veh cham. nowadays keep asking me to send him cheer up msgs. so everyone. if got nice nice farnie msgs pls forward to me. u can brighten up many pple's day. cuz i =). forward to justin. justin =). he forward to his down frens. den alot more frens =( will become =). -.- okay nvm.

i haven been a guai kia since term 3 started. which iz mon. -.-
yah. been smsing alot in class n all. though e damn blardy new tables dun haf e compartments below. and tht ZHENYANG!!! *screams OMG. he dun wan his nice table liaos. with DIY stringed compartments. he went to steal e ones with compartments nx door. e discussion room de. den hor. tht @^@&*$&@ nice shuai kind generous o.0 ZHENYANG, cut e strings n abandoned his table at e back of e class. i ask him to gimme he actually FORGOT. *heart breaks. hahahahs. nvm. i'll try to kop his table or sth. if it's still dere. hahahs. =))

im madd. lalala. bohui's madd. lalala. aitongers unite!!! wahahahs.
can u all rmb the aitong sch pledge?
we, the pupils of aitong sch.
pledge our loyalty to the sch.
to uphold its good name [...]
to pursue language and diligency? [...]
to respect our elders [!!!]
to persevere in work [...]
to be sincere in our attitude
and together,
create a more condusive? learning environment?

bullcrap. hahahs. my eng sux larhs. i can rmb shihui chanting it over e mic lo. hahahs. 6b'02 got lyk SHO MANY prefects you mei you? ziling jiaru shihui joanne becky grace weeyang. eh forgot liao. hahas.

so crap. go console pple liaos.
justin say i not as funny as his fren. ... i think if mg talk to him his jaw will drop frm excessive laughing. den brain dead due to excessive lame-ness. hahahahs. okay nvm.
ann aims to be:
1. professional tai tai.
2. professional crapper.
3. professional consoler. =.=

wad crap is this. nvm.
ciaoZz.

'_ guo qu dui ni de qi dai..
_ bei ni yi ci ci shuai huai..
_ yi jing sui cheng tai duo kuai..
_ yao ze me pin cou gen chong lai.. ]]'

+ choir party//2106 +

2005-06-21T20:57:00.000+08:00

numbed limbs.
cooled body.
blasting head.

the sad stuff can wait. i get it.
lets talk abt choir party. *breathes out. itz finally over. all the crazy meetings n planning. finally over. i nv knew tht organising a farewell party iz so damn luan n stressful. sighs. but i felt good when pple come thanking me for having this party. telling me tht this party rox n iz the best tht we ever had. hmm. im happy tht u guys had fun. esp the water bombs. yeps. but im kinda sad lo. iz probably the last time all e seniors get to haf fun with us. until the choir chalet ba. if im still alive by then, with all tht stress. i'll probably arrange one in late nov. yeps.

special thanks to pple who helped me for this party.
james.loh n yukang. probably the only sec3 guys available for every choir prac for me to bully. -.- yah. thx for giving in to me for every little thing. although sumtimes im quite disgusted by the triad things james lyk to say every now n then. -.- anyways. thx for running here n dere with me. settling stuff. yeps. n yukang u rock larhs. dun keep humji-ing behind others. speak up kayys. u got the potential. =))
huda n pete n subeer. best juniors i can ever haf le. u guys rock okay. thx for helping me conduct the games in order for e choristers to stay awake while we settled the food. thx for giving all those support.. settling the gifts etc etc. thx pete for calling the pizza. thx huda for attacking me with the DAMN BLARDY BIG HUGE ENORMOUS bag of water from behind me. thx subeer for being e sec2 loanshark. =)
chewyan. for being our art co-ordinator cuz all of our art just suck. thx for being supportive of me n my busy-ness. sorry tht i had to junk all the gifts to u n make u stand alone for all of these. i had e food stuff to settle as well mahs. so sorry alrites? anyways u still rock. we are e only altos who are transferred to sop. muz jiayou. =))
deborah.puayfen.joy.jiahaopapa.ziyuan.vijay.bifang.agnes.yukai.
ever so thankful to this batch of seniors. AND.choir committee '0405. you rock our lives. you know that alrite? no matter how much committment u guys put in to choir. we really appreciate every single bit. down to the tears n sweat. muz jiayou in JC. hope every single one of u enjoyed the party todayy. anderson choir loves u forever. =))
last but not least, ms yeo chuen2.
thx for saying HI ANN so enthu-ly everytime i call u. -.- okay nvm. but thx for being so supportive of me yukang etc etc. thx for understanding our heck-care-ness abt safety rules or wadever shit tht they came up to not allow us to play water bombs. yeps. thx for being our choir tcher i/c. choir rox always. =)))

yayyy. done.
mg n anson are probably evacuating at lido now. they went to see jay when i was drenched by choristers. sighs. i ended up going home alone at 7 plus. cold. n hungry. how pathetic is that? nvms. today's a complete busy day. walked until my legs almost lost their bones. -.- even walked barefooted lo. frm temp block to music room to staff room to G.O. n back to temp block. POWERR. hahahs. =)) my parents n aunt are back. say gdbye to freedom.

borrowed all the different subjects of hw frm xianx mg anson charmaine huiyi. how power am i? SUPER DOOPER POWERR RANGER. hahahs.

hmm. great. classroom allocation. 3/1 first floor. 3/2 n 3/3 second. 3/4 n 3/5 third. 3/6 3/7 fourth. ann = winner. winner. winner. i love major chong. yayy. yay. yay. .....

nvm. sumhow everything juz happened lyk a dream. sumhow today's lyk a dream.

any one noes wad date today is? oohlala. iz a 21st. just a normal tuesday the 21st. wads wrong with 21st? just a stupid date? nothing wrong wad.. yah.. nth.. nth..

y does everything turn out liddat? y y y? y cant we juz get on with our own lives. mugging mugging n mugging. jay jay n just jay. y y y? y must human haf feelings.. i rather be a cold blooded freak. really hate to go thru everything over n over again. iz a torture. horrendous torture tht i must go thru yet cannot let pple noe im going thru it.

everytime i see u. the wound which i thot is recovering opens up. bleeds. rots. tadah. bloody scene. no one clears up e mess. no one noes wad happened. the wound sits alone in a corner. seeing everyone's reaction. all e eyes stared at it. pitiful. it tears. it bleeds. it tears itself apart n self-destruct. so much pain. so poor thing. den? drop a piece of tissue, say "take care alrites?" n walk away. yes. no one gives that much a damn abt it. everyone cares abt just them them n them. humans. such selfish creatures. including me. n my parents. yucks. humans. disgusting piece of filth.

nahhs im really fine. honestly. y do pple think that im not opening up to others? i haf frens. rite? i do. i do talk to pple. i do open up. just that. i dun tell the whole world abt my feelings. wads e pt larh? siao. -.- okay nvm.

if only i can start life anew. not as if my life sucks right to the core now. but im feeling messed up. all the thots gushing in. blood gushing out. feeling so lack of oxygen. i can hardly breathe. i dun even noe wad im thinking at times. y am i flustering? y am i not calming down? y am i NOT not-thinking lyk wad everyone asks me to do?

jiahao didi. i miss u. when are u coming back to sg? 23rd so long. i hate it when i type an sms for u liao. den realised u not in sg. i cant send. u cant receive. this sux. i cant sms at 1am. though nowadays naomi siao siao keep sending those 12.56am sms to me. ... okay nvm.

i so wan to see jay. jay rocks. jay rocks. jay can make me forget stuff. jay can make me not think of stuff. jay rocks. jay rocks.

de piao de piao de yi de piao..
piao yi.. piao arh piao..
piao dao meng huan shi jie li..
piao dao yi ge mei you jing jie de da di..

. you din realised. but i did. iz the 44th day.

.waiting n waiting. for sth tht will nv return.

.hoping n hoping. for sth tht will always remain.

'_ dang wo men tong zai yi qi..
_ zhen kuai le wu bi..
_ ni dui wo xiao xi xi..
_ wo dui ni xiao ha ha..
_ dang wo men tong zai yi qi..
_ zhen kuai le wu bi.. ]]'

+ torn apart+

2005-06-20T09:42:00.000+08:00

yoohoo. im updating.
juz woke up not long ago. bathed n changed. put on contacts. ready for sch. x(
such an anti-climax. nvms. going for choir stock-taking blahhy. den gotta meet ziyuan for choir funds stuffie. blahhs.

saturday was fun. thanks to es gor. hahahs.
thx for making me feel well-loved. lalalas.
iz great to haf a brother lyk u. =)) anyways. ur galfren doesnt noe how to appreciate u. but nvm. ur sister does. blahhs. jiayou. tell me when u need a galfren. i'll find one for u. hahahhahs.
despos unite!! XDD
anywayz some pigg made me wait for him for 30mins. bleahs. den we went to eat lunch at changi airport. couldnt get into subway cuz iz for those with luggages. so we settled on bk. den took skytrain whEeEe. -.- den took mrt. forgot to alight at e tanah merah place. den an auntie OI at us ask us y nv alight. -.- so diao. den we run across e platform 3 times. cuz tooted es dunno how to read signs. ahahhahas. okay nvm. den we boarded e green line train. dunno how come ended in kallang. orhh. i noe. i needed e toilet. hahahhas. so we followed our calling blah blah. yeps. went to admire the !^@&@*@ kallang river. goshh. stinks larhs. ok nvm. den i gtg for tuition. so we went to novena. meanwhile es went to do his hw. i dun believe larh. but nvm. he got me chocZ. yayyyys. though iz almond. but nvm. iz nice larh okayys? hahahs. den we went to orchard to walk. at nite. munched on 2 subway cookies. so nice!! XDD n tht was our dinner larhs. so power. hahahs. den i felt weird. cuz normally when my parents are ard. i gotta be home ard 7 plus liddat for dinner. now tht im all alone. i din noe wad time to report home. hahahahs. funny. anywayz. we juz walked ard orchard. cuz i hardly come out at nite. seldom see orchard at nite. hmms. den took bus home. thts it. end of a happie dayy. x(

ytd was shuang too. went out with my cousin. she's lyk 30, married, with no kids. thus love shopping. =.= anyways i wanted to buy new clothes cuz i couldnt fit into my OP ones liaos. spent crazily. 100 bucks sponsered by aunt. 50 by parents. lalalas. end up still had to borrow money frm my cousin. +.+ dun ask me how i threw money away liddat. i dunno. i really dunno!!! screwed. minmin jie psycho-ed me into getting 2 skirts. den made me think alot. i rmb her saying sth lyk. u nv wear skirts for casual outings b4. how u noe u wun lyk it lehs? nx time u go jc. still hafta wear skirts de ma. get used to it now. if not nx time pple luff at u cuz u dunno how to wear skirts. ......... i dunno lehs. i juz dun lyk skirts. but i feel damn odd. iz lyk. wads wrong with gals wearing skirts? -.- actually i dunno. it isnt exactly wrong. but... abit.. guai guai de.. hmm.. but i think iz worth a try. yeps. she makes sense larhs. i will try. XDD nx outing: initial.D outing. o.0 pls dun luff. ... ok mg i noe u will. but thank god jiahao isnt ard. 2 mouths are worse than 1. hahahs.
thx minmin jie for the marche lunch n yoshinoya dinner. XDD ohoh. n the taxi ride home. hehhs. fun dayyy with u.. =)

yeps. guess i'll leave out the sad sad parts larhs. it would be a contradictory. up dere so high. down dere so low. -.- ok nvm. haven had a better weekend in ages. thts all i can say.

tmr got choir party. i veh nervous. pray tht everything goes well okay? =.=
so evil. i juz mentioned CHOIR. ms yoong jiu sms me. ....... o sheesh. i haven gotten her farewell pressie lo. eerks. nvm.

when parents are ard. i always hope tht they can disappear for a day or 2.
now tht they arent ard. i hope they will be back soon. save me frm bread n kaya, 3 days old spaghetti and some weird soup. i rather haf cup noodles. sighs.

guess thts all i haf. homework is screwed. so is project work. im a goner liaos.
mg. rmb to lend me chem ws n e commonwealth paper n emaths paper hor. on initial.D outing pass all to me. quan kao ni le. thts wad frenz are for. ohoh. n DAUGHTERS too. XDD
xian. do finish geog lend me hor. the questions blahhy. tmr during maths remedial pass to me. quan kao ni le. thts wad frenz are for. ohoh. n SISTERS too. XDD [ok. i noe u nv do. but im hoping u did. -.-]

gonna be late le.
ciaoZz.

'_ till i found someone like u.. ]]'

+ dashe-d +

2005-06-15T12:28:00.000+08:00

cold.
it rained all morning.
*shivers..
es gor's off to e beach oogling at bikini gals.
and im stuck at home facing e pile of hw. sighs. i juz cant do chem.

suddenly. im so missing choir. i miss tht song. i wan to sing e sop part properly. cuz i learn liaos. sudd so enthu. wan sheryl to come back to sing with me. wan meiching to come back to start e lit project. wanna dream my june hols away. sickening hols. im supposed to play n haf fun. but im not. sighs.

maybe e rain made me depressed. i dunno. feel lyk doing alot of things now. lyk walking down orchard. lyk getting feli's pencil box for her. lyk eating ice cream frm e icecream man outside my hse. lyk eating choco fondue with B4 again. i dunno y. i miss fondue. i miss playing soccer. i miss taking long bus rides. i miss playing with e swings at pasir ris. sighs. i so miss sweet stuff.

im feeling so bottled up. lyk sumone strangling my neck. lyk my mouth's been pasted with masking tape. i cant talk. i cant breathe. hais. y am i not allowed to talk here? blog= online diary. meaning i can write wadever i wan to. i can scold/insult whoever i wan to. but. i dun wan to scold u. cuz u're my fren. a gd fren. at least. i treat u as one. as my jiemei. i nv disturb anyone by penning down my feelings deep down. not as if i bugged everyone to read my blog. be kind fren. allow me to vent out everything. u noe who im talking abt ok. i dun wan to say much. but juz. be a kind soul. allow me to embrace time and let it heal my woundedd soul. i thank u from the bottom of my heart. at the same time. i wud wanna add tht no apologies wud be needed if u found out tht im talking abt u. yes. just dun under-estimate my intelligence. u are smart enough to change e typing style. but im smart enough to check codes. =)

there are 3 bars of kitkat chunky caramel in e fridge. 3 packs of kinder brueno. 1 biggg packet of M&Ns. 4 cola lolipops. a few mini cornettos. yeah. i noe. sweet stuff. all my favs. but. i dun wan any. e bottled feeling makes me feel lyk puking. doing maths makes me worse.

gui ji playing at e background.
wad else can i say..?

composed 2 short songs last nite.
doesnt really sound happy.
but i was extremely high. dunno y.

off-ed.

'_ huo de tai qing xing de ren..
_ yong yuan shi ji mo de..
_ xin li de kong xu..
_ zhi you ni neng tian bu ta.. ]]'

+ alto - sopone +

2005-06-14T17:46:00.000+08:00

okay. i juz recovered frm the aftermath.

our beautiful kind gentle demure and thoughtful conductor - ms lim. actually. transferred. me. to. sop. i got into sop 1. cuz chewyan's alto2. so she went sop2. -.- sighs. im no longer alto de SL le. veh sadd. although i still haf alto attendance blah blah. sighs. altos r so rawking. forever mans. i never thot i would ever get into sop. i sabo-ed evona n huishan. end up they nv kana i kana. *faints.. summore ytd first day go sop jiu kana bullied by siti they all to teach sops wif yeeching. wah laos. put one grade8 de nx to me ask me to teach. pressure u noe??? hrmphs. not tht my music ability is tht good. =( iz so lyk e family tradition. jiahao papa frm tenor go bass. abelyang also frm tenor go bass. puayfen mama frm alto go sop. now iz my turn. hmm. think my jingjing will kana transferred too. cuz she's my daughter. o.0

anywayz. i realised everyone seems to be in sop1. feli is. sheryl is. gnia is. camilia is. catherine is. wth. now iz my turn. after 2 yrs in choir. me n sheryl finally reunite in e same section. i bet u anything tht she'll scream OMG OMG OMG when she reads this entry n found out tht i became a sop. ME. A SOP. A SOP ONE. my highest note is A i think. e highest highest in tune note i can go. -.- Asharp is quite freaky. bleahhhs. now i gotta relearn the song liaos. sian diao.

homework's coming along veh badly.
geog ws is still untouched. did 6 geog articles liaos.
amaths do until left a few ques.
emaths untouched.
variation ws done.
chem wb done.
chem ws untouched.
commonwealth paper attempted w/o periodic table. =.=
lit project untouched.
ss project $">?@^$#!?! -.-"
SS ws. waiting for charmaine to finish so i can copy. XDD
chinese compre untouched.

lalalas.

thurs gonna play water with mg n sm. bought swimming costume le. XDD so excited. my 2nd swimsuit. first one iz p3 buy de. use for 2 wks when mum threw me into e pool to force me to learn swimming. now iz probably in tuas liaos. -.- anywayz. after 6 yrs. i still dunno how to swim. say yayyy. -.-

sighs.
i really dunno wad im doing now iz right or not. i only noe it can make me happier. n it can make my heart let go. i guess. i dunno if iz e only way. but im willing to try. nowadays. as the make up gets thicker in front of u. i dun dare to talk to u. i wan to appear happy. but sumtimes. im just not. yah. just not.
es gor say. we r humans. we all will haf feelings de.
yah. i noe. but.. aint he a human too..?
sighs.
iz juz painful sumtimes. a struggle. perhaps all words are used up. perhaps i haf already got nothing else to say. now i noe wads a lonely road. now i noe wads walking alone.

i so so badly wanna be carefree again. i really do.
i so so badly wanna be in bliss.
i so so badly wanna wash away my tears.
i so so badly wanna prove tht i can enjoy my life.
i so so badly wanna be ~~loved.~~

i so so badly miss feli.
i so so badly miss gnia.
i so so badly miss naomi.
i so so badly miss my cheerfulness. the smile frm deep down.
i so so badly miss things tht can make me smile.

how real is the word "hahahs" to u..?
how real is the word "lolz" to u..?
to me. they are nothing. they are nothing but words i use to cover up my tears. they say. the first step to be happy. is to act happy. but.. y dun i feel happy?

right now. i feel lyk catching a plane to nz. to feli's hse. i feel lyk hugging her tight n cry. i feel lyk running to mg's hse now. to tell her how weak im feeling again. to ask her to give me some of her energy. i feel lyk teleporting to gnia's hse now. to hug her n tell her how much i miss her innocence n all e times we had in aitong.

perhaps. iz juz an urge ba. i dunno.
iz juz time to wipe away my tears n stand up bravely.
*breathes deeply..
i will. =)

escape-d.

'_ zai mang mang ren hai zhong..
_ wo de yan jing chuan suo ren qun..
_ wei de jiu shi yao xun zao wo de na ke xin..
_ ni ba ta nong diu le..
_ wo dei ba ta zao hui lai.. ]]'

+ busyyy week +

2005-06-11T13:31:00.000+08:00

okok hush pple. im blogging. x)

been veh busy this wk.
had choir on wedd. discussed abt party business. realised tht we're having financial probs w/o ziyuan. hahas. so choristers. be prepared to pay. XDD

thurs. had piano. den took a lift frm my piano tcher to amk mrt. was supposed to meet. 12 at somerset. i was at amk at 11. so i loitered ard jubilee in pink. was quite pink n white tht day. hmm. anywayz. i reached somerset at 11.44am. jiahao. 11.49am. anson. 12.00pm. -.- anson u were supposed to call ah hung lo.. we even got e no. ready for u. thx to sokmui. hahahhas. okok nvm. den we went to get tix for mr n mrs smith. i got seat 7!!! yayyys. anson took 8. hmm. met abelyang with his angmoh cousin. so cool. muz intro!!! XDD yepss. den we went kboxing. had lunch n all. chicken chop. the chao sweet de ice lemon tea. but dere's sth i muz complain. the damn mic was NOT wireless. DARN!!! i got tripped by e wires AGAIN. wah laos. go all e way to cine thot wun kana tripped lyk in tampines. end up i STILL. got tripped. -.- den anson went madd. me n jiahao called mg for help. -.- here it goes.

HEADLINES: anson sang liangpopo chong chu jiang hu de soundtracks. one iz the liangpopo.. hoohoohoohoo.. tht one.. -.- the other iz by mark lee.. a hokkien song which me n jiahao o.0 at anson murmuring weird stuff.. den he went completely HIGH. it exceeded the AOZY RANGE OF AUDIBLE HUMAN COMPREHENSION. i've nv seen him soooooo madd b4. jiahao left e room when we played tuo diao. hahahahs. so embarrassed larhs. nvm. den we went to take neos. chao farnie. anson act cool. first time see him take neos act cool. wah piangz. tht black cap. sth gotta do with mg izit. hahahs. nvm.

den went mcs. i met my cousin. RJC with 7 pointers. n she isnt happy. ... no comments.. we bought float. went kino. to revive OLD memories. almost got hacked by anson. *winks at mg den run away.. anson brought his dino book n fossils stuffie. o.0 to mg: happy show-and-tell-ing. wahahahhahas. hmm. den we went to tht toy shop. erm. tht time ben's bday we went dere de. yah. played spastically. den ran all e way to cine for our movie. -.- jiahao treated popcorns. which me n anson kop gao liao. hahahahs. reutrn the emptied paper bag to him after e show. XDD evil. den jiu went home in e drizzle le. lalalas.

fri. ytd. went to tampines happy lodge for ipw. old folks home. those oldies dere are CUTE lo. me charmaine n yirong are all teochews. coincidentally. hahahs. den we did some crapp stuff in e office. enjoy aircon while dunman peeps exercised with e folks outside. wahahahahahs. andersonians are smart. nvm. den posted feli's letter at tampines post office. took mrt home. 1 hr journey okay. *pengs. i slept. to n fro. juz dun wan to wake up n anyhow think of stuff. yupps yupps.

busy hols. but sumhow. im feeling veh empty. perhaps piling myself up with work in order to not think of stuff isnt tht good. cuz i can feel it deep down. iz burning hot. with loneliness. and iz aching everywhere deep down. with loneliness. i dunno if thts a normal sign anymore. i guess. i dun wish to noe. i dread fridays. every fri i gotta take e 1hr ride to tampines for e old folks. i hate to plug in my zenmicro n blast myself with jay n davidtao's songs. i could finish 1 and e half jay albums lo. sighs. long mrt rides juz aint nice anymore. for me. everything's gushing back. to e spot where it hurts. to e spot tht will nv heal. at least for e near future. it wun. i guess.

sumtimes i juz hope my dream will come true. but wake up ann. dreams r only dreams. they will nv come true. iz not lyk e ch8 9pm tv serial.. iz not.. i nv dream of any of my ancestors.. cuz i've nv seen any of them.. iz not tht.. iz juz.. weird.. i dunno how long im able to stay strong w/o tearing.. i really dunno.. i dun even noe wad i want now.. iz not abt returning to e past anymore.. i wouldnt wan to go back in time.. it will hurt even more.. memories kill.. they rip out ur heart.. they empty ur heart.. they smash n disect ur heart into a million pieces.. n bury them deep down.. separately.. until u cant even find them.. but every piece iz lyk a shattered glass piece.. any corner tht touches ur skin.. it bleeds.. slowly.. n painfully.. iz just so.. ironic.. back to what i originally hoped for.. i realised iz emptied.. i dunno wad i wan.. i dunno wad my dream is..

wanna thank loads of pple here. for being with me. for everything big or little thing u do. im grateful. deep down. i am.
mg. u noe wad u did. i dun wanna repeat cuz it'll be LONG. ohoh. thx for not noeing how to swim. XDD and wadever happens. u rock the most. =)
feli. for being ard. always. u're e one who noes me best. u noe it. thx for understanding me gal. thx. =)
jiahao & anson. for tht outing. for allowing me to vent stuff out. n jiahao. for smsing me every now n then to make sure im fine. u rock didi. u rock. =)
naomi. for being orangey. for being so so so cheery. for preventing my tears to flow cuz im afraid of freaking u out. but u did cheer me up. loads. =)
meiching. for telling me abt ur probs at times. and for psychoing me. i understand ur words. but i need time. smile babe. =)
layjia. for showering me with care n concern. for ur testi. for allowing me to freak u out with my tears. for every single cold joke tht made me luff. =)
sheryl. for being ard during choir pracs. for luffing at every single cold joke i come up with. =)
sokmui. for asking me to join u n mg for e playing water thingy nx wk. for laughing at me in e pool during chalet. for allowing me to luff at ur braces. =)
xianx. for sitting nx to me in class. for telling me stuff. for being with me when im alone. i noe u're down now. but stay strongg. get over stuff n stay cheery.. ann jie's with u.. so will rach n py. =)
eugenia. for rmbering ur jie here. for every little thing u do to touch my heart. for being so so pure n innocent in my heart. =)
zi. for being a great galfren. for ushering me with care n concern. for being jealous cuz ur name isnt under my LUVS. but i love u lahs. =)
yj gor. for being madd abt jay. for crapping. for telling me all sorts of crap to cheer me up. =)
camilia. for being a nice fren online n over e phone. for telling me ur probs. for allowing to yet again shower u with advice. stay strongg. =)
cedric. err. for trying to understand me. for giving me practical advice. for listening to my crap.
justin. for looking for me when u need advice. for allowing me to be ur love consultant. for asking me weird ques tht i got probs answering. -.-yeps.
jonnyquek. for ur passion for singing. for NOT joining choir. for dueting with me. stay crazy. =)
everybody larhs. thx. =)

long long entry. mum's barking. nice adjective. nvms.
escape-d.

'_ wo de xin man man de ping jing xia lai..
_ you yi gu qiang lie de sheng ying zai gao shu wo..
_ ba ai fang kai.. ba xin da kai..
_ dan wo fei chang ming bai..
_ wo fang bu kai.. wo da bu kai.. ]]'

+ off track +

2005-06-04T12:08:00.000+08:00

first post for june..
expected.. i wun be high..
expected.. the chalet to be this way..
expected.. to be the only one tearing away..
didnt they ask us to expect the unexpected?

sighs.
wad unexpected can i expect? everything is so so expected. so standard. so firm. so fixed. nothing's gonna change anything. to everything will be the same. old. mouldy. stale. iz nv gonna be a rainbowey life for the next few wks.. i guess.. except tht i wud be doing unexpected things.. like going kbox alone.. like going to the beach alone.. like going to the gym alone..

the chalet.
i guessed everyone had fun. no, iz bet. not guess. everyone sure had fun. wildwildwet. arcade. mahjong. blackjack. bbq. happy bdae 2/6. yah. im juz so like an anti-climax thingy. been trying my best to be normal. put on the freaking smile n juz smile. rite. juz smile ann. dun think too much ann. juz smile n u'll be happy. be strong ann. be strong. get a grip of urself n close ur eyes when u see things u dun wish to see. thts wad i said to myself everyday away. for the first time. i missed my home when at chalet. my mum asked me to go home when i said i was bored. i made her call me 2 times everynite to check tht i was having fun. i made her talk to me for at least 20mins b4 sleeping. y did i miss my mum? iz so. so. unlike me. -.-

i did haf fun. who said i didnt? i swam. ok, admit it ann. u dunno how to swim. u juz noe how to play with water. alrite alrite. i played with water. acted lyk an idiot according to sokmui. -.- treated myself lyk a taitai in the pool without grapes n all. luffed at mg in pink swimming costume. luffed at kakei in trunks. luffed. luffed. luffed. how fake, ann. so fake. fake until i dunno what is real. o.0

i guess the best time i had thru-out chalet was the times in pool with sokmui, mg n naomi. parapara with qijia. played ball with huizhen n some other twosixers. whacked the ball damn hard on my toes cuz i forgot i wasnt wearing shoes. how pain. but nice feeling. after running the door wedge over my big toe. it felt great. warm sensation. -.- okay thts sick. nvm.

laz nite i went to the beach alone. juz sat on the rocks. juz look at the ships. juz hear the waves. juz admire pple holding hands. juz turn away when i see pple acting intimate. how fun. but actually. it was. at least i felt the most myself dere. watch blurry images. felt mosquitoes feasting on my blood. msged jiahao. freaked out a group of high n enthu malays who were singing their hearts out. pple evacuated. the noisy n fun-filled block of rocks turned into a silent n wet one within 10mins. great impact u have, ann. well done. o.0 actually. if not for the gate which closes at 10pm. i would haf stayed on the rocks overnite. heck the mosquitoes. heck the sand. heck the dirt. heck the cold wind. heck everything but me.
who cares?

chalet ended.
boooooooom. like a bomb.
whoooosh. like a wave.
pokkk. like a bubble.
all tht was left. was a memory. a memory i dun wish to rmb at all.
and all i could say to myself was. iz over. chalet's over. dun think. dun think. be strong ann. be strong. be yourself ann. but who am i?

actually. what is the definition of happiness? smile? luff? crack lame jokes? forget all the sad stuffie n get on with my own life? iz tht considered as being happy? if so, im happy. yayy. im happy. =/

perhaps the road to recovery haven even started. perhaps im juz a piece of dead skin dangling no where. perhaps the blood haven started flowing out. perhaps the tears are waiting to flood. perhaps. everything is juz so not worth it. but yet to me it is. perhaps i need sumone to pour ice water all over me. wake me up. frm the nightmare. evil deeds. shattered hopes n dreams. perhaps this is juz a place to let me pen my feelings n vent everything out. this blog is not a source of gossip for free incoming calls or whatsoever. whatever information u gain frm here may not be true. they are all assumptions from a broken heart. i guess. i dunno.

perhaps i lost my appreciation for pple around me. i dunno where it went.
perhaps my heart is already wittering. thts y i cant feel anything.
but friends. whatever i do. pls dun blame me.

allow me to cry whenever i wan.
allow me to yell whenever i wan.
allow me to sing whenever i wan.
allow me to run whenever i wan.
allow me to stone whenever i wan.
allow me to shut my eyes whenever i wan.
allow me to do whatever i wan.

im sorry. i dun mean to be selfish.
im sorry. i dun mean to be unreasonable.
im sorry. i dun mean to be to un-ann-ish.
im sorry. i dun mean to lie about my feelings.
im sorry. i dun mean to tear abt things u dun think is worth my tears.
im sorry. i dun mean to hide the truth abt how i feel in front of everyone.
im sorry. i dun mean to be such an anti-climax.

escaped.

'_ wo ku.. bu shi ying wei yan lei tai duo..
_ wo ku.. shi ying wei yan lei liu ye liu bu ting..
_ ni de yi ge zi "lei"..
_ dai gei wo wu shu de "lei"..
_ wo hao xiang ca gan yan lei..
_ yong gan de shuo..
_ mei you ni wo ye neng kai xin..
_ dan wo zhi dao..
_ wo zao yi shi qu le kuai le de gen yuan.. ]]'

+ ultimatebrokeness +

2005-05-31T11:53:00.000+08:00

wahhhs. im sho sho broke.
ytd go shopp with naomi at bugis n tampines.
spent sth lyk close to 30. wah piangz. came home with 10cents. felt so light. except tht i was carrying a heavy bagg full of crappo.
i got myself a new pencil box. finally. a bigger one. can stuff all my junk in. sho shuang. iz not exactly tht bigg larh. e smaller version of the big big bag jiu dui le. -.- kayys. den bought a new plastic file with folders. cuz mine already haf holes in them. use frm sec 1 till now lo. so hardworking. hahahs. hmm. got a new notebook. chao cool de. cheaper den the old ones. i deco-ed it with stickers n silver marker. so nice!! XDD den got a small notebk for choir stuffie. yeps. iz lime green. den got another coin pouch thingy. so cool mans. n iz PINK. cuz naomi wanted the pink pooh one. so i pei he with her. took e pink version of my funky design de. lalalas.

wootZz. i forgot to add tht we ate pastamania too. goshh. wad a sin. spend so much money lo. chalet dunno how. muz claim back 20 odd bucks frm mum for stationaries. if not i cham liao. go chalet with 10cents. how to survive. piangz. sit dere play blackjack n hope can win meh? siao. nvm. feli suggested buying tissue. SO FARNIE. -.-

my retractable wires de earphones spoilt le!! the right ear sumtimes can hear sumtimes cannot hear de. =( veh saddd. sighs. go chalet with mp3 n charger but no earphones. can go bang the wall suan le lo. =.=

so high. laz nite talk on the phone for veh veh long. hahahs. summore dunno talk wad sai. nvm. waste money again. *faints. nvm. im adapting into a tai tai lifestyle. bleahhhs. tai tais rox. tai tais unite!! =)))))

lets be guai n talk abt hw. ooohlala. ann the guai kia has not touched any hw. congrats me. n laz nite the 3 freaking maths ws for june hols came up. meaning i hafta go print n do. yucks. weisiang. if u see this. can help me dl everything den compile liao send to me? i lazy to compile e pics n stuff. got problem de. *faints. wad else. the geog thingy. bleahhhs. lyk sai liddat. stupid new geog tcher replacing hasnizah is noisy, n demented. 12 geog articles + comments etc? go n die larh. u ownself do. den photocopy give us suan le. honestly. who cares abt the human population lah. u wan give birth den give birth larh. guan wo she mo shi. siao ehh. n who cares abt how polluted rivers are? look at our singapore river. o no. iz singapore canal. u drop in wun die frm drowning. iz die frm the stinky odour n rubbish. +.+

nvm. anyways the tcher's job iz to give hw. n our job is to copy hw. the end. XDD
i sound so rebellious. x)

hmm.. maybe nowadays juz try to crap n be happy.. den i'll automatically be happy.. den the depressed pple ard me will cheer up bahh.. i dunno lehhs.. sumtimes really dunno deep down i happy anot.. cuz i realise.. if u dun think abt sad stuff.. u'll be happy de.. at least for me.. yah.. if i dun get reminded abt the past.. the heart wrenching n sour-nose feeling wun be dere.. though deep down.. i noe it exists.. iz sumwhere inside me.. yah.. juz sumwhere..

perhaps iz really one sentence. nothing is forever.
perhaps married couples dun love each other anymore. but they continue being husband n wife cuz they think their partner as sumone living in their house. lyk a teddy bear tht has been with u for yrs but u nv thot of throwing it away cuz it juz sits in tht particular position for the past decades?
perhaps my dad n mum dun love each other.
maybe they juz live together cuz of their children. cuz we cant do without them.
my dad needs my mum to wake him up every morn n fix breakfast for him.
my mum needs my dad to drive her to the market to buy stuff for dinner.
my dad needs my mum to cook meals for his family.
my mum needs my dad to earn money to support the family.
my dad needs my mum to settle household chores when he's out to work.
iz juz so abt needing each other. and using each other.
but den again. a housekeeper can be hired to take over my mum. a chaffaur/atm machine can be used as a substitude for my dad. so?
wad is love?
i dun get it.

i dun see myself as sumone experienced in love. i dunno y. iz juz so. so. different.
yah. iz juz not not lyk drama serials. where a 50yr old lady weeps histerically when her husband passes away. y shld she cry? she wud get all his inheritance. but she wud be alone in future. to face e harsh n cruel side of life. while her husband enjoys life up dere in heaven. so y shld she cry? cry cuz she'll be lonely? cry cuz she isnt used to being alone? cry cuz no one is ard to tell her tht they love her? isit so? iz this wad love is all abt?

iz juz such an irony.
maybe we all juz need a companion in life. thts it.

pple. take it easy. iz juz life. make the best outta everything. cuz u live only once. only for yourself. so live the way u want ur life to be. no one can control u.

they say. never give up on the things tht make u smile. cuz everything iz worth it. =)

'_ ci shi ci ke..
_ wo zai xiang zhe ni..
_ dan wo zhi dao..
_ wo yi bu zai ni xin li..
_ dan ye mei guan xi..
_ wo hui ji xu ai ni..
_ till the end of time.. ]]'

+ shopppp +

2005-05-25T20:31:00.000+08:00

yoohoo.
currently listening to come what may. *winks at feli yet again..
but i cant sing larh.. my voice now so husky n screechy.. so bleahhs.. since speech day until now haven recover.. dunno y.. stupid voice box.. -.-

i've been crazing over shopping trips lately. filled my wishlist in my notebook up till 10. gawddd. n i bought my x-training shoes le.. whole sg no black de le.. so i took e white n red version.. sians.. become sg flag.. -.- okayys nvm.. if iz black n red i will love it lyk hell mans.. so nice combi.. hmm.. been wanting to get e adidas bottle.. bro say he bought but i juz cant find it.. i wan e blackk de.. but wanyi using.. hrmmz.. cuz e bilabong de keep shedding skin.. -.- nvm.. i've been trying to colour e black prints back with black marker lo.. dunno y so fast got scratches.. heartache sia.. my bdae pressie frm xianx they all lehhs.. x(

this sat pon tuition to go out with pple. lalalas.
first is punggol pri de carnival. wan go see mandy ong. hahahs. see how toot anson's sis is. yeps.
den i think going out with es? dunno lehhs.. n evona too.. go take neos.. yeahhh.. den at nite got hwa chong choir concert at vch.. wooootZzz.. choir rox.. XDD

school's been okok lo.
hanging out with jiemeis quite alot. o wrong. is GURL POWER + ACE. hahahahs. cuz wanyi is brother. not sister. hahahs. XDD
yeps. toi-toi/locker trips.. hahs.. hmm.. lessons are boring as usual.. never concentrate de lo.. esp geog.. kaos.. she teach until dunno where liao.. my mind still stuck at weathering.. -.- maths also siao siao.. functions almost half way thru le.. i still not sure how to do sets.. wah piangz.. english, lit n hcl are funn.. whole day watch movie.. lalala.. so funnn.. sciences suck as usual.. yucks.. wad else.. orhh. PE. fatherly leaving soon!!! tmr laz lesson i think. *cries.. hope tmr rain. den we stay in class n chitchat. hrmph. i wan him. i wan him. dun go. =(

im already on holiday mood. tmr's e laz day we're using e aircon classroom. saddd.. no more drills in e walls linking to 3/1 n 3/3.. no more peeping angeline.. =/ nvm.. maybe liddat better for me bah.. new classroom allocation.. no need everyone together.. i juz wan 3/1 n 3/2 to be together.. *prays hard.. sighs..

sumtimes pple ask stupid ques.. lyk whether im STILL sad anots..
wad shld i say? ... luckily u ask my frenz. nv ask me. if not i cry let u see. den ask u whether im happy or sad. ... ok nvm.. actually i also dunno e truth.. i only noe.. thinking abt stuff will pull a jolt in my heart. n it blardy hell hurts. dun ask me y it hurts. dun ask me if i need a plaster or a tissue box. i dun wan any. i wan e blood to gush out. i wan the tears to flow continuously. i dun need any. i juz need you. i juz need myself to be strong.
n im blardy proud of myself. for being SO SO myself these days.
since im weak. i admit it. though i do TRY to be strong at times. but if i cant. i cant. n i wun force myself. since im sad. i admit it. i cry. since im amused. i admit it. i luff. since i detest the way im living my life now. i admit it. i dun haf a choice. but im still living my life. im strongg. =)
so wadever u guys see. iz me. just me. =)

tears tears go away.. dun come back ever again.. pls pls.. go away.. i dun wan to see u again.. =) it fits. to the rain rain go away song. XDD
try singing. =/

hols hols hols. *chants. i always loved hols.
but why do i haf a feeling tht my june hols will be lyk sai. iz really. SAI. april. i agree with u for once. SAI LARH HOLS. =.= hrmm.. dunno y.. serious things i hear frm april is always veh veh true de..
she tell me b4.. "nothing is forever."
2 mths ago. i luffed n say. no larh. muz think positive. 2 mths later. i began to agree. yes. yes. how true.

Come What May - Moulin Rouge Soundtrack - typed by me me n me. =)

never knew i could feel like this..
like i've nv seen the sky b4..
wan to vanish inside ur kiss..
everyday i love u more n more..
listen to my heart can u hear it sing..
telling me to give u everything..
seasons may change.. winter to spring..
but i love you..
until the end of time..

come what may.. come what may..
i will love you..
until my dying day..

suddenly the world seems such a perfect place..
suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace..
suddenly my life doesnt seem such a waste..
it all revolves around u..

and there's no mountain to hide..
no river too wide..
sing out this song n i'll be there by ur side..
storm clouds may gather.. stars may collide..
but i love you.. i love you..
until the end of time..

'_ qian yan wan yu..
_ unspoken thoughts..
_ unwanted tears..
_ ni dao di ming bu ming bai? ]]'

+ ontheroadtorecovery +

2005-05-22T21:37:00.000+08:00

heyys..
realised tht i love to blog whenever i haf deep thots.. esp when no one close is online to crap with me.. yeps..

fri nite talk to es gor on e phone until veh late.. crap n crap n crap.. quite fun.. but dun lyk his voice.. hRrmz.. den laz nite talk to mg on the phone until 2? dun worry ur eyes are not deceiving u.. iz MG. at 2am. hahahs.. yeps.. perhaps im juz too used to talking on e phone late at nite past midnite.. yeahh.. so take turns lo.. XDD

today talk with feli on skype for 1hr plus.. den continue conferencing with sheryl for 1 hr.. feli dying to sing.. so we 3 sang abit here n dere.. so blasted n diao.. cuz e mics were lagging.. anywayz.. i crapped with darren over some.. controversial issues.. hahas.. weird larhs..

tmr going gym with mg n sheryl.. den meeting feli on skype at 12.. lalas.. den go out blah blah..

hrmm.. sumhow i juz feel tht me n feli cant talk heart to heart -ly over skype.. yeah.. iz juz weird.. i juz need her shoulders.. but i only had her voice.. sighs.. summore dere's so so little privacy at home.. n my voice has to be thundering volume in order for feli to hear me.. sighs..

somehow.. it still hurts.. but does tht mean tht i haven get over it..? i dunno leh.. really dunno leh.. stages by stages.. iz all an irony followed by another irony.. yes.. and dere seems to be an invisible force pushing me forward in life.. urging me tht i haf a bright future n i shld follow my heart in wadever i wan to do.. telling me tht sluts n bitches are juz shadows in life.. sth lyk no matter wad u do.. shadows cant be demolished.. they will always be ard.. dark n gloomy.. sumtimes u see them on ur right n sumtimes u dun.. n when u least expect them.. a dagger get plunged into ur back.. but u dunno who izit.. iz juz so.. so like life..

rite now i feel as if im hanging down by a rope frm the 20th storey.. dangling here n dere.. dere's no support for my head n limbs.. gazing breathlessly at e clouds above.. i see changing shapes in the clouds.. images start to appear.. mg's words in black.. feli's pink gentleness.. naomi's orangey postcards.. meiching's straight white teeth.. gnia's rosy cheeks.. anson's loose arms.. jiahao's long fingers.. puayfen mama's practical advice.. jiahao papa's warm bdae msg.. ziyuan laogong-cum-jiujiu's spastic n reluctant smile in our family pic.. jingjing's bliss to be in a complete family with me n her ziyuan papa.. pamela's shriek of laughter over ohjiahao.. all seems to be hopeful images.. but below me iz a bottomless pit.. i dare not look at it straight with my bare eyes.. frm e corner of my eyes.. i picture knives.. snakes.. cockroaches.. creepy crawlies.. backstabbing.. loneliness.. total closure towards all means of life.. gripping tight onto e rope thts holding me back frm e verge of despair n utmost heart wrenching fears.. blisters appeared.. red.. blotchy..

wow.. look at my imagination.. amazing isnt it?
yah mg i noe.. i nv learnt e word amazing frm amazing race.. -.-

iz 10 sth le.. im tired.. but i feel lyk going shopping.. dunno y so siao.. wan shop shop shop.. buy buy buy.. everything nice also buy.. clothes.. toys.. hairbands.. bags.. books.. but no matter wad i buy.. no matter how nice e things are.. it can nv make me happier.. buying it can.. owning it cant.. conclusion: i juz lyk to waste my parents' money.. -.-

so fast.. 0405 committee leaving le.. in fact left le.. i miss all of them.. everyone frm rotten family.. i wan my family pics.. me, puayfen mama, jiahao papa.. me, ziyuan laogong-cum-jiujiu n jingjing.. happie family.. so sweet.. but iz gonna be broken up soon.. im gonna be an orphan.. a widow.. -.- n my jingjing wun haf a happy family anymore.. sad..

i wan go kbox with choristers.. puayfen mama n jiahao papa n ziyuan laogong-cum-jiujiu n jingjing n joy n deborah etc etc..
i wan go marche with jiahao n meiching..
i wan go gym with mg n naomi -.- ...
i wan go shopping with mg n feli..
i wan go playground n swing with mg anson jiahao naomi..
i wan stay overnite at naomi's hse..
i wan go 2604 chalet'04..
i wan go meiching's hse n play hide n seek with jiahao..
i wan go anson's hse to tell mandy im her mother.. -.-
i wan go feli's house n paint her whole house pink..
i wan to whack feli's parents for exporting her to nz..

runnnnnnn..
it sux to wait for things to happen..
but dere seems to be nothing else i can do..
sit n wait. wait. wait.
i waited. im still waiting. i'll continue waiting.
for wad?
for someone to pull me up frm e verge of fears to my heaven of hope n joy..
will u be tht sumone?

escape-d.

'_ wo cong lai dou bu ming bai..
_ ni li kai wo de yuan ying jiu zhi zhe yang ma..
_ dan kan dao ni kuai le de sheng ying..
_ wo ye bu xiang you ren he yi wen..
_ wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni..
_ shi ying wei wo tai ai ni..

+ blank-ed +

2005-05-19T22:08:00.000+08:00

sudd a jolt pulled me back into reality.

im chatting with abel char on msn. abt our lives. i dunno wad to say abt my own life. but all of a sudd. i was pulled back into vague scenes of e past. mg. u experienced this b4 at laz yr's 2604 chalet. some scenes came back den disappear. blurred images. but e funny thing iz. e past images are of laz wk's. not laz mth's. not laz yr's. dun ask me y. i dun get it either.

wad is gonna happen tmr? first lesson. maths. blardy kiwi gonna talk abt functions. a topic i dun understand. i even asked him tht day. woah. y u talk talk talk. all lyk tamil language de? i dun get it!!! -.- he shocked diao. second lesson. THANK YOU. iz lee min er. goodness. when can i be promoted to band 2? so i can join joanne lee's class? pls? pls pls pls??? den iz physics. nowadays alex tan trying to be farnie. sumtimes really veh veh cold. colder den me. cuz i these few days down with flu n cold. blardy blasted aircon. anderson sec iz juz TOO poor to afford a blardy aircon tht WUN leak after being hit a couple of times by soccer balls. o mans.

thts all for sch tmr. den iz happy hour. im booked by meiching for marche. prepared to spend spend spend. sighs. i need to relieve e frustrations sumhow. maybe shopping iz a gd idea. shop shop shop. shop all my money away. den i dun hafta think wad to do during this yr's xmas. cuz no money = no shopping. =)
den dere's speech day tmr. gotta report to 3/2 n 3/3 by 430. rmb to bring gown, shoes, makeup. -.- im reminding myself. wear 3205 class tee tmr. bring nkf card n $6. sighs. sighs sighs. im totally unpacked.

rite. im ready.
pple. im blardy hell unhappy.
no matter how u guys/gals think my mood/character is. i juz am not happy deep down.
but stop asking me to be happy. dere are juz stuff tht i cant openly discuss. dere are juz stuff tht i can only assume n assume in my mind. dere are juz frenz who always love to probe. come to think of it. are we even frenz? i dunno. but im too frustrated to think abt tht. wadever.
i still love my jiemeis. e whole row of gals. no matter wad u all do/think. u're already a part of my jiemeis in 3205. angeline. yuxian. joanne. shimin. wanyi. puqin. april. eunice. thx alot. i dunno wad u gals did. but thanks for making me feel well loved. =))

come to think of it. mg haven sent me my nite nite msg. im NOT supposed to think too much. but i am. im supposed to think tht im well loved. but am i? i dunno. well loved by e wrong person i guess. i dunno. sighs.

i dunno y i am put on a mask to sch everyday. though i think i shldnt. i juz go crazy whenever i go to sch. n dere u see angeline trying to pei he with me. trying to act madd. n when she cant take it. she'll touch my forehead n conclude tht im having a fever. im not crazy. im juz sad. sad to the extreme. im juz crying. crying to the extreme. im juz hurt. hurt to the extreme. serious. i dunno why am i saying all these only now. probably i cant take e burden anymore. i juz wanna type my troubles out. i cant scream. i cant shout. i juz wanna runnn. mg. can we gymm again? soon? i wanna lose at least 400cals. i wanna runn everything out. run run run. run away frm the hypocritical me. run away frm the f-ers. runn away frm the blardy bastards who nv fail to gimme their pitiful stares. runnnnnnnnnnnnn.

if only i had a gun. i wud kill u. den i wud kill myself.
but wait.
dun be mad. i wun haf e guts to. nvm. dunno y i typed tht as well.
anywayz. im too much a coward n chicken to touch a gun. or a knife. im blardy afraid of knives. small or big. it scares me. yucks. juz lyk how snakes n cockroaches will scare e skin outta me. juz lyk how worms will scare e hell outta mg.

*woah. so qiao. i type her name den she msged me. thx. im well loved. im well loved. im well loved. im well loved. im well loved. im well loved. dere's 7. juz so so used to using 7. i love 7. but i hate 7 too. wad am i thinking? -.-

sumtimes i dun really understand myself. how am i able to hate n love somebody or something at e same time?

i love myself for loving him.
i hate myself for loving him.
it doesnt make sense.

sumtimes i tell angeline/xianx how pissed am i to witness how fate plays on us. but sumtimes. i wan fate to play on us. i wan to witness e power of fate. iz so ironic. i juz DUN get it. y y y y y y y? viola. 7 again. i dunno wad im talking. leave me alone.

i shld juz make a trip to buangkok green medical centre. maybe it will do me some good. negative negative = positive mah. not meh? i dunno. i dunno i dunno.

my brain seems to be boiling. aching. getting heavy.
i think im tired. physically or mentally? probably both.

i guess none of u will understand e pain im going thru deep down.. iz of a self dilemma whether to be hopeful or not.. to trust my trust or to trust my heart.. to play my life as a happy gal or unhappy gal.. to act as if i care or dun care.. Y CANT I JUZ BE MYSELF N GET OVER IT!?!!?
arghhh.. iz juz so !#^!#$&^%!#&!. get it? o.0

im blardily fine. im alrite. im REALLY okayy mans.
im STRONG. im COOL. im so so not affected by everyone.
im supposed to be OVER it. im supposed to be HAPPY.

but excuse me? can u let me be myself?
im NOT happy. so wad u gonna do? stick toothpicks into my gums n make them grin? =.=
sadistic. yucks. i shld be in bed. i shld not be thinking too much. i shld feel well loved. thx mg.
im muz rmb to bring my stuff. thx xianx. off to pack bag.

speech day'05 sucks btw. 1 min 05 secs is SHO SHO enuff for choristers.
THANK U for reading.

'_ bu yao dang zuo wo bu chun zai..
_ ying wei wo shi shi ke ke dou zai xiang zhe ni..
_ qing rang wo zai ai ni de shi shi ke ke..
_ ji xu xun zao zi ji.. ]]'

+ speechdayrehearsal +

2005-05-17T20:53:00.000+08:00

wahahahahahs.
iz tues nite. n i juz reached home not long ago.
i got a reason to be blogging now: i din bring my pencil box/notebook/anything gotta do with studies home. hahahs. cuz today got speech day nite rehearsal. we got to pon class. so i juz threw my stuff under my table n in e locker. only brought dirty clothes n shoes n makeup stuff home. thts y. i no need to do hw. anyway. i DUNNO wad hw dere are. n im NOT supposed to noe. so DUN tell me. thank you. XDD

hmm.. todayy's ok.. makeup as usual done by sheryl. if only all e freaking scars n blots on my face wud go. it wud be veh nice. i guess. yah. veh veh veh nice. i wud love myself alot. n i wud idolise myself to e extend of staring into e mirror every min. +.+

crapped n played with sheryl all e way lo. during our free time i was lyk playing wif her hp. treating it lyk a neoprint machine. keep posing n taking pix. so siao lo. i also think i sot sot de. but iz FUN!! hahahs. siao. k nvmm. things keep going missing n unwell for me. wad drop e latchet of my heels. den contact lens did a disapearing act for 20 secs. den go toilet kana suan by sec 1s. step into e mud. pple splash water at our legs n gown etc due to e rain. gotta share music room with malay dancers while chinese dancers got e brand new gym to themselves. f0rgot to bring my smelly pe shirt home. end up having blisters at e smallest toe of each foot. iz sore larh. bleahhs.

i was high thru-out e day i supposed. dun ask y. iz juz a thrilling sensation all over. i wasnt concentrating in e whole rehearsal i guess. despite being in e darn gown n sheryl's madness. so long tht i had to maintain a straight posture or it wud be in e mud or sth. yah. perhaps im thinking too much again. but iz really. +.+ tiring i supposed. angeline din come to sch todayy. xianx had little time with me. so tmr i'll haf loads to say. hahas. darno larhs.

ye xu wo men jiu xiang ta men shuo de na yang.. you yuan wu ~~fen~~..
sumtimes iz really veh $!#@%"!@$!#@%^!#. i purposely avoid. will meet. purposely dun avoid. also will meet. only when i dun think abt it. den wun meet. but e farnie thing iz. i cant stop myself frm thinking. =.= okayyys.. i dunno how am i gonna live in anderson for e nx 1 over yr.. moreover.. im gonna be an orphan soon.. puayfen mama n jiahao papa are leaving choir in a wk.. n tht means tht im gonna be in a b.r.o.k.e.n family soon.. sad case..

forget it ba. dere's juz too much things going on in my mind. so much n complex tht i myself feel lazy n lethargic to face it/talk it out. no matter to who. it doesnt really make a difference. i dunno. e sour feeling is still ard. except this time. it isnt a feeling i shld feel. cuz i haf no rights to feel sour. no rights at all. i can only watch at a corner. sulking. regretful. hurt. den walk away n pretend tht i saw nothing. it sucks. i shldnt feel this way. or shld it be, i shldnt haf seen wad i saw? i dunno.. juz refuse to believe in rumors.. in wad others think.. in wad i assume.. juz wanna believe e truth beneath my heart.. i guess..

sighs. am so drained out. hungry n cold.
escape-d.

'_ hao xiang hao xiang wan liu ni..
_ dan ni de bei ying..
_ yi jing li wo er qu..
_ ni de xin shi fou hai zai wo zhe li? ]]'

+ lazypig +

2005-05-16T20:43:00.000+08:00

halo.. currently feeling veh veh lazy.. half doing amaths half blogging..
sighs.. xing qing bu shi hen hao lo.. dun really noe e exact reason behind all these.. fan zhen e past wk has been badly lived larhhs.. wadever..

but still.. wanna thank xianx for chatting with me thru-out kiwi lim's maths lesson.. i think he abit bu shuang me.. but i dun care.. yah.. thx for comforting me n stuff.. i noe it may not be tht healthy to try comforting me with assumptions n all.. but i rather live in a world with illusions den a world of harsh reality.. yah.. half half bahs.. i guess.. but nvm.. thx for being dere for me.. love ya.. yeps.. thx angeline.. for pei-ing me thru-out e day.. understanding wad i hafta go thru deep down.. thx for giving in to my every little request.. whether big or small.. yeps.. luv u mummie.. =)

great larh. i've lost lyk 20% of my voice. n my freaking throat feels veh inflamed. gawddd. being with angeline too much liao. she keep coughing n stuff. but nvm. ann is strongggg. hahahs. yeps. will go drink pi pa gao.. if not speech day die le.. tmr still got nite rehearsal.. frm efl at 1.. all e way to 845.. win liao larh sallylee. gown. silverr shoes. makeup. whEeee.. revive all e 0504 memories larh c'mon.. lalalas..

ann is born a thinker. but still. i need pple to tell me to not think too much. yes. thts my problem. think too much. brain is NOT used for thinking abt e land far far away where piggs can fly. =/ ok nvm.

sets juz suck larh. they are really not meant for pple w/o common sense. pple lyk me. cuz i think too far liao. hais. the more i do, the more i think amaths suck. yuck yuck yuck. and the more i think amaths suck, the more i wun pay attention in kiwi lim's lessons. so i shld stop doing. =.= and the freaking chinese letter writing. yuck yuck yuck. n 2 portfolio writings. YUCK.

hw juz suck. i juz hate abhore detest loathe the whole idea of schooling. i rather be a dumb ass. yuck yuck yuck. sumone. invent a hw-doing-machine. u'll be rich. FOR SURE. XDD

tonghua rocks.
wo yuan bian cheng.. tong hua li.. ni ai de na ge tian shi..
zhang kai shuang shou.. bian cheng chi pang shou hu ni..
ni yao xiang xin.. xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li..
xing fu he.. kuai le shi jie ju..

anjing rocks.
wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni..
shi ying wei wo tai ai ni..

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
off to some stress relief land.

'_ kan zhe ni de bei ying..
_ wo fa xian ni de pi juan he ji mo.. ]]'

+ gym//happy? +

2005-05-14T22:56:00.000+08:00

hihi.. feeling high now..
okok larh.. not veh veh high.. but at least most high of e wk le.. yah..
rite now talking to naomi over e phone while typing.
listening to come what may. *winks at feli..

gym-ed at yck with mg todayy. was so diao-ed. tooted. yah. first time go gym mahs. den got this perverted sicko dunno-wads-her-prob WOMAN. kept staring at me. wherever i go her eyes follow. sumtimes also follow me to tht particular station. den mg also realised. she kept staring at us with tht kinda I-THINK-YOU-STOLE-MY-HP tht kinda look. wth.. was quite pissed to feel her eyes on me whenever i turn ard. gawddd. sick ass. lyk i invaded HER teritory w/o paying or sth. bleahhhs.

anyway i managed to lose lyk 200 over calories. blahhs. shall go dere n play again.
me n mg intend to tour all e gyms in sg. hahahs. =)

met jiahao at j8 after playing hide n seek. -.- he treated me n mg to long johns silver - combo 2. so zai rites? hahahs. yep yep. my didi rox. lalas. den i walk ard. window shopped a little. cuz im broke. but i wanna buy PINK skirts.
yes, ur eyes r perfectly fine. u're at ann's blog. n she wants to get PINK SKIRTS.
mini skirts summore. hahahs. choose with mg summore. nice lo. pretty pink. hahahs. feli. u inspired me. hahahahs.

coincidentally met gnia n she surprisingly had my bdae pressie with her. yeps. thx alot gal. love ya. =)
coincidentally met tohzhihong on e train as well. i forgot his name for lyk 10 secs. hahas. sorryy lo. u're not easy to rmb. juz rmb u were a flirt.. hahahs. blahs.
they saw me to novena. yayys. crap crap blah blah. had fun at tuition cuz my replacement tcher was a pregnant lady who jumped ard screaming abt her shldnt being tensed cuz her baby kicks. -.- ok nvm. she's high. and i lyk her. =)

talk to mg on e hp all e way home. dad pissed. mum pissed. wadever. i dun give a damn liao. since they nv ever question whether im happy anot. wadever.

perhaps iz all a facade ba. liking rainbow colours? i dunno.
love silver alot. it shimmers. love silver no matter im happy or sad. love black only when im inspired, n when i think of gloomy stuff. love pink only when i miss feli. love blue whenever im down. love orange whenever i think of naomi. love red whenever i think of ~~him~~. how great. nvm. i shldnt think too much. yah yah yah.

today's lyk e happiest day since mothers' day.

i shld enjoy e rest of e day. but iz really. saddening every nite.

day is fine. i haf frenz ard me most of e time. but nite sux. im always alone. e only one downstairs. e only one in e room. i love to be alone whenever i need to do packing of neos or some serious work? i hate to be alone when im sad. iz juz. makes me even more depressing. yah.

naomi juz hanged. cuz of e thunderstorm. yeps. n i feel worse. cuz im physically n literally alone. sighs. it sux. i wanna sleep. sudd mood change cuz im thinking too much. blardy hell i haf tuition tmr. n i noe i'll haf muscle ache tmr. hais.

thx mg. thx for hanging out with me todayy. u noe it really helps alot. when u're depressed. go exercise. go vent everything out. it works. it kept things outta my mind all e way until i reached home. i haven really thx u for everything u did. since 0805. u did alot. honestly. u are e one other den feli, who's able to see thru me. but allow me to love. dun force me to face e harsh reality so quickly. cuz im vulnerable. elbarenluv. im sorry im not as strong as u gals think i am. i need time. so desperately needing time. time. time. ever so thankful to haf a fren lyk u. love u loadds. =))

to jiahao: also haven thank u since 0805. ur 10 lolipops. thx.. ur sms-es.. thx.. u flood my inbox lo.. hahas.. continue msging.. but rmb.. if got things wan me reply for long long time.. u might as well call me.. i got free incoming.. hahahs.. thx didi.. thx for making me feel well-loved.. i love u too.. as a brother.. dun think too much.. *pats head.. hahahs... XDD

perhaps i shld lyk juz pile myself up with work n blah blah. maybe it will work. stop me frm thinking abt unhappy stuff. tell me tht loving sumone isnt wrong. tell me tht he's worthy of my love. cuz he rawks my world no matter wad happens. no doubt. he rawked my world. but he's still rawking my world deep down. maybe it isnt juz a simple relationship tht most of u think it is. it isnt lyk any other relationship. iz a long n battered one. always oblivious to all e other factors. but y?

sudd think all these shld be private. but i dun give a damn. the worse thing u'll wan to try doing now iz to ask me if im fine anotz. cuz obviously im not. n the nx worse thing iz to try asking wad happened. cuz if u dunno. obviously i dun wan u to noe anything. n if u sensed sth iz wrong. stop asking. stop probing. juz get out of my life the way u entered. e entrance iz on ur right. thx alot. sighs. dunno larhs.

maybe i need some psychoing. but i think i need sleep more. yeps. ciaoZ.

'_ wo mei you yong qi gao shu ni..
_ wo you duo mo ai ni.. duo mo xiang ni..
_ duo mo xi wang ni hui dao wo sheng bian.. ]]'

+ - +

2005-05-13T22:09:00.000+08:00

boo.
so long nv update.
got mg to change e layout. thx alot.
been feeling veh empty n screwed nowadays.
yah xianx. im a screw. waiting for a screwdriver to screw me.

perhaps everything is gone.
iz time to face reality gal.
mg. feli. evona. naomi. angeline. love u pals.
thts all i haf. emptied.

'_ shi qu le ta de shen ming..
_ shi kong xu.. ji mo de..
_ wo de hei bai shi jie li..
_ yi dian se cai ye mei you.. ]]'

+ back//survived +

2005-05-06T20:41:00.000+08:00

woahhs. im FINALLY back. n alive.
whEee.. i survived thru e stupid sleep-snatching, snooze-breaking, heart-wrenching, stress-compiling, eyes-popping n USELESS tests. XDD

ann is sho proud of herself. yayyys. although half of all e tests im honestly gonna die. esp amaths. kaos. aftermath of todays amaths test. hysterical. gawdd. 3/4's e worse. me n mg probably juz dropped our eyeballs out while watching weiching n meiching engage in their sex talk. gawddd. nvm. sheryl luffed her teeth out too. =.=
mans. y am i sho sadistic. see larh. all drop out pop out. hais. afterMATH. tsk tsk.

anywayz. lotsa stuff been happening. theft in 3205.
zijun's 38bucks.. our 19 nkf cards[including my 7 dollars. such a nice no. also wan steal. wth.] abel's hp.. eunice's 50 bucks.. ws's 10 bucks.. elaine's shopping ishaks too. sighs. o yah. latest. ws's pencil box. GAWD. who's so cheapskate. ws's pencil box has been dere since i knew him. -.- n u stupid heartless thief. STOLE IT ON HIS BDAE SUMMORE. wad a disgusting perverted arse. cant u let a 15yr old kid ENJOY his bdae STUDYING AMATHS? -.- anywayz. im utterly disgusted by tht stupid arse. wan money might as well go rob bank. more guts lo. in sch rob pple of their shopping money. so low class. hrmphs. lousy. it'd better not be a three tootsie. bleahs.

tmr's my mama bdae. tmr morn going town with aunt to find sth for her. yeps. n tmr's also bro's 2nd audition for superstarr. haish. dunno wad to comment. jiayou bahs. wads urs will be urs yeah? dun say ur mei mei pour cold water on u arhs. im nice. =)

my eldest bro juz came back frm japan with his gf. sho shuang. meaning i can go get my nike training shoes soon. yeps. e net net de. e one me n ben saw at causeway. $145.75. woootZz. i'll whack e hell outta my bro's pocket. big bros rock. hahahahs. too baddd. belated bdae pressies always include interest. blahhs.

o yah. thx to pple who taggged while i was away. reply tagggs. =)

layjia: heyyys. i tried talking to my parents a few days after ben's bday. but my dad was veh stubborn. din gimme much chances to speak jiu cut me short n conclusion: im rude. hais. iz really pissed until veh veh numb le. perhaps im fated to haf such overbearing n protective parents ba. dunno izit gd or bad. yeps. shall leave it liddat bahs. thx for ur advice anywayz. rawk on yeah? =)))

mg: i think i noe wad i am liao. but dunno how to say. i believe in gods. so let me juz believe all of them suan le. =))

naomi: heyyys orange gal. purposely put orange for ur name. thx for e talk tht day yeah? rock on kayyys. ann loves u. will relink u. XDD

feli: yooohoo feli gal. see? iz PINK. nice PINK. nice to see ur taggg. muz tagg more often to tell ann jie u miss me. hahahahs. i miss u loads larh duh. hmm. thx for e chat juz now. let me confide in u even though we're lyk half a globe away okayys? luv ya lyk i always do.. take care pinkie gal. =))

yayyys. done done. off to edit stuff on e template yeps?
e keyboard feels mouldy. so does e non-existant webcam. haf no idea where izit.
off to rest lyk anything. heck e blardy chinese idioms n oral. bleahhhs.
listening to sly's album. mojojojo burnt e cd for me. rawker. XDD
off-ed.

'_ in times of darkness..
_ u shine and brighten up my life..
_ yuan lai ni yi zhi dou zai wo sheng pang..
_ mo mo de zhao gu wo..
_ zhe jiu shi zhen ai.. ]] '

+ boo-ed +

2005-04-24T13:37:00.000+08:00

YOOHOOO. XDD
missed me? kayys nvm. =.= updating cuz im waiting for e clock to turn to 2pm n waiting for my lunch to further digest b4 i start work on stuff. yeps. also cuz evon said a miracle happened larhs. stupid. ok, but farnie. ... XDD

hrmz. ytd flag dayy. lazy to upload e neos me n xianx skived off to take at bugis. hahahs. i scanned le xianxmei. whacked e hell outta my com to make it on. den plucked e wire frm underneath e table with all e webbies n dust. yucks. nvm. neways.
i woke up early. but dad was late.
so i reached amk mrt late. but yuxian was late too.
so i managed to board e same train n reach toa payoh mrt by 8.05am.
conclusion : im still late. -.-

hrmz. collected stuff blah blah. went orchard. den pple snatched e place with us. hrmphs. den went walking ard. went yishun. went bugis. lalalas. bought e highlighter xianx lyk. den go back toapayoh. me n xianx finished up 1 pg n a few stickers. was veh veh proud of ourselves until we met up with angeline they all. tht siao goldfish finished 4+ pages!!! *faints. n april had 2 kind souls giving her a 10dollar note each. piangz. when i got a 5 buck note i was stunned beyond words liao larh. hrmphs. shld weigh divek's bagg lo. b4 n after lyk no diff lo. hahahahs. nice job everyone. most pple snoozed after tht lo. tiring sias.

den went out to celebrate april's bdae. which is today. -.- HAPPY BDAY APRIL!! XDD okayys. so it was. me, xianx, april, puqin, shimin, wanyi, angeline. yeps. laffed lyk siao over farnie things. lyk puqin drooling on my bag while eating loli. lyk ~~everyone~~ puqin & april drooling over a chao shuai ge at cine in cheers. hahahahs. pq even took a pic of his backview larhs. hais hais. 2 siao ding dongs. hahahs. shopped. den jiahao n anson come n boo ah me. -.- den they disappeared. +.+ okayyys.. den walk ard.. angeline left.. den i left for tuition.. lalalas.. ben called 5 mins b4 tuition larhs. den i was lyk in an enclosed area talking inside tll. sho weird. ok nvms. tired day anywayz. halfdead when i reached home. flopped into bed by 10.

woke up at 9 this morn. went for tuition. yucks. almost died dere as well. sciences juz suck larhs. now tht im home. im supposed to complete all e freaking tuition hws. den go for tuition AGAIN tmr. wth. y muz exams even exist. i think i will live better w/o studying. whEeEe.. off to nz. off to aust. off to florida.. whEeEe.. okay. back to reality. =.=

hrmz. iz almost 2. i've been thinking abt lotsa stuff recently. again. yes. with e neighbour's thundering drills n all for e past wk. i felt lyk throwing my chem tb at them larh. wads worse. my bro's singing. ytd was e 1st audition. they got him thru e 2nd round with 70% eliminated. gawddd. judges. spare a thot for my poor ears. cant u juz tell my bro e truth abt his singing. to think tht he only rmbed 2 lines of his song. n argued his way thru e 2nd audition with e insist on having e SUPERSTAR image. piangz. no comments. except. he's considering a jay song for his audition in 2 wks. bless him. i think iz on my mum's bdae. gawddd. anyway. he's been blardy noisy n wrecking my sleep for e past wk. ok. guess iz for e rest of my stay under e same roof as him. yucks. bless ME.

wad iz my religion mans? went to ICA wif ben tht day. he muttered his off as buddhist. i was quite sure he wud larh. budden. i felt badd lo. cuz i rmb rolling my eyes while thinking when e counter gal asked me for my religion. cuz i told her.. free thinker. actually. i dunno wad i am. thts y i told her tht. cuz my mum told me sth lyk. we are not exactly buddhists. cuz we worship goddess of mercy. so we are lyk part of taoism. o.0 tell me. wads e diff? i got rather confused by e fact of tht buddha n goddess of mercy are part of 2 diff religions. but isnt tht wad was featured in the tv serial - journey to e west? okay. makes me think of weiming. but. i dunno larhs. when i reached home n found myself face to face to e altar table. i felt lyk a betrayer. torn apart. by 2 religions. buddhist cum taoist VS free thinker. -.- ben n xianx felt tht i was wrong/bad. but i really dunno wad i am mahs. imagine if i told e indian counter gal e whole story : my mum says tht im a buddhist cum taoist blah blah. but i feel tht im a free thinker cuz i dunno who to believe in. buddha or goddess of mercy. half my life i've been kneeling down in front of goddess of mercy begging her not to fail my exams etc. -.- but den. every nite b4 i sleep i see a buddha figurine smiling at me. AHHHHHH. wad am i?!?! fine. free thinker who holds a joss stick n kneel down in front of e altar n believes in all kinds of gods. -.- does tht make sense? arhh. religions. so sophisticated. no right or wrong. juz lyk an inference question. =.=

okayys. iz past 2. gotta mug.
on hiatus for 2 wks. best of luck.
bless me. all e gods i believe in. yeps.
im religious. i believe in gods. juz no idea which.
im sorry. but i think i will make up my mind by 21. =)
ciaoZ pple.

'_ jian dan ai..
_ simple love.. ]]'

+ bdayboy +

2005-04-15T22:01:00.000+08:00

yayys.
happy bdae ben. =))

hmm.. veh long nv blog le. got lotsa things to update on.. dunno which order larh.. juz type wadever tht comes to mind.. ermz..

1. ben's bday today. yayys. we went town to celebrate after sch. ben, me, mg, anson, naomi, sokmui, weihao, layjia.
layjia collected 66 bucks frm all e sec 3s who noes ben.. hahahs.. to buy him a new pair of... sch shoes. -.- ok nvm. went converse to buy lo. den walk walk walk. wisma. taka. heeren. cine. took neos. ben look weird lo. but nvm. bday boy always e centre of attraction. hahahs. although things werent good at first. i guess towards e ending. we crapped on e bus home. ben layjia n me. hahahs. quite farnie. meet farnie pple talk abt farnie things. =.= okayy.. hmm.. dun talk abt e pressies larh.. i no comments.. had alot of fun in the chao nice toy shop at taka though.. sho nice lo.. felt damn childish larhs.. hahahs.. wan go back dere again.. XDD o yah. sokmui n naomi bought me n ben pair cups.. he n she de.. ben took home sho i dunno larh.. hahahs.. thx gals.. i bet with u anything e cups wud be at the same spot where he leaves it till 15th april 2006. hahahahs. XPP

2. my parents are.. .. .. .. .. i dunno how to say larh.. think they're really ageing.. sumhow they tend to forget things VEH VEH easily.. den complain tht im getting outta hand.. o.0 rite.. thx everyone for their advice todayy.. esp layjia.. yeps.. u haf a great sis lo.. at least she cares for u.. look at my bros.. *faints.. one iz a gay trying veh hard to be a popular singer.. one iz a chao chi qing guy who's sho technical n practical towards life.. ahhhh.. y everyone ard me sho cold blooded n #!$^%%$! $^!&# de.. haix.. today i reach home at 720.. parents stood at e gate waiting for me. arms akimbo. black faced. hai hao i smart lah.. pretend to run in n scream veh loudly say my bladder iz bursting n i need e toilet.. which iz true budden i exaggerated it.. =.= yeps.. juz ran pass them n came outta e toilet after 10 mins. den they already dunno go where liao. *phew. think they not at home le. XDD

3. sorry mg n anson.. i din mean to pangseh u.. really sorry larhh.. din expect stuff to happen mahs.. iz mg suey lo.. =.= k larh.. muz thank mg also.. zhen de hen gou peng you.. bu kui shi wo de daughter.. hahahs..

4. i juz did an article on choir syf for sang torch with joy.. my aunt's english iz WOAHHHH-laly good. manx. i feel so.. inferior. i got C5 for eng. goodness. whose genes did i inherit? o.0

5. cannot go make IC on monday with ben le. choir change to mon, den ben got pds on tues. so i think i can only go on e final day. wed. hais. *prays hard..

6. my com iz fixed frm some bugs. now can use windows media n can doodle on msn le. laz time cannot.. hahahs.. yayyys to da ge.. XDD

7. i collected alot of postcards today. to write to naomi. i love the ones on loving ur pets. e baby iz chao cute mans. so im only gonna keep those for admiring. hahahs. XDD

yayyy stop at 7. cuz 7 rox. hmm. heard frm peiying tht xianx n ariana went for haircuts. hahahs. not badd lo.. hmm.. n im in for the soccer thingy. together with 4 dumb guys in 3205. gawdd. im lyk e only gal. no reserves for me. wth. can we use a rubber ball to play? =.= im totally ^#$%^#^$ PUI at soccer lah. although i got a chao pro shi fu larh hor? hmm.. but now when e stupid ligament's bothering me.. haix.. dunno larh. for 3/2's sake? maybe. juz dun wan to lend weihao my pinafore. hahahs.

off to do sth more productive. lyk talking on e phone. -.- ciaoZz..

'_ sheng ri kuai le..
_ zou ying de ge..
_ wo men de ge.. ]]'

+ bdae aftermath+

2005-04-06T20:02:00.000+08:00

1 day. 24 hrs. 1440 mins. 86400 secs.
over. yeps. n im officially 15.
gotta continue thanking pple.

xiaolun. mg. anson. sheryl. thx for e 21 cap. hehhs. n also e card mg drew. chao childish larh. crayons blah blah. make me feel sho motherly. but true larh. mg is my daughter mahs. n sheryl. thx for e blue matching wristband.

ching. thx for ur ooohlalaly nice flower. hahahs. veh cute larhhs. XDD

anki. thx for e nice box n stuffie toy.

naomi. thx for e flat doggie who desperately needs beijing 101. -.- nvm. u still rawk. XDD
weisiang. thx for e cardd n lolipops. although i love cola flavour. hahahs. thx anywayz.
jingjing, pamela, yeeching. guai juniors. thx for ur yellow chicken who's net-ed. hahhahas.
sherhan, huishan, serene. nice choir mates. thx for ur CHAO BIG blue dog bone. love it mans. hahahas.
0405 choir commitee plus choirpals. mama, papa, uncle yukai, uncle ziyuan, bro-in-law yukang [though i dunno y u wrote tht in e card], pete macho didi, evon, abel, aunt deb, aunt joy. thx for e JAY live cd n the sweet card. XDD love ya.
liping. jaime. abel. thx for tht colourful doggie. earliest bdae pressie wor. hahahs. thx for e 3/3 choir bdae song.
xianx, rachel, peiying. thx for e billabong water bottle. i started using liao!! hahahs. love it manx. n xianx mei. thx for ur oreos. i haven started eating. XDD
ben. hahahs. still dun wan reveal wad u gave larh. anywayz thx for waiting for me after sch blah blah. yeps. thx for e comforting words n hugg. yepss. ur bday will rawk more den mine. wait patiently. 9 days. XDD

mhmm. anderson choristers. do not give up. u are e best. i heard tht ms lim teared e whole nite for us. cuz she knew we did our very very best. she said we were FANTASTIC on tht day. but yet.. those sickening judges haf cock-ears larh. wadever. we noe we really really really ARE e best can liao. u are e number ONES. yeps. GOLD is definitely not easy. at least we are e first performing arts grp to compete in anderson. summore we had lady luck opposing us in everything. with lousy facilities and all.. we hung thru it.. u guys rawk my world.. e first day of my 15th yr iz dedicated to u all.. rawking forever..
ANDERSON CHORISTERS UNITE!!

yeps. heavy work load this few days. missing lessons n all make me a dumb arse. lunched at kfc with ben mg anson. yeps. den played ball with ben in class. nice nice. but i think my old injury at e ankle ligament opened again. hurt due to e wet weather i guess. ben's one hurt too lo. sighs. went home. i walked in e rain after tht. oohlalaly shuang. had dinner. chatted with gnia on e phone abt syf. sighs. jiayou gnia xiaomei.

off to do lit proj. we are sho dead mans. xianx n elaine. kambatae!! XDD

'_ the spirit lives 4eva..
_ the memories stay 4eva..
_ the love n commitment binds us together.. ]]'

+ bdaygal +

2005-04-05T09:48:00.000+08:00

happy bdae ann!!
hahahahs. n xianx too. happie bday!!!
yayyyyy. 15. 15. 15. XDD

hmm. decided to blog this morn rite b4 i leave home.. n thank e following pple for flooding my inbox overnite. in chronological order. lalala.

jov. 10pm. thx for pang-sehing me 2 mths ago on cny eve. but ann shall be nice todayy. lalala. good brother. thx bro.

puayfen. 11.39pm. goshhh mama. ur msg was sho sho touching. it will always remain in my hp. thx for understanding me when im really down. i will pull thru everything de. after all. im 15 liao. XDD dun worry. u haf ALWAYS been e best mama to me. iz me whom i feel isnt guai n xiao shun enuff to be ur daughter. noeing u iz my blessing. n i'll nv forget e day u first intro-ed me to ur family or siao choristers. sec 1 speech day'03. mama u rawk. i love u. =)))

jiahao papa. 11.58. wahhhh u actually rmbed my bdae. summore no.3. muz be mama remind u de. hmm. dun u dare to bully mama ok. i'll whack u. hrmph. i noe our blood type different. but i lyk u to be my papa. *grinx. iz UR blessing ok. hahahahs. k larhs. no pressie nvm. u acknowledge me as ur daughter i happie liaoz. ann, puayfen mama, jiahao papa. happy family. =))

xianx. 12midnite. woooolala. my twin sho punctual. hahahs. happy bdae to u too. all e best for syf. 1 wk!! kambatae!!! [Y]ea.. *bcD oohlala~ XDD

ben. 12.10am. hahahs. too bad u're not e first. but nvm. u noe wad i wanna say larh. hehhs.. i noe i've been irritating to u larh.. i keep on repeating stuff abt my bday for e past wk.. hahahahs.. remind u sho many times.. u 2nd laz day den go get my pressie. dunno wad will happen if i dun remind u mans. might as well wait until ur bday den get my pressie. hahahahs. nah jk larh. XDD thx for cheering me up ytd after choir.. hmm.. muz wait for me to go back to sch tonite okayyys.. dinner together.. yeps.. e bday song i still wanna hear de.. hahahs.. u rawkk.. =)))

sokmui. 6.25am. hahahs. thx for waking me up for 5 mins. XDD will jiayou for syf de. e pressie nvm larhhs. np de. muz jiayou in sangtorch kayys.. though iz not core cca. but ur eng sho good sure can de.. hehhs.. cybil joining choir arhs? noprob. will take GOOD care of her de. muahahahhas. *winks.. XDD

jiahao. 6.33am. yoyo. xiaoluntai. hahahahahs. thx for ur pressie together with mg they all worx.. though i haven seen it yet. but think if we wear cap together i'll look shuai-er.. hahahahahs.. *points at my shuai fringe. wahahhahas. XDD

cedric. 6.36am. ermz. thx.. rmb 3/4 maths tcher say b4.. if u're good.. u dun need luck.. hahas.. okok.. we musnt be too confident. better need luck. yeps. thx.

gnia. 6.39am. wahhh mei. u noe me sho well. 6 plus of cuz i still sleeping larh.. hahahahs.. i love u too.. miss ya loadds.. muz jiayou for syf tmr as well!! RI n VS got GWH. we also can get it!! JIAYOU!!! *hugs..

evona. 6.59am. yoyo. take care of ur voice okay. though both of us are losing it. soloists muz kambatae more. u're veh impt kayys biao mei. sho jiayou for today. wan sick tmr den sick. wo pei ni. hahahas. love u too. thx alot for everything u did since we were 4? yepps. more den 10 yrs liao. buddies for life. XDD

yayyy. done done. thanks pple. XDD
im missing feli. call soon gal. i love u. =))

now e best bday pressie i can get iz e gold with honours.. c'mon anderson choristers.. make ms lim proud.. make mr yong proud.. make mrs tan proud.. make anderson proud.. make us shine.. =)))))))

ANDERSON CHOIR RAWKS.

off to pack my stuff le. =))

'_ let my dreams come true..
_ let my happiness be never-ending.. ]]'

+ wahhhh//bdaycumsyf +

2005-04-02T22:47:00.000+08:00

wahhhhhhhhhhh.
iz 2nd april. tiongs bday liao.
sho fast. going to be my bday liao. hahahs.
how shld i feel?

i've always been sho high-thu abt my bdae. dunno y. maybe my aunt always make it seem lyk a bigg affair. frm small. got bday cake got pple sing bday song got pple gimme pressies. i think till sec 1 liddat. den my parents forget abt things. maybe due to things happening at home.. life was tough n stuff i guess.. den i started throwing tantrums cuz they rmbed my bday only when i reminded them i wanted a BIG cake 3 days b4 my bday. -.- forgot wad i got in e end. but anyways. iz sth lyk i forced pple to blow candles n sing bday song. wad a bigg bully ann WAS. okay still is. XDD anywayy.. since sec 1 my parents' been saying stuff lyk.. who cares abt ur bday lo.. already sec sch liao still lyk kid liddat.. wan blow candle wan bigg cake big presents.. -.- i also dunno y.. nvm..

every yr my bday will haf special things up one.. sec 1 tht time moe extended e SARS hols on my bday till a day b4 ben's bday.. i still rmb wad me n mc did.. hahahs.. den sec 2.. errr.. sheesh i forgot.. think got choir tht day.. den mr yong play bday song.. hahahs.. den pig fam pple got me bday cake.. hmm.. den this yr.. syf.. hais.. n my dad sending car for servicing.. such an auspicious date.. sighs. 3 more dayys..

abel's nice todayy. he's been msging me abt my pressie since morn. hahahas. sho farnie. i told him i wanted a new wallet. cuz i really dun lyk e billabong one my cousin gave me for xmas. blahhs. den i said sth lyk e bez pressie iz tht choir get gold w honours.. den he say wad.. e only thing tht will prevent us for getting goldwhonours iz his absence. hahahahhahs.. bhb. but sho farnie. o yah talking abt abel.. my stepbrother.. he's e product of puayfen mama n her 1 outta 10 hubbies. o.0 darnoe larh.. anywayz i got papa le. iz jiahao papa. not xiaolun. iz 4/7 de jiahao. shuai wor!!! of cuz larh.. my papa lehhh.. hehhhs.. jingjing iz my daughter i think.. mg not my one n only liao.. hahahas.. but jingjing wans my jiahao papa to be her papa.. meaning she wan me to snatch husband with my mama. -.- den i say cannot. ask her choose another papa. she chose ziyuan. kaos. e short senior. i ask him for his blood type. see if fit jingjing's blood type anot. he say i despo. wah kao. so ungentlemanly. hrmph. but jingjing wans me to be lyk puayfen. she calls jiahao papa LAO GONG. -.- but in e end. jingjing realised her blood type dun match me, jiahao papa, n ziyuan. but went to anyhow acknowledge ziyuan as papa anyways. o mans. SHO ER XIN. i might as well tip toe n bend down my head n say SENIOR!! nvm. FORGET IT. -.- choir iz complicated. but choir still rox. ooohlala.

i finally got ben's pressie. ytd after choir. me n mg went to buy. anson almost came along. hmm. dun wanna elaborate. tong ku de hui yi. *stares at mg in silence.

i went bugis today with aunt. bought stuff to make pple some bday pressies. hahahs. broke jiu shi broke. *stares at mg again. haix. better avoid e topic abt money. yucks.

ben's lyk gone to e ball-lala land again. haix. bro's hogging both e tv n phone. sho i cant watch e match as well. darn.
shld be off to do sth more productive. lyk doing my geog hw. yucks. iz due on 0604. n guess wad? nice hasniza plans a test on weathering on e same day. she rawks. hrmph.

e story ends here tonite.

'_ ni de chun zai..
_ zeng tian le wo shi jie de se cai.. ]]'

+ deep rooted +

2005-03-31T18:56:00.000+08:00

dunno wad kinda mood im currently in. juz feel rather blasted by thots.
sumtimes when u got lotsa things on ur mind wan settle.. but cuz no time/no chance blah blah.. u nv settle.. den 1 wk later.. u feel lyk settling it.. but iz too late.. pple already start having misconceptions or stuff liddat.. i think this kinda stuff iz really really baddd lo..

feel tht if u wan settle sth. juz do it.
cuz u nv noe. wad if 1 sec b4 u gonna say sorry to a fren, tht fren got knocked down by a car? [choy..]
wad if 1 min b4 u wanna say sorry to a fren, he/she boarded e airplane to sumwhere for good?
wad if 1 hr b4 u wanna say sorry to a fren, he/she decided not to forgive u?
sighhs. dunno y im saying all these. perhaps i nv value every sec i haf in my life ba.. im always lyk idling time away.. doing lame n unmeaningful stuff.. nv really make gd use of my messed up life.. sighs.. sudd wan write dedications..

to mg: thx for writing e conclusion for e compo for me todayy.. wud haf sit dere stoning/luffing at abelyang's nuisance w/o u.. thx for looking for me n waiting for sho long.. hehh.. i wan tell u sth.. value anson.. really.. im not crapping this time.. sumtimes u may find him irritating.. but if really one day he isnt dere.. perhaps u will noe e meaning of loneliness.. i noe ur character dun suit his personality tht much.. but really.. he means well.. yep.. n treasure ur relationship ba.. =) n hor.. thx for all ur advice regarding various topics.. they may not be e best.. but den at least i noe sumone iz dere for me.. i already veh happy le.. i noe u trying to make my life easier also.. or maybe u sian den come find me.. =.= i dunno.. but really happy when u looked for me todayy.. at least i got sumone to crap with.. u noe.. 3205 hardly got pple stay back.. except me n ws.. -.-" kayyys.. u rawk all e way..

to yuxian: thx for being my jie for e laz day of e mth today. hahahs. tmr u gotta call me jie. lalala. thx for having e same bday as me. think we both equally cham.. only got each other to rely on in 3205.. ur rachel porkie n pying in 3/3.. chloe in 3/1.. ariana n huimin in 3/6 3/7.. i no better.. only twosix gal in 3205.. sighs.. sumtimes also dun wan go compare my frenz with urs.. but at least 2404 frenx all veh nice to u.. muz appreciate them kayys.. frenz r really impt lo.. n iz not easy to find true frenz.. yep.. as for e person in ur heart.. i noe dere's one.. can feel it.. no need hide frm me.. juz treasure this mystifying feeling of happiness ba.. iz nice to like sumone deep down w/o letting pple noe sumtimes.. iz lyk a lil secret within urself perhaps.. mhmm.. dun forget.. we got same bday.. we haf e same character.. *winks.. best of luck for syf.. r4wking for4va.. heh..

to ws: ah gui3!!! hmm.. same class as u for 3rd yr liao.. dunno iz heng or suey.. XDD hmm.. i noe these few mths sit beside me veh unbearable.. always ask u help me do stuff.. lyk take u as a maid liddat.. throw rubbish.. punch holes for filing.. buy harlowpanda.. print notes.. copy hw too.. XDD blah blah.. everything u also let me haf my way until i abit scared of u.. cuz u hardly blow up.. =.= sorry larh kayys.. i noe im a spoilt brat lah.. so sumtimes u juz heck care me lo.. hmm.. but i noe u r nice larh kay.. cuz u're a twosixer. XDD all e bez in topping 3205 this yr. make 2604 proud bahs. =)) rawk rawk.. shi tou.. -.-

to ben: lalala. a few hrs ago juz scolded u say u nv appreciate me. help u do ncc stuff nv say thankyou. bleahs. anywayz. im a nice person. i WILL say thx. =P thx for tah-bao-ing recess for me todayy.. ws bought 2 packets for me u also buy.. end up i haf 4.. make pple ard me go siao.. joanne n shimin were lyk acting out e scenes.. hahahs.. nvm.. dun care them.. hmm.. i noe u wan me grow taller n fatter.. also veh concern abt my diet n health.. hmm.. ur plan will work de larh.. dun worry.. hahahs.. jiayou in ncc.. n soccer too.. rmb ur dream okayys. n also. thx for bearing with me larhs. noe ur attitude lo. u say iz shy. i say iz nonpossesive. nvm. still e same. jiayou for my pressie.. u haf 5 days left.. n i haf 15.. hahahs.. dun sing bday song larh. i think i will cry n run away if u sing. not cuz i touched. iz cuz i dun dare to hear.. hahahahahahs. okok. dun suan u liaoz. u rawk.=))

to mc: hmm.. i noe we veh long nv talk.. also dunno how u feeling.. nv really go ask u hows ur class n stuff.. 3405 nice anot blah blah.. how r things blah blah.. since feli left.. we nv really had tht gd frenship i guess.. maybe u r rite.. maybe we arent fated with each other or sth.. but juz wan say.. i was happy when i had lunch wif u pris they all.. yep.. dun ask me y.. cuz i dunno.. sumhow deep inside me.. i still lyk u bah.. =.= ok nvm.. dun even noe whether i shld say all these anot.. hmm.. be happy bah.. thts all i can say.. lyk wad mg always tell me.. let everything past.. dun go talk abt it.. dun go think abt it.. juz forget everything n be happy.. =) jiayou.. rawk on..

yayyyy. sudd feel veh high after typing all these. sudd thinking abt naomi and her madness. haix nvm. y am i having sho many abstracted thots. diao.

tmr got choir syf full dress. my gown sent for alteration. haven gotten my silverr shoes yet. blahhs. tmr go try le. pray tht everything's fine. mrs tan gonna talk to us too. sighs. pressure.. choir rox. choir rox. choir MUZ jiayou!!! =)))

sudd thinking abt feli. how she'll look if she wear our new choir gown. hahahahs. she got a damn nice figure btw.. -pauses- o.0 opps, wad did i say..? nvm.. juz miss changing with feli.. lalala..

tmr got chem test on bonding. pui pui pui. chem sux. bleahhhhh. off to mugg.

ann is a guai kia.

'_ ni kuai le..
_ suo yi wo kuai le.. ]]'

+ pms//7days

2005-03-29T20:43:00.000+08:00

take it tht im pms-ing or wadever larh.
juz currently kinda pissed off wif life. probably cuz im too hungry liao. rite now iz 843, n im gobbling down my dinner. sho early. sho hungry. sho moody.

sighs. had many mood swings todayy. esp recess chao low. kept thinking abt feli. i juz cant help feeling tht dere are no true frenz ard me.. e only 2 i noe of are probably feli n mg.. everybody's lyk sho sho cant be bothered n selfish. thts wad i realised these few days. when u need company. they will only be with u juz to kill boredom cells. why are humans sho self-centred nowadays? i dun exclude myself as well. but i juz feel tht my so called FRENZ.. dun fit e definition of a fren anymore.. i luv u feli.. i luv u mg.. thx alot.. best frens award goes to both of ya.. =))

tried e choir gown today. had problems with e size cuz they mixed L n S up. -.- ritex. look quite ok. silverr heels. ooohlala.

pple are lyk pushing all e job to me. wth. iz also my 2nd cca. with syf up n stuff. i was only asked to inform all sec 3s. y do u hafta request tht i HAVE to do e sec 1s too? juz becuz i haf ONE of e contact list? look. i dun mind doing e job. but dun u think iz a lil unfair? dere are lyk how many pple in sang so y am i e one who's informing the whole cca pple..? y are u e one telling me all these? wth is this lo? i really DUN wanna be pissed. n this time over a stupid meeting. iz stupid. i dun wanna lose another so called fren. fine. wadever k. hrmph. i'll juz pass e msg n be nice. but i wun be responsible for anyone who doesnt turn up.. arghhh. somehow im betting with myself tht once this entry is published n pple reads it. dere wud be commotion tmr.
pls understand. i hafta handle lotsa stuff at once. choir, tuitions, piano, sangtorch. put urself in my shoes n think as an outsider. i noe everyone's busy. but u noe sth got SHARING e work load? if u were me, wud u lyk this? if no, pls quit taking advantage of me. im truly being me. this is wad i feel n no one can control it. dun lyk it. thts ur problem. u got an attitude. i got mine too. believe me.

dere's lyk chem test on fri. yayyy i so rock. iz chap 5 bonding. yucks. nx wk still got geog test. great. my dinner iz cold. stupid fried rice. cant u stay hot for lyk 10 mins juz for me to type this damn entry. blahhhs. wadever. stop comparing me with audrey. i dun lyk it. my jokes are original okayys. though i admit i say it without thinking. wadever.

i am me. so let me show u wad i really am.

juz let me be wad i wanna be.

stop intruding into my life.

iz.my.life.

'_ ni.. fang kai wo..

_ er ni.. bie fang shou.. ]]'

+ hunger//log +

2005-03-27T16:31:00.000+08:00

log sucks. bleahs.
im sho sho sick of doing e tys le. got so many blank blank lo. end up i realised i only noe how to do those equation types of log. if got problem sums i die le. sighs. dreading e log test tmr. dunno y these 2 days my life's been lyk revolving ard maths.. ytd dl e heymath assignment.. kaos.. lazy to do.. den still got those ques in hol hw undone.. n e additional math hw.. arghh.. blasted by maths thts y im here blogging again..

dld msn7 only laz nite.. cuz i kept declining in e past. was sho impressed by it lo. hahahas. those farnie emoticons.. kayys.. muz credit darren.. lalala.. dunno y today my appetite seems to be larger.. after breakfast i can lyk walk ard n eat chocZ.. after lunch continue 1 bowl of desert.. i still feel hungry.. tskk.. wads in my stomach..? -.- my shopping mode in back too.. but currently damn broke.. hais.. i wan to buy sho many things lo.. summore month of april.. sho many pressies need to buy.. ben.. mg.. yuxian.. april.. liping.. n ME. hahahs. 3205 still got zhenyang anna parvathi atiqah.. 2604.. jody jinning.. sighs.. mg.. might as well juz buy jay for her.. she sure go madd.. eh on second thots no.. might as well keep jay for myself.. wahahahahs.. -.- ok nvm.. get her a bigggg bed den move into 3105 suan le.. -.- as for ben.. buy a soccer pitch for him suan le.. sighs.. yuxian.. buy u salty fish.. hahahahs.. april.. err.. buy u a stress relief ball.. dun keep crying le.. or buy u a knife.. can cut up kiwi for desert if he scolds u again.. -.-

do a ~~food~~ chain.
april05
-> 0504 > yuxianann > choirsyf05 > gold w honours > choir rox > ann rox [1]
-> 1204 > dancesyf05 > gold w honours > dance rox > yuxian rox [2]
-> 1504 > ben > band -.- > gold w honours > band rox > eunice rox [3]
sub [1] n [2] n [3] together
= ann & yuxian & eunice rock.
= YEA rox.
= bcd oohlala~ =))

current cravings:
1. choco icecream w fudge. XDD
2. love letters. [as in the cny goodie] =.=
3. long2 xu1 tang2.
4. milk chocZ frm japan. +.+
5. choco prata. XDD

omg. my mum rox. she juz took some longxutang frm dunno where n offered me rite after i typed my cravings. wooolalala. chao nice chao nice. sweeeet.

wth. can my mum read my mind or sth. she juz offered me a tin of love letters. WAAHHHHH.

im off to eat. muahahhahaas. foooooooooood rox. i got e genes frm nigel papa!!! XDDD
ann's gonna put on 3kg by june. bleahhhhs. later den go update my wishlist. hehhs.

'_ zui zhong..
_ wo zhi xi wang mo mo de ai ni.. ]]'

+ gaining weight +

2005-03-26T21:58:00.000+08:00

halo..
quite some time nv blog eh..

hmm.. gd friday was okayys.. except tht i slept at 230am.. talk on phone with ben.. nv see e time lo.. hmm.. woke up.. had insufficient amt of breakfast cuz i was lazy to make bread.. -.- kayys. den i felt hyper. went to mop e entire hse twice. so siao. every rm mop twice. even e toilets. mop liao my bro come back say wad.. wahhh.. not badd lehh.. since 5 yrs ago tht maid leave hor.. e floor nv sho clean.. not badd leh u.. you qian tu.. [got a bright future].. iz this meant to be a compliment.. or insulting me..? -.- but nvm larh.. service to the household.. lalala.. after lunch.. mum was sewing some loose bits of my pinafore.. den i ask her loosen my belt.. actually wan say loosen by 1 finger. but i try on.. kaox.. 1 finger i cant even reach.. muz 2.. woootZ.. den wanted go take weight.. but cant find e weighing machine.. bleahhs.. but i grew fatter lo.. mum said so.. dad said so.. aunt said so.. hRmm.. my appetite grew too.. eating abit more liao.. hahahs.. ben's happy cuz his plan finally work.. since sec 1 he's been asking me to eat more n not be sho bony.. wahahhahas.. congrats larh.. XDD

den after tht i went to queensway to look at xtraining shoes.. cuz my ligament tear laz yr left some aftereffects.. e ankle aches whenever it rains larh.. den cant really run le.. hmm.. i spotted a red one lo.. $124.95.. nike.. i waiting for bro's gf come back frm japan den i ask her help me buy.. hahas.. think she got 50%.. lalalals.. hehh.. bought a b.u.m top as well.. iz PINK. but half price. lalalas. hahahss. im getting more n more cheapo lerz. hmm.. den went ikea.. bot some stuff.. thot of gift ideas.. heh heh.. hmm.. den cousin's husband treated us to some teochew restaurant.. chao nice.. i ate alot.. muahahas.. den my dad brought everyone to SSC.. i fed mosquitoes dere.. some kids snatched e swing with me lo.. arghhh..

this morn.. woke up.. did some housework.. hahahhs.. went for tuition.. home-d. teevied. den blogged. currently:
1. listening to qinghua. =))
2. chatting on msn with darren abt soccer n luffing at weihao's stunts.. XDD
3. waiting for ben's reply.
4. worrying abt my pile of tuition hw.
5. rather bloated n feeling fat. XDD [finally]

hmm.. heard abt layjia's mum this noon. stay strong gal.. ur frenz will be with u.. jiayou kayys..

'_ i hate pple to control my life..
_ y muz u try to climb e gate to my heart..?
_ it doesnt work this way..
_ u dun haf e key..
_ and i wun give it to u..
_ so pls stop trespassing.. ]]'

+ feli's call +

2005-03-24T20:23:00.000+08:00

omg. im sho screwed.

i called feli today. talked for 1hr 08 mins. din think abt e damn bills. thot it wud be worse come to worse lyk 70 bucks. budden. i juz checked e damn singtel website. even with idd. e call wud be ard 65 bucks, excluding my normal hp bills. freak. mine's not idd. iz my hp. assuming e overseas charge is 100, plus my average hp bill, it wud be 30. total 130. freak. how am i supposed to explain to my mum? "o paiseh i accidentally called feli in class. den i din realise until dismissal?" wth iz this. so lousy. haix. think got a better idea. "all 2604 pple talk to feli using my phone. den all say hao pay me 5 bucks each. -.- sounds stupid. but i think better den e previous idea. haix. i dun mind paying lo seriously. juz scared mum confiscate my hp. den i die le. ben also die le. haix.

despite all e call charges. i felt happie. cuz i spoke to feli. was damn damn high. talked e loudest liao. long distance den probably can hear better if i shout mah. -.- okay nvm. anywayz she's gonna call me again on my bdae. den i can shun bian tell her abt syf. rite now she cant sms le. only can start calling pple frm april onwards. yep.. pple jia you..

today after hanging up e phone with feli. i took my jacket n hp. walk into e empty 3/3 nx door. sat on ben's chair. everyone's gone. ben at ncc. mg n pris they all went home. started crying lyk mad alone. my class was occupied by qien n evona they all having council meeting wadever thingy. sho after 30 mins. i went back. evona asked me not to tear. i stopped. den when she n qien left 3/2. e tears came back. evon came back. had a long talk with her b4 eunice came. treated me hersheys. thx alot.. naomi came.. crap crap crap.. lighten up.. yeps.. den veh veh fast 650.. we left 3/2.. ben called me. say his ncc juz finish. met him at canteen. den me ben naomi evon walk opp dere.. naomi treat us bubble tea.. hahahs.. so farnie.. ben at first say wan strawberry.. but later change to honeydew.. *winks at mg.. hahahs.. nvm.. shallnt continue.. help ben save face.. -.-

den ben n naomi go take 72.. me n von took 265 den i change bus came home.. blahhs.. bathed n currently drinking soup - my dinner. later go do ss online.

haix. i dunno how to tell my mum lo. she juz walk into e room n saw me browsing at singtel bills webpage.. wth.. quickly close lo.. haix.. my fren say will be at least 145 including normal bills.. im dead. chao dead. i dunno how now. shld juz stop using phone till e bill comes. maybe it wud be better. i cant tell them i myself called feli. everyone shld understand tht my parents are cold blooded. they dunno wad r frenz. they dun understand y i wud miss feli tht much when i only noe her for 2 yrs. so to them, this call i made, iz lyk throwing money at singtel. haix. ideas pple. i need IDEAS. haix. zhe mo ban.. i wan my hp.. yucks..

juz freaking banked in my savings. now only left 100 bucks with me only. e bill better dun exceed 100 by too much. if not i gotta borrow money den slowly return pple. o yah. who else owes me money. quickly return hor. if not i bankrupt. eh.. e bill dunno when come. if iz tmr. omg. i no money pay my mum ler. ahhhhs. already intend to pay e whole bill myself. shld start being a guai kia. do housework everyday. yesh. moppppping starts today. ok no iz too late. tmr. XDD ritex. SA1 pia ahhh!!

'_ peng you..

_ jian chi dao di..

_ bu yao fang qi..]]'

+ ICregletter +

2005-03-23T19:35:00.000+08:00

oohlala.
e registration for my nric came todayy..
but e letter was dated 210305. nice no. hahahs.
am supposed to go down to e immigrations frm 0604 to 2004.. hrmm.. they ps-ed tht parents are not required to be present.. wahahhaas.. greatt.. lalala..

feel tht e letter abit lame. they ask us fill in e blanks for married name when they already stated tht my marital status is single. -.- den religion is unknown. diao. so im a freethinker. din realise tht lo. hahahs. n all my life i haf been pondering over e whether my fullname had a comma in it. my parents argued over it b4 i rmb. cuz my birth cert haf but my dad claimed he didnt register e comma. o.0 okay. nvm. anyway now e IC notification for reg letter came. n it has the comma. perhaps my dad accidentally doodled on my bc reg. den e person help me put a comma. -.- okayys.. nvmm..

i feel tht im slacking. dunno y. got loads of work to do but im always doing nothing. copied most of them. today e maths. i finished e first 2 ques of geometry den lazy to continue le. den realised tht e eng workshts i was supposed to put in ms yoong's pigeon hole are still in my file. sho im gonna rush to sch earlier den her tmr morn to throw e stack dere. lalala.

started writing e song for jiahao already. but keep on forgetting e tune. haix. i need to upload to my mp3 lo. think will do it tonite. e printer ran outta ink n iz veh veh bonky sho i cant dl e chem notes n geog ones too. sians.

today e student council investiture was quite high.. hahahs.. saw tiong bigg bro.. shuai sia.. i was quite stunned when he first walk in e hall.. tht kinda dao dao look.. walk on red carpet lyk model lo.. chao cool. den me n jo were lyk smsing tiong to look behind. hahahs. 6b02 de of cuz shuai n cool larh. wahahhahas. XDD

better go do some work. come back online later i guess. ard 9.
tatas.

+ unknown tears +

2005-03-22T20:31:00.000+08:00

630. home-d. comp-ed. chatted. dinnered.
730. mopped e entire hse. yes. a total of 5 bedrooms, 1 dining room, 1 living room, 3 toilets. not trying to bragg how bigg my hse iz. but iz kinda compacted for 9 pple. okay 8, minus my maid who juz left. i tried washing e dishes. but my mum stopped me after she realised my hands were red after washing juz 2 plates. iz currently red, itchy n shedding skin. since when am i allergic to detergent? didnt i do all e dishes laz yr for home econs? for mine n ben's.. n also cheng2 n weihao's..? wads wrong..? y am i sho fragil? i wan to be strong. lyk mg. STRONG. but i cant.
815. bathed. teared. dried. dressed.
840. comp-ed. blogged.

tell me. wads my prob? y did i snatch e mop frm my mum n tried mopping my laz drain of energy off? i seriously dunno y lo. i juz felt sho compressed. lyk e air particles veh veh veh tight. until i cant breathe n i wanna juz run run run away.. lucky ching has a track machine. im luckier. i got bishan park nx door. o.0

dad thot mum was abusing me. -.- but mum knew sth was wrong but she told my dad tht iz a form of training for me to be a housewife. o.0 nvm. gd one. but im not amused. -.- hais. i really dunno wad im thinking lo. y muz i keep living in my past memories n hallucinate on them? y muz felicia come to my mind n make me think of yongyuan's misery? y muz mg n mc come to my mind n make me think of sec one times n all e fun we had..? sigh.. im sick.. sho sho sick.. juz lyk wad mr ang said abt those sickos who disturbed e lil ones. im utterly disgusted by my actions. o.0

i've probably told many pple to not bother abt me n let me cool down liao. but seriously. outta all my frens. who truly cares? i really dunno. im juz lazy to tell them wads wrong with me. let them read this entry n conclude wads really wrong with me. -.-

7 realisations of the day:
1. i hate pple to ask me to shuddap for no reasons.
2. i dun lyk to be alone in class after sch.
3. anderson choir can sing well if we want to. and today i broke e record. i was surrounded by 7 basses. pete yukang amos yukai vernon jamesloh n tht indonesian guy. gawdd.
4. im losing my voice n im dehydrating. haven consumed any plain water today except e 1 small mouth frm jiahao's nike bottle after choir. it tasted mouldy. o.0
5. my mum still owes me 10 bucks.
6. i haf no control over myself today. probably moody swings n hallucinations.
7. i can nv be a housewife. my grandma said e mop wud be broken by me in a wk's time if i continued mopping e hse twice everyday. n i decided to prove her wrong by doing more moppings in future.

5 things i want/hope to do now:
1. call feli n talk to her.
2. sumone to call me n ask me if my name's ann n if i love myself.
3. read newsweek cuz it has a nice date. 210305.
4. write e song lyrics for jiahao.
5. slam my red n hot slimey hands on e piano.

got this frm xianx blogg. iz really accurate. at least for me. DAMN accurate.

You are the color red. You are the most
controversial of all the colors. You are often
easily angered, but as easily as you got
excited, you come down. When angered, do you
have the tendency to be malicious? Afterwards,
do you end up begging for forgiveness? Maybe.
But you're incredibly generous, and, odd
enough, needy. You love to hate, and
sometimes, you hate to love. This color
describes you as generally edgy. When in a bad
situation, you're pessimistic, and when you're
in a good situation, you're extremely
optimistic. You're painfully tempermental, and
sometimes it hurts the ones you love. But with
an exciting and stimulating attitude, you enjoy
talking to people and being social. But aside
from your bold and outgoing attitude, you're
attention-needing and attention-getting. This
color is associated with lust and desire--and
you are both lust and desirous. You're a
protective person when it comes to the people
you love. You're incredibly sharp-witted and
powerful (not to mention intelligent!).

What color are you? (Amazingly detailed & accurate--with pics!)
brought to you by Quizilla

'_ wo de shi jie li..
_ hao xiang shao le ni.. ]] '

+ lazdayofhols//haircut +

2005-03-20T18:50:00.000+08:00

layered.
fringed.
snipped.
trimmed.

ann feels exceptionally light. n tooted. as usual. i scream rite after walking outta e saloon. was quiet disgusted by e hairdresser. bleahhhs. nvm.
reached home. webcam-ed with jiahao. he say no diff. juz shorter. -.- nvm. asked dad. which clearly has tooted taste. "turn ard. once. twice. thrice. -pause- err.. ok larh.. budden i think it shld be shorter.. short short short.." o.0 wad e hell iz my dad thinking? im not his SON. im his DAUGHTER for gods sake. hrmph.
juz went into eldest bro's rm.
i gave an innocent look n asked,"do u think my hair is nice?"
bro was doing com stuff, stares at me for 2 secs, "not bad." *continues looking at e monitor. o.0
hrmm.. pity 2nd bro's off at turkey.. he has e best taste in this entire hse.. *rolls eyes at dad n bro..

sians. my hw still undone lo. heckkk.
off to watch tv. ch 8 n ch5 tonite chao nice.
tatas.

'_ 6 hrs to 2103..]]'

+ hw pile +

2005-03-19T21:20:00.000+08:00

goshh.
i dunno y im still blogging.
with tht freaking pile of hw in front of me.

i compo-ed draft 1 this morn. whEee..
hw left: final draft of chinese compo, lit essay not attempted.
ss online i dun intend to do yet. maths also not completed larhs but dun care.
sang torch list n phy online done.
din manage to go to e library this hols.
hRmm.. going for a haircut tmr. gonna remove my parting. pple at home see my parting bu shuang. fine. cut cut cut. e appt booked at 130. got this feeling it wun turn out nice. -.-

uploaded zizi's neos with me todayy.
edited them cuz dere were 2 of each neos.
realised tht my ring could be seen. again.
wahahahas. *grins*

we went cine. zi was late. hrmph. [y am i always e one waiting arhs..?]
met for lyk 30 mins. juz took neos n chat a little.
miss zi loadds. she rox. XDD
presenting to u.. ann n ziling.. =))

this is e machine tht has retractable cam.
e one layjia wanted to use for 2604 neos.
but not veh gd. quite fun. but no time to deco.

gone for some compo. admire my hairstyle for one last time.
going. n gone.

'_ nothing is perfect..
_ dan zai wo yan zhong..
_ you are perfect.. ]]'

+ delusion? +

2005-03-18T16:36:00.000+08:00

yoyo.. new layout..
still feel tht iz pretty plain.. but i juz lyk e pic..
makes me think of 2604 camp at pasir ris park.. sighs..

im thinking abt things i shldnt think again..
wonder how feli wud react if her com iz ready n she sees this rite now.. not only this entry.. but also previous ones of mine.. will she feel happie..? happy tht she's on my mind more often den she thinks..? or sad..? sad tht i cant let e times we had become faded memories..? i dunno.. rite now im kinda down lo.. i noe im acting childish larh.. but was quite shot in e chest when ching mentioned tht feli called her.. 2nd time liao rite..? i wished e one she called was me.. i wish to hear her voice.. i wish to tell her alot of things.. abt yongyuan.. abt me.. abt choir.. abt pete n amos blah blah.. n chewy too.. rant her tht syf iz on my bday n all.. but i cant..

im really afraid she wud juz forget me liddat.. though my heart tells me she wun.. not yet perhaps.. all e stuff tht happened at e airport tht nite.. it juz comes back to my mind.. i dunno whether to be happy or sad for her.. i dunno if im e only one feeling jealous tht she called ching.. i dunno y im acting sho childishly.. when i obviously noe tht she's alrite n stuff.. i dun mind if e first person she call isnt me.. but.. e fact iz.. she nv called me at all.. e laz thing i heard her say was.. ann.. iz too late.. iz too late.. y muz it be this sentence? y muz she say she gtg when first snatched over e phone..? y didnt she request to speak to me..? am i really tht small a fren in her heart? i dunno.. i dunno y im crying now.. perhaps im another delusional person lyk james loh.. perhaps im living in my own world with only thoughts of my own.. perhaps im not ready to be a matured individual yet..

but den again.. if she really called.. i think i wud be too stunned to talk.. or i'll probably cry n let her do all e talking.. i dunno.. i really dunno.. y am i getting sho tensed up juz becuz of a blardy phone call? y? y am i making sure tht my hp iz always with me.. no matter where i go.. y? perhaps i really need a pychologist to talk to me.. yes mg.. perhaps u wud understand.. i always feel tht u knew me best.. but do u noe wad iz lyk to not receive this veh little act of gesture.. from sumone who left u for more den 2 wks?

i nv knew e importance of an overseas phone call.
i nv knew e importance of an sms saying tht sumone still cares.
i nv knew e importance of having a fren to hang out with n talk everything when u're down.
i nv knew e importance of a fren understanding ur feelings n all.
i nv knew e impact of losing a fren.

18 days since feli left.
all those who cried. meiching. mg. naomi. sheryl.
how r their lives now? no longer as teary as tht faithful day i supposed.
i find myself happier when i bury all my tears deep in my heart n try to live life normally.
but i realised whenever i think abt her. iz nth but tears. it comes naturally i guess.
perhaps im juz a spoilt brat. sumone who has nv faced much probs with live. sumone who has been spoon fed since young, who has everything she wants n all she has to do iz to cry n yell for it. i screamed. i teared. but i dun haf her beside me..

e cat got my tongue. im lost for words.
typed. but backspaced.
thts all i haf i guess.

'_ peng you..
_ ni hai ji de wo ma..? ]]'

+ jap & german conductors//sngs +

2005-03-16T18:11:00.000+08:00

currently feeling:
1. deadbeat. physically.
2. hyped in e mind.
3. worried deep down. freaking undone hw. sucky.
4. happie of my fulfilling day.
5. tensed. counting down to syf [20days]. to 2103 [5].

currently doing:
1. drinking cadbury chocZ.
2. eating e jelly sweet frm action city. [realised they dun go together. =.=]
3. uploading neos taken today with sheryl at j8. [eve machine not badd sia xianx.]
4. packing my neos. [bot a new cardholder todayy for 2005 neos.]
5. blogging. -.-

ann can multi task. XDD i inherited genes frm nigel papa. hehhs.

today's choir workshop at sngs rocked lyk anything. ask anyone.
iz probably e bez prac we ever had.
although it started at 8am. n lasted all e way till 5 plus.
we were great. ms lim credited us for being best enduring choir. wad u expect? first n last choir of e day sia.. *whistles..
e jap n german conductors rawk lyk anything. sho farnie.
their warm-ups veh unique.
their pronunciation veh special.
their english language rocked frm one end to e other. i.e on e scale of 10. one ranged e opp' of e other. XDD

o yah.. ms lim iz out to play with me mans.. she put me first nx to pete laz wk.. den after tht put yukang nx to me a few days later.. 2 basses blasting beside me.. plus behind got amos.. wth.. den today.. hai yao shua wo.. put me in 2nd row beside amos n yukai.. behind me iz james n another indo bass. wth. thanks alot. im blardy surrounded by 6 basses!?!? WAH KAO. y muz always change MY place? i wan pete!! XDD budden.. now liddat amos standing beside me.. wooooolala. *raises eyebrows.. XDD rmb i had probs singing alone lo.. started evolving into e bass part for e laz phrase of adam lay ybounden.. blahhhs.. altos unite..

lunch-ed at j8 wif sheryl. took neos. e eve machine was ooohlala-ly gd. shopped ard. saw e cap i wanted frm 77th street. sher u are not authorised to reveal e price. bleahhs. went back to sngs. took our new choir tee. im still an S. [not ass, but S-sized] ooohlala-ly high. but feli's one gotta wait kayys gal? i'll make sure they make one for u. no worries fishy. hRmmz.. vira n handika went missing together. lotsa commotion. hahahs. puayfen say she accept dating as an excuse to be late. o.0 blah blah blah.. 5 plus.. time to go home.. we took pics with e conductors lo..

fri's sectionals i not going. geraldine bao zhong. u handle e level sectionals if dere's one ler. wahhahahas. lucky ann has braces appt at 10am. sho.. whEe.. XPP

neos neos neos.. 4th neo of 2005.. ooohlala.. me n sheryl mama.. can see my ringg wor.. finally.. hahahs.. bhb abit.. XDD

riteZ.. i noe this layout veh sian liao.. but i veh lazy change.. who wan do for me? i treat 7 lollipops. strawberry n cream flavour. *hint hint* hahahas..

kayyys.. go face my hw liaoz..
btw xianx.. i call u later regarding lit.. n hor.. tmr show u my masterpiece using silver pen.. iz ooohlala-ly good. XDD

'_ yi xun jian..
_ wan wu bian de hen miao xiao..
_ ni hai zai wo sheng bian ma..? ]] '

+ yea//maidless//outing +

2005-03-15T22:19:00.000+08:00

ooohlala~

currently:
1. wet cuz i juz bathed.
2. tired eyes cuz i juz removed contacts.
3. hungry cuz i realised i haven had dinner.
4. mentally hyped.
5. happie.

got sho many things to blog abt.

mon: went out with YEA. Yuxian Eunice Ann. hahahahs. we are YEA. BCD oohlala. Band Choir Dance. juz nice.. hahahahas.. all iz xians think one.. took neos.. show ya.. scanner's working liao anyways..

today: big day. supposed to be chao happie. cuz after a chao high day with YEA.. today went out with ben lo.. finally i shld say.. havent been going out on our own since laz yr nov i think.. lalalas.. anywayz.. im supposed to be happy larh.. but maid juz got fired by mum lo.. den since laz nite cry cry cry.. i also dunno wad to say.. she left sg this morn ler.. din even get to say buh bye.. haix.. i noe she veh cham larhs.. but mum sure haf her reasons which i dun wanna noe.. wait i kana whack again.. nvmm.. all e best andrealyn.. =))

anywayz.. met ben at hougang interchange as usual.. dad left me at amk mrt.. den i missed e bus.. bahhs.. met peiying.. den we took 165 together.. she alighted.. end up i late 5 mins.. let ben on time for once.. hahahahs.. sumore sms yayyy to me when he reached.. diao.. anywayz we took 72 to tampines lo.. watch boooogeyy.. not as scary as shutter.. probably becuz no mg.. hahahahs.. okok.. probably becuz i was hiding behind ben or sth.. dunno larhs.. dun wanna talk abt e contents.. cuz i sure cant sleep tonite de.. XDD

hrmm.. den we went to eat longjohnsilver.. sho farnie.. ben actually quite careful abt his diet.. say wad still got time to jian fei.. ahahahhas.. kana influenced by me.. cuz i keep saying tht he's fat.. wait one day he pei nigel go taf.. hahahs.. okok.. shldnt badmouth my papa.. lalalas.. den we went to take bus blah blah.. 72 frm tampines go back hougang.. walk all e way to hougang mall cuz i need e toilet.. -.- veh diao.. den take 74 to some ulu place.. time's up take back to macritchie dere.. ahahhas.. den we take 165.. den im home while ben continue taking it home.. lalalas.. sho funnn taking bus.. talk talk talk.. talk practically abt everything.. come to think of it.. i think we talk quite loudly everywhere.. summore i luff sho loud.. veh malu.. XDD

show pics bahh.. of 2604's neos taken on xcountry day.. n yea neos too..

yayyy.. 8 twosixers.. layjia, meiching, me, ben, nigel, anson, cheng2, weihao.. =)) 2/6 unite!!

xianx. eunice. ann. YEA unite!! *bcd oohlala~

to YEA: yoyo pple.. funn outing we hadd.. first one for 3205 pple i noe.. but we still rawk okays? e paper crane still with me.. waiting for nx time we do proj again come my hse.. we doodle again kayyys? hehhhs.. *bcd oohlala~ =))

to ben: lalalala.. had a veh veh veh veh veh nice time todayyy.. probably cuz we haven had time for each other since xmas lo.. heh.. sho.. yeps.. thx for e day yahh.. all e crapp n lame stuff.. hahahs.. n i noe i look chao horrible in baggy pants.. dun hafta make it sho obvious.. bleahhhs.. thts all.. lalalas.. ciaoZ soon.. =))

hehhhs.. finally done.. hRmm.. juz rmbed i got choir workshop at st nicks tmr.. frm 8 to 5 plus.. gonna die lyk siao.. hais.. level sectionals on mon almost killed me.. malufied.. -.-

kayys. ann e pigg iz going to bed liaoz. after a bigggg day. chinese compo left untouched. desperately need help.

niteZ pple~

'_ huan le shi guang..
_ zhong shi guo de hen kuai.. ] '

+ xcountry// 2604outing +

2005-03-12T21:51:00.000+08:00

argh. this is damn infuriating.

all e while i thot e scanner cud be use any minute. juz tht we dun haf much space for it. after bringing it out to see some light. realised tht my bro lost e wire. sho wheEe. no pics for u guys to see.

shall talk abt x country.

basically it was fun. ask me how fun it is. i dunno. cuz i din run. hahahs. kayys. many siao pple ran towards me n say wan join ST. cuz they dun wanna run. you mo sia. hehh. but i took horrible pics. get them frm me wor ching. iz either e sarcasm i got frm gang quan abt his 748 cam. or e sun juz didnt lyk me tht day. wadever. i think my bro's cam suck rite to e core. yucks. anyways. i think fandi ahmad chao cool. e way he talk. hahahs. got a signature frm him. took a pic of it using ching's cam. hrrm.. ching send me worx.. i wan.. hmm.. 2604 did pretty well for xcountry this yr. cc jj nigel n jody as usual got into top 10 competitive.. woootZz.. rockers.. n 3205.. our veh own adlin.. 1st sia.. hahahs..

hmm.. den got 2604 outing. veh funn.. hehh.. luv twosixers.. lalalas.. remind me of chalet.. hehh.. we walk 45 mins to e bus stop.. almost killed us.. den took 36 go orchard. took 45 mins. piggg a little on e bus. hahaahs. layjia n nigel sat opposite me n ben. den layjia say wad she sit beside anson n nigel both side also cant lie down n sleep. hahahs. i gave her a zhuai look. cuz ben nx to me. wahahhahahas. XDD

okoks.. me ben ching had lunch at cineleisure yoshi.. n rest.. abt 12 of them i think.. ate nx door at longjohns.. e 3 of us kinda talk lo.. den recounted on our sec1 times.. hahahs.. feng hen da.. whEeEe.. hahahs.. den went to buy tix watch hitch.. got over 1 hr to spare.. sho we go take neos.. only 8 of us.. layjia ching me ben anson nigel cc weihao.. sho funn!! e 21 shots one everyone squeeze lyk hell scream lyk siao.. hahahs.. e guys were entertaining themselves with poses e jap gals shown on e neos machines.. sho farnie.. den give kawaii poses.. sho gay.. esp cc.. hahahahs.. took 2 neo machines.. cuz onli 1 buck mahs.. hahahs.. weihao claims he looks shuai on one of them.. insisted on hafta it.. hahahs.. summore go ard asking if he look shuai.. diao.. hahahs.. realised tht ben cannot dun smile when taking pix.. nv smile nv wear specs = ah beng. hahahs. okok. dun fight dun fight. he look nicest on e ROCK neo. agree layjia? XPP shall upload all e pics when my scanner iz ready.

hitch.. half way thru e movie.. layjia requested me n ben to move a sit away frm her.. cuz she wanna rest her legs n sit comfortably on 2 seats.. hahahs.. sho we moved.. lyk isolated away frm e rest liddat.. guai guai.. hahahs.. hmm.. den watch finish we go heeren dere.. cc layjia n weihao decided to go home. sho we walked ard heeren.. luff at ben who wore ching's pink sunglasses. looked weird. but think will look style if it was a dark blue one. hahahs. kayys. jody they all joined us at heeren. all of them together really chao gao xiao lo. hahahs. we were lyk teasing jody n alvin.. together 1 yr liao still dun wan hold hands.. hahahas.. they chao shy.. den me n ben suggesting stuff lyk hold using water bottle first.. hahahhs.. crappp.. anywayz.. we walk to ps. had dinner. den home sweet home liaoz. hehhs. was almost half dead lo. tired lyk anything. settled some choir stuff. uploaded pix. bathed. lala conked out.

choir workshop was kinda fun today. had to jog on e spot for warmups. sho funn. hahahs. im sho honoured. ms lim put me in between 2 basses right on stage. yukang e chao deep n loud one 1. n my macho junior pete didi. hahahahahhs. sho cool ritex? i couldnt get e right note lo. with deborah n amos blasting behind me. i desperately needed an alto1. sheesh.

currently missing feli. wanna tell her how happy i am to stand nx to pete. n sheryl too. she stand 2 places away frm chewy. wahahahahs. we were lyk beaming with joy. hahahs. sickos. madd over juniors. sick sick. but pete iz still better kayys. bass de more MAN. muahahahhas. okok. went back to sch. met ben who was going for his kayaking blah blah. yeah. den went home. slack abit. doodled stuff. *winks at yuxian.. i got e draft one done.. wahahhaahs..

hmm.. had tuition wif e new tcher. sho funn. she had me seated nx to another guy called benjamin as well. frm nus high. n e way she called us.. made everyone stare cuz our names rhyme. it sounded weird mahs.. after all we dunno each other. =.= kayys. nvm. home-d. watched ch 8. heard dere's 6thsense on tv tonite. im chilling out. e onli times i dare to watch horror movies r when i got a shield beside me. hahahahs. sho wan go watch booogeyyy.. however u spell it.. lalalass.. abel intro de..

gtg le. xianx n eunice coming over for maths proj tmr. iz gonna be funn.

miss twosixers. feli esp.
u all rawk manx.
yayyys. =)

'_ 2103 [9]..
_ 0504 [24].. '

+ laz sch day +

2005-03-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

whEeEe.. sho fast term 1 coming to an end..

everyone's talking abt reflection.. sians.. wad can i say.. esp today can back report slip.. got 2 or 3 69s.. die also dun gimme 1 mark to get an A2.. wth lo.. L1R5 iz 12.. not much comments.. cuz i nv put in much effort this term.. sho.. yah.. my parents r making a big fuss outta e C5 i got for eng.. sighs.. cant they compliment me for once..? im sho deprived of compliments lo.. dun really understand y my parents feel tht if i HAVE tuition, i MUST be good.. NO tuition.. SURE fail.. ann define all these as --> CRAP.

10 things on my mind.. not in any particular order..

1. x-country at east coast park tmr.
dunno if dad noes e way dere.. haven check e map yet.. carpark E2 if i din rmb wrongly..

2. wad bag i shld bring tmr..
wan sth light n not bulky.. but no waistpouch.. how?

3. y my face sho ugly? -.-
i also dunno when i started hating my face.. wif all e scars n red spots.. n my untamed hair too.. budden nowadays lyk fa qiao.. [dun blame me. iz in my genes. my bro goes for facials n 3digit cost haircuts -.-] keep looking in e mirror den feel veh buay song.. =.= so best thing iz.. dun look.. even i comb my hair also purposely take off specs.. everything blur blur.. sho nice.. XDD

4. y my stomach still giving me probs?
since sec 1.. i've been having this prob.. dunno izit my irregular meals.. or sumtimes even forget to eat.. stomach cramps almost everyday.. gastric too.. pain until i only noe iz uncomfortable.. dun even noe izit cramps or gastric or hungry or need e loo type of pain liao.. -.- rmb in jan i went to see doc for e influenza.. got a poster at e clinic.. describe dunno wad illness.. iz lyk bloated stomach n pain etc etc at different times n for long periods.. iz exactly lyk wad im feeling now.. den they intro one type of medicine.. say veh effective.. am i sick?

5. y nowadays i feel myself evolving into a bimbo?
want money. becoming vain. inspire to be a tai tai. dun haf much knowledge. haix.

6. y my fingers sho dumb?
i suck at piano. i cant control my fingers. thts wad i realised after not touching my piano for a wk. izit cuz my hands too small? can barely reach an octave. -.-

7. a new hairstyle.
i kinda bored with my current hairstyle. suggestions?

8. braces appt.
i wan go braces. jo took her retainers off le. only need to wear at nite. i also wan e freedom..

9. mg
u say b4.. juz care abt ur current happiness.. dun worry abt e future..
as long as u're happy now.. iz all tht matters.. =))
mg.. i am happie now.. thanks alot..
really hope u are now.. bu yao fang qi.. jian chi dao di.. thts ur advice for me tht nite.. n im returning them to u now.. be happy.. peng you.. xi wang ni xing fu kuai le..

10. 2103 approaching in 11 days.
0504 arriving in 26 days.

7 current cravings.. in no particular order:
1. lollipops.
2. cornetto ice cream.
3. hot corn soup.
4. hot chocolate.
5. freedom.
6. time.
7. great big hug n huge amount of love.

ann's off to be a guai kia.
shall start on my holiday hw bit by bit.
go get my notebk.
ciaoZz pple..

'_ peng you..
_ xi wang ni xing fu kuai le.. ]] '

+ copa ari +

2005-03-09T21:13:00.000+08:00

heyyaa..

today quite eventful for me.. had a veh interesting geog lesson..
hasniza quizzed kantiban n divek cuz they were folding paper cranes in her class.. cuz 1 crane = 100g of rice mahs.. 3205 sho kind hearted.. i folded more den 200 lor.. hahahahs.. sho farnie.. e salt crystal crap frm physical weathering.. they both forgot tht point.. thot really die die muz finish folding cranes with all the recycled paper under e stairs near GO.. den abel helped them.. go shout xianx name.. cuz yuxian sounds lyk xianyu.. means salty fish.. hahahs.. related to salt mahhs.. cuz weihao n abel always walk pass xianx n say stuff lyk this place smells sho salty.. hahahs.. den i first one to luff.. first time reaction sho not-lagg.. hahahs.. after 1 sec den whole class luff.. cuz kantiban guessed it.. wooootZz..

hrrmz.. ytd e farewell session for mr ari.. sho sad lo.. e song.. called FOREVER.. aiyoz.. make pple think of stuff we dun wanna think.. all e lyrics all sho accurate de.. haix.. poor fren we haf.. sit 2 places away frm me.. see his face.. look sho cham lo.. lyk 2 yrs nv bathe den down with dunno wad disease liddat.. -.- okok.. our fren veh healthy.. veh healthy ok...

arhh.. back to todayy.. hehh.. got e copa ari thingy.. hahahs.. organised by kantiban.. street soccer matches.. yayyys.. ben's team won.. lalalas.. tmr morn you xi kan le.. hehhs.. hmm.. ben dun sho sad larhhs.. today not on form doesnt mean forever wun perform mahs.. jiayou kayys.. wan say de all say to u ler.. sho.. yeahhh.. be happy bahhs.. u guys WON. wahahhahas. got prize wor.. XDD btw anki, i heard tht mr ari's a veh good player.. cool sia.. i'll miss him sia.. think he'll rmb mg for e colouring bk incident.. hahahs..

hrrm.. currently listening to xiao shi hou by npmm.. n typing blog.. half reading e book pq lend me.. eng title iz.. to find your true love.. hahahs.. chinese.. xing fu zong zai fen shou hou kai shi.. hmm.. nice book lo.. real nice.. iz those narrative types.. abt a gal's life.. dere's this guy who had a little relationship with her since young till p5.. den disappeared.. move hse blah blah cuz of fam probs.. they lost contact.. e gal developed sorta a phobia? yah.. reject all e guys she met.. 17 yrs later.. when e gal was deeply touched by sumone veh successful n agreed to marry him.. den tht guy who grew up with her turned up.. ... ...

gawdd.. i read until here lo.. haix.. sho sadd sia.. gonna continue reading after blogging lo.. cuz tmr need to return pq ler.. yeps.. iz a library book.. den tmr laz sch day.. fri cross country at east coast park mahs.. lalalass.. den go 2604 outing.. go watch hitch.. yayyys.. twosixers muz go kayyys.. hehhhs.. 2604 rox.. =))

hrrmph.. dere's this huge red pimple on my nose.. sho disgusting.. i wanna cut it out.. X.x okok.. i cant.. but i wan it to disappear.. wth.. i hate pimples.. i hate acne.. i hate scars.. ewww.. shooo all of u.. get off my face.. bleahhhhhx...

i go read e book liaoz.. hehhs.. ciaoZ pple..

'_ na yi ke..
_ shi ru ci de xing fu.. ]] '

+ syf date +

2005-03-07T19:59:00.000+08:00

goshhh..

juz got news today tht choir syf is on my bdayy..
050405.. nice number.. nvm.. nice time as well.. at 5.45pm..
haix.. damn frustrated sia.. sch ends at 2 plus on tht tues afternoon.. after some lunch.. sure gotta meet for choir at 3 plus lo.. cuz need to reach dere b4 5pm.. sighs.. sing finish probably will noe results veh soon.. den cry/luff/scream.. i dunno.. commotion finish go home.. probably 8.. bathe.. dinner.. watch tv..
TADAH. my bday iz over. sweet 15.
thx ms yoong.

haix. firstly english can get C5. lyk shit liddat. juz becuz of e damn compo. piangz. band 3a real lousy meh? nvm. den ballot e syf date for choir also kana my bday. kaos. y sho sueyyy. me n ms yoong dun seem to go together.

sighs. i even told naomi tht day. even joked wif feli abt it b4 she left. say wad. suey suey syf kana my bday. I DIN MEAN IT!!! arghhh.. i wan a normal bday lo.. i wan alot alot of time to sing bday song to myself lo.. -.- i wan bday cake.. haix.. this yr even if got cake.. most likely iz my parents sing to me n i ownself eat.. SHO fun wor.. n i dun lyk celebrating bdays in advance or belated de.. iz not real at all.. cuz i love my own birth date.. it rocks.. rite xianx? hehh..

aunt said i wud start hating my bday in 3 yrs' time.. cuz i wud be older blah blah.. but rite now.. i seriously dunno y pple hate their bday larh.. iz such a special occassion.. is UR own dayy.. means world to u.. one yr only once.. even if wan hate also hate ur age larh.. y hate bday.. haix.. dunno larh.. maybe i juz love opening pressies.. esp big big colourful ones.. hahahs.. lyk a kid liddat.. hehh.. thts y i still wan a bday cake mahs.. will remind me of my jolly tots times.. e nursery or sth.. when i was 3.. had choco fudge all over my mouth.. treated my whole class to e choco cake i think.. hahhs.. sho funn lo.. 0504 rox.. lalalalas..

today's quite a badd dayy.. my chem sux lo.. always got a feeling wadever sub ben do extremely well.. i'll flunk it.. sighx.. no tian fen bahs.. even soccer.. i cant even make e ball go thru ben's legs.. even if i do.. iz either with e help of weihao.. if not i ownself shove e ball until kana bruises near toes or knee.. hrrms.. *rolls eyes.. speaking of weihao.. reminds me of paper cranes.. cuz i taught him how to make his first paper crane todayy.. ahahahahs.. i think i made more den 160 liaos.. hahahs.. i think 3205 can accumulate up to 800 bahs.. jiayou wor pple.. hehhs.. even abel yang also sho enthu.. not baddd.. hehhs..

ANDchoir muz jiayou worx.. use my bday syf.. so dun throw my face.. hehhs.. make this yr e best bday of my entire life.. though i cant spend much time with frens on e actual day.. yeahh.. sadd case..

ann has decided to be more a guai kia.
ann shall read storybks frm today onwards.
both eng n chinese de..
i wan a B3 at least for eng..
cant stand tht stupid ws topping for maths n chem..
summore say he sure top 3205..
hrmphh.. hweeli and linxiu muz jiayou.. show him tht 3205 gals are clever too.. XDD

ann has developed an infatuation for lolipops..
ann inspires to be a tai tai by age 38.. after e shopping spress ytd..
wahahhahas.. XDD

[.guai.kia//lolli//taitai.]

+ sianZz +

2005-03-05T22:35:00.000+08:00

halo..

finally in the okok mood to blogg.. previous entries all cry while blogging de.. now see all e tagggs at my tagbod feel abit guai guai de.. im alrite larh zizi.. will stay strong.. xiaolun didi.. ur haizz no effect de.. cuz i already haizz until dun wanna haizz liao.. -.-"

hmm.. currently listening to ai wo bie zou.. recently started to get hooked onto this song.. even though i think jay's version iz nicer.. hehhs.. n jiekou rox lo.. e 2nd disc of jay concert vcd rox.. i watched it 2 times ler.. gotta lend all to my aunt's fren soon.. hais.. if onli she can return by march hols.. den i can see jay perform everyday.. lalalalas.. tht hou pei chen rite.. heard tht her eng name iz patty? wadever larh.. it sounds weird.. =.= so far nv see her close up b4.. only one with sunglasses de.. not clear.. hmm.. jay jiayou lorhh.. xiaolun jiayou too.. hahahs..

learnt how to fold paper cranes todayy.. *thinks of kk* hahahs..
making for e charity thingy.. 1 crane = 100g of rice.. hehh..
so far i've got 67 cranes.. by me n aunt.. yayyys.. =))

think im gonna turn into a shopaholic.. got loadds of things wanna buy.. ring fileys.. orange n purple pens.. to write crap.. -.- water bottle.. lyk e adidas one.. but sho many haf liaos.. so im waiting patiently for a new one to come out.. den i run go buy.. hahahs.. piano books too.. so sick of playing e same old songs over n over again.. danielle steel books.. blah blah.. all the thick thick zai zai books.. wahhh.. juz feel lyk running into kinokuniya with 300 bucks n buy buy buy.. hahahs.. siao liao.. n of cuz some clothes lo.. im growing outta my OP ones ler.. sians.. wan a pair of running shoes as well.. hRmm.. wan go watch movies.. hide n seek.. pple say not nice i wan go watch.. nvm.. i found sumone to watch with me liao.. hahahs.. mg say wan watch dunno wad robot movie.. i nv hear b4.. but ok lo.. i wan go out spend money mahhs.. sho set.. yeps..

*looks above*....... scary.. i dun think i haf that much money to complete my wishlist..

currently looking for jigsaw puzzles to play with.. dunno y.. i seem to think abt jigsaws quite alot these 2 days.. i wan cheap n nice classic ones.. any recommendation..? wan e frames as well lo..

hrrm.. ann's gonna be 15 in a mth's time.. rmb kayyys.. hahahs.. okok.. i noe yuxian also excited. so i type big big..
ann & yuxian are gonna be 15 yrs old in a mth's time.. 0504 babes.. wahahahahs..
yayyys.. =))

xianx now my jie.. i keep forgetting to buy cola lolipops for her.. paisehhh..

hmm.. dunno whether shld post e pics taken at e airport when feli's going off.. iz kinda blur n abit poor quality.. wad u pple think? cuz wan let everyone noe feli luvs pink n feli rox lo.. yeahh.. wan me n everyone else get over e depression times soon mahs.. thts e least we can do for her.. be happy.. =)

rite now one more thing on my wishlist.. i wan feli to call me asap.. cuz i got lotsa stuff to tell her.. n my fren.. dun worry.. i wun break my promise de.. stay strong kayys.. she loves u.. she does.. yeps..

'_ when u're happy..
_ im happy too.. ]] '

+ confusion +

2005-03-03T18:29:00.000+08:00

hmm.. these few days really kinda dark n gloomy inside.. and im trying my best to stay cheerful.. todayy.. i dunno.. iz rather ok..

feli's well i guess.. she called meiching's hp todayy b4 their bio class.. all of us took turns.. even their bio tcher.. i wanted to pass e phone to him.. but e first sentence i heard frm her was.. sorry i gtg.. haish.. im sorry fren.. i really hope she'll call back soon.. i got loadds to clarify with her.. feli gal.. u got lotsa stuff unsettled u noe.. haix.. wads with e song.. ai wo bie zou.. sadd.. nowadays tchers keep talking abt separation.. even mr tok.. today say wad.. when sumone go overseas.. u'll normally treat tht person better.. blah blah.. away frm each other.. omg.. me n weihao shared e similar sad look.. i almost crushed e paper.. cuz we noe e iz all e blardy phone's fault.. nvm.. maybe iz lyk wad ben said.. you yuan wu fen.. live on frens.. live on..

todayy.. im heng in some sense.. i passed my physics test by half a mark.. praise hot mr tan. -.- he refused to give weihao half more marks to pass. hahas. see him become despo kiah.

guess that matter's been on my mind all e time.. for these 2 days.. i noe i looked as if nth was wrong.. n tried all means to keep myself light hearted.. but at home.. iz absolute solitude.. den i start thinking abt lotsa stuff. i keep picturing an image in my mind these few days.. rose petals flying everywhere.. a gal sitting on a swing holding a red rose.. pluck pluck.. he loves me.. he loves me not.. he loves me.. he loves me not.. sighs.. e image nv pause lo. cuz e petals in my mind are unlimited. keep plucking also wun finish. meaning e gal nv got her answer frm e rose. it makes me think alot. abt love. abt frenship as well. betrayal and hatred. everything. iz juz sho wrong. y muz pple hate pple? y cant everyone be happy n juz play play play? y muz we humans haf feelings? sighs.. i rather e world be a biggg playground for all of us to playy.. free..

rite now. i feel tht im storing all my emotions in a glass bottle. with a tiny hole at e bottom. everyday im trying to forget all e teary scenes. but as e days go by.. i realised all e emotions r compressed together.. i can hardly breathe freely anymore.. slowly.. fear erodes into e bottle.. fear of losing my loved ones.. fear of not appreciating.. fear of living my life without anyone ushering love onto me.. y izit so?
i once read a book.
it said tht love iz essential.
sumone who dun haf any drip of love in him will lead a meaningless n empty life. at e end of e journey, den will he realised tht he led all his life w/o anyone impt. no one played any role. it sux. everyone shld love everyone. thats e way life ought to be. we shld live not only for ourselves, but also for pple who loves us.. n pple we love. den life wud haf a goal. to create happiness for everyone. one shld not be farsighted. one shld juz treasure all that he has. live e fullest of every single day. every minute. every second. as long as u're happy with e present, leave e worries of e future, to e future.
guess this is wad i learnt frm mg bah. yeps..

i seem to burdened by lotsa sch work.
portfolio. ss notes. tuition hw. maths project.
choir afterthoughts. lit questions.
lazy to think liao. bet i left stuff out. sighs.

ciaoz pple.
ann's flying off in her world of imagination n freedom..
filled with love n happiness..
n pple she loves..

+ feli's departure +

2005-03-02T20:32:00.000+08:00

i am still stunned. at lotsa things.

feli left. she actually reached nz for almost half a day le. which means we r half a globe away frm her for half a day le. im trying to stay calm. cuz e laz time i used this com. i typed a farewell letter for feli. cried e hell outta my eyes. shall not talk abt e airport scenario. iz really. heart wrenching. e worse thing that ever happened to my life.

todayy. i cried openly in class. yuxian abit stunned too. cuz of sth i found out rite after recess. me n anki both realised. one of e laz msgs feli sent us was. "i really luv him. i really did."

i seem to be watching a korean drama. i've seen e guy n e gal dying n breaking down into pieces without each other. i nv thot things wud be this bad. i really didnt. i din noe e guy well. i din. but i witness e tears at e brim of his eyes. i saw e swollen red patches. i saw e utter dash of hopes in him.

e ice cream man came today.
he always comes when im really down.
today's a real bad day.
feli's off.
some major unhappy stuff happened.
my relative passed away at 4am in e morning.
some pple had to insult me perhaps indirectly. but it din hurt that much cuz feli filled my mind all e while.
i din eat ice cream today. cuz my stomach felt weak all e while.

todayys a chao black day. i hate today. 2ndofmarch. other den e fact tht i managed to pass both my maths paper.

sighs. dedications.

to xianx: thanks alot jie. i noe u've been staying calm these 2 days with me. facing with feli's departure. i noe u care in some way or another. n i thank u alot. for being dere for me while i did feli's card. for being dere for me when i felt really really down after recess today. for listening to all my worries n troubles. thanks jie.

to mg: thanks a million. guess if not for wad u said laz nite. i wud haf done silly things tht i shldnt do. it was a moment of rash i guess. thanks for having telepathy with me. thx for understanding how i felt at e moment of anguish. thx for all ur advice, consoling, encouragement, n most imptly, ur company. thanks for everything u did these 2 days. n ur NICE colouring skills.

laz but not least, to feli: gal. i miss u lots. pls call back. snatch e damn hotel phone n dial. it doesnt matter who u call. juz make a call to tell us u're fine. i've got loads to tell u. pls get internet connection by hook or by crook. ASAP. i love u feli.

ann is holding onto life.
ann muz hold on bravely.
jiayou everyone.

_learn to appreciate, treasure n cherish e pple ard u..
_esp pple u love..]]

+ slacky +

2005-02-26T18:35:00.000+08:00

wooooooooooooooootZz..

im slacking. today is a slacking day manx.

had choir workshop at anglican todayys. saw gnia. heard ngee ann sing e dance sad-tee [read it fast]. hahahs. sho nice. n the soran soran song. woootZ. hyped up. their songs really nice lo. luv it more den other sch's songs. hmm. rite now clearing the records on my mp3. those i recorded on 190205 at huachong choir workshop n ntu concert. rawking. hrmmZ. upload finish liaos. realised i forgot to record ngee ann's dance saetee. kaos. stupid me. i luv tht song lo. but only haf e old version of soran. i want more workshops!! with ngee ann!!! arghhh. mpio's lagging. sheesh.

sighs. i practically put the chengyu test half outta my mind ler. on mon de. iz sth lyk everything's over liao to me. holiday mood back. lalalas. realised tht outta 43 idioms i only noe ard 10. haven touched my bk yet. saw them frm von's notes n oiman's bk on e bus to anglican todayy. hais. such hardworking fellows. ann, u ought to be ashamed of urself. x.X shall start finding my chengyu book tonite. XDD

ben's off playing soccer sumwhere in sg. god noes where. im not a map. sighs. boring sat. tuition sucked todayy. i was kinda pissed wif e tcher. nvms. but was rather happie doing lit. sho fun. dunno y i starting to luv lit liao. sho nice. mg's rite. iz juz nice for lame pple to crap. my racial discrimination essay ques can write until newton sitting under e tree. sth lyk e black pple are not uneducated. they haf hope in success juz lyk e white pple. jo and puqin were stunned at my answer. hahahs. +_+

lalalas. go eat dinner liao. den watch tv.
muz eat more fruits n be a healthy kid. XDD
den nx yr if got make choir gown den i take measurement not sho zi bei. =.=
meanwhile wait for ben to reply my msg n say he's finally home. -_-"
tht wud be earliest 930pm. blahhs.
off for dinner.

[who's gonna study chengyu? siao..]
*ann whistles n signs off*

'_ let go, and i'll juz be a fading memory ]]

+ backfrmtests +

2005-02-25T22:03:00.000+08:00

wHeEeEeEeEe~

i rawk. i survived e darn blasted tests. booooooooooooo.
lalalas.. couldnt come online juz now due to e blasted com. i knocked all e parts out n fixed it all back after some banging. lalalas. den can on liao. woootZ. ann is pro. XDD.

sickening feli still dun wan tell me if we r going out tmr anotz. den my container how. ur pink tee how. blahhhs. excuses. i juz want to spend time with my feli. *big big hug..

anywayz.. life iz pretty okay. except tht nowadays pple keep pang-seh-ing me. today after sch come outta class everyone gone for lunch. all thx to hasniza. den me and weisiang were lyk. o.0 where's everyone?!?! i call. den we go buy lunch. found e demented n deprived kids at e playgrd. sighs. mg. aozy. jiahao.sheryl. we are sho deprived of playing. better play more now. if not grow up liao cant even walk into playgrounds w/o fearing that sumone wud take a pic n post it on e net. imagine. 10yrs later. anson seen squirming in tht tunnel. wahhahahahs. den we throw e bottle down n whack him. hahahs. evil evil evil.

o yah. we took our measurements on thurs for choir gowns. wooootZ. i think i grew. wahahahas. -.- e gown design rocks. bluish thingy with silver ribbons n blah blah silky covering. silver shoes are nice. but can we not haf e sharp pointed front? looks veh auntie. diao. =.= anywayz silver rox so im fine. heard tht e choir polo tee iz 16 bucks. white, 2 or 3 colours. why our 3205 classtee black polo 1 colour 15 bucks? might as well put more colours den 16. diao. 1 dollar onli. bo hua lehhs. RESPONSIBLE chairman mr neo wei hao. can go check? x.X

currently having muscle cramps all over. thx to fatherly. how NICE. gawddd. more pple r idolising him liao. cuz mr ari's leaving soon. anki r u heartbroken? =.= dunno how i gonna survive choir workshop at anglican tmr. limp on stage. hope anglican has a nice auditorium or sth. blahhs. im trying veh hard to blog properly. having a lil mind block. maybe cuz of e freaky tests ba. boooo to them. bleahhhhs.

i realised how impt ben's ring iz to me for tests. really can bring gd luck de. muahahahahs. nvm. perhaps iz psychology bahs. dunnoex. heex.

ann iz feeling angelic.
hope tht xian iz well. [cuz she's my mei this mth n i owe her cola lolipops]
mg is well [in e head, yesyes XDD].
meiching iz well. [mugging for bio i guess?]
naomi is well. [after outing wif feli today].
feli iz well. [how can she not be well w/o e blasted tests we had?]
ankita iz well [coping w so n so +.+].
ben is well [after ncc hell].
ann is well [after going thru sho much madness for e past wk].

lalalas.

nth much to add. ciaoZ peeps.

_if you love me..
_let me go..

+ cnyhols +

2005-02-10T20:13:00.000+08:00

darn it.. e cny hols coming to an end le.. sighx..

wad haf i done these 2 days.. visiting.. seriously.. i think i've grown up quite abit.. i've started to detest cny.. lyk my bros.. *ding* ann is a matured gal~ o.0 hard to believe i noe.. ann n mature dun go together.. ritex.. juz lyk naomi n innocent dun go together.. juz lyk feli and rebelious dun go together.. hahahs.. alrite.. im crapping..

for e past 30 mins.. i've destroyed my student handbk.. i dunno wad got over me.. juz doodled with puking colours matching them all in e wrong manner.. deco-ded my own bdae lyk shit. gawddd. i've been saving tht beauuuuuutiful page to deco it with yuxian.. n now.. sho sorry. i've destroyed it. o.0 sighx. where haf my artistic talent go to? come to think of it.. i dun haf any in e first place.. ritex.. ann n artistic dun go together.. juz lyk ben n music dun go together.. juz lyk alfred and wrestling dun go together.. hahahs.. ritex.. im crapping.. AGAIN. o.0

hrrmZ.. this yr angpows i dun wanna comment.. iz pathetically SMALL.. sighx.. basically i go visiting juz to eat n compare all the food.. -.-" n talking abt food.. i realised tht i cant go for recess tmr.. cuz my wallet only got a 2dollar yusof bin ishak staring at me.. n since lunch is ard 2 hrs after recess.. ann shall perservere n chill out in tht chilled classrm of mine.. o sheesh.. without my jacket.. cuz iz being sent to e laundry's.. at my backyard.. =.= riteZ.. shall steal a piece of ba kua tmr.. mum realised she nv bring it out for cny only todayy.. sho e 1.5kg r for us.. wahhahahahs.. thx to mum's poor memory.. woooootZ.. XDDD

ann's been feeling rather stressed out these days.. due to e darn it tests nx wk n e wk after.. which i haven started mugging on.. gonna die lyk siao for geog.. cuz i REALLY did lose my sec2 notebk.. wth.. i cant help spilling out vulgarities when i found out frm gnia.. ann is sho impure n baddd. sighx. ann is a bad gal. tell tht to ur dad feli. tell him u're an angel. *winks* riteZ.. ann is crapping YET again..

iz 8.34pm liaoz.. im actually tired. gawddd. envolving into a pig soon. all e junkfood i had these days. shld be able to gain back e 2 over kgs i lost this yr. dunno due to wad. make ur guess. blahhhs. ann MUZ gain weight by nx yr cny. b4 all e relatives ask me to hug e tree when e typhoon comes. wth. this is SINGAPORE. stop reminding me abt e tsunami. sad u noe.

a laz note to feli b4 i sign off: stop counting down. i've already deco-ded my bk with 180205 and 010305. u're making me sad-der u noe gal. arghhs. i hate u for leaving. but i noe iz not ur fault. sighx. luv ya feli. smile feli. =)

.ann loves feli.
.til.the.end.of.time. XDD

+ cnyeve +

2005-02-08T21:30:00.000+08:00

*burp*

ann juz had reunion dinner.. bahhhss.. think this yr one veh not enthu.. mum asked me to be home by 430.. n e dinner started at 630.. with only me n the utensils plus a half-empty steamboat pot in the middle of e table.. wth.. i was kinda shocked.. cuz mum asked me to start eating first.. hello? iz reunion dinner.. not self-realisation of ur sins individually or sth.. o.0

anywayz.. we took class pix todayy.. thx to mr lim.. hahass.. shld be nice.. hehh.. this morn's concert was pretty okayys.. was kinda impressed by e malay dance pple.. e breakdancers r real gd manx.. think liddat if go syf.. minimum can get a silver ba? dunno lehh.. i watch tht time veh high lo.. hahahs.. today veh ji dong lor.. go back ats tht time.. jump jump jump.. flag taxi until keep swearing.. so paisehh.. XDD cuz no taxi when i need one.. elaine n sec2 sheryl keep asking me lac lac.. hahahs.. o yah.. u 2 owe me $1.60 each okayys.. ann has only 2 bucks in her wallet now.. i hate it when my wallet iz more X den e amt of cash inside.. hellz.. anywayz.. jovett tan pang seh me. jerk. bleahs. gnia ran all the way frm st nichs to ats. XDD thank goodness karen could still recognise me. den we went to look for e guys. 6b02 got zach, alfred, tiong, zhao, youjin, arthur, tack kian, huijun n lynette.. plus me n gnia n karen larhs.. also saw yj gor n val da sao.. hahahs.. yeah.. din get to see es gor though.. sads.. =.= mer too.. i miss her..

den went j8 with gnia.. met camilia zhihong n clarence.. 6a02 gang.. saw bairong too.. met adlin n nafisah they all.. hmm.. den dunno wad happen.. gnia had to leave us cuz we all leaving for orchard.. i go meet ben at cineleisure.. cam they all also going dere sho we went together.. blah blah.. they left me cuz i gotta get e tix for ben who wasnt ard yet.. blahhx.. nv watch movie dere b4 ended up sho tooted.. yeahh.. den got tix row E.. thot will be behind ben's frenx cuz they C lo.. den ended up e other way.. we in front of them.. sho toot.. summore they turn up sudd when ben buying popcorns.. i was stunned n sho paiseh. o.0 keep hiding at one corner dun dare face them.. hahahss.. who ask half of e guys dere i all dunno.. diaoz.. -.-"

anyways we watched shaolin vs evil dead.. kaox.. waste my money.. show until veh exciting part den cut off got credits coming out.. wth.. meaning got part 2 wan us go watch larhh.. cheat moneyy de.. o yah.. met evona n her fren yah.. hahahs.. they watch elektra.. heng sia.. hahahas.. hmm.. den justin the tall one lost his wallet lo.. go report.. end up borrowing coins frm everyone to take train back home.. hahas.. i chipped in 20cents kayys.. stupid skyscraper din even say thx.. sho rude.. hrmph.. tall veh liao bu qi meh? blehhhhx..

den they took train to dhoby while i took back to amk.. den go home lers.. after reunion dinner sit dere pack stuff for tmr.. juz went to see my clothes for tmr.. kaox.. red blouse.. sleveless de.. shoulder both sides got a knot.. blueish denim skirt.. chao short.. =.= jiu ming arhh.. den for day 2 iz a dress lo.. tht one iz fine.. rather classy hahas.. all 37deg de.. sighx.. this will be a girly year for me liaox.. mum's trying to buy all e mini skirts for me.. ann's meeting her doom.. think no more boardpants for me liaoz.. feli help!! X

ann muz be having fever now.. cuz i feel lyk studying.. veh diaox.. dunno y i took out my geog bk n started flipping thru n looking at e pix.. diao.. -.-" o yahh.. gnia took my geog notebk.. i din lose it!! yayyyys for gnia.. muz return me by this wk wor.. cuz i got test nx wk.. hahahs.. kkayys.. n also today my angel sms me.. told me im his/her mortal.. choir's playing this game for valentine's day lo.. haix.. haven buy my mortal her pressie yet.. sheesh.. todayy used lotsa sms n talktime.. lalalass..

ann seems to luv typing her name.
correction.
ann has a nice name.
thus ann lyks her name.
therefore ann is a nice name.
yayyys. XDDD

~happie cny peepsZ..

+ regrets +

2005-02-07T21:05:00.000+08:00

am i regretting..?

i dunno.. i dunno y i did all those stuff for.. i noe i did it all for u.. but i dunno if thts gonna serve iz purpose anotz.. am i gonna be happier liddat? do i even feel happy rite now? i really haf no idea.. but deep in my heart.. i noe im not happy.. not at all..

y do things turn out liddat..? y did things even started in the first place? y am i getting involved in stuff i shldnt meddle with? y did i appeal outta cedar after psle..? y did i agree to accept the appeal to anderson? y did i get into 1/6'03? y muz i meet frenz i shldnt haf known, den to leave myself feeling sho bewildered after 2 yrs? haix.. why why n still why..

wo bu zhi dao.. but i still believe in wad puayfen said.. zhi yao ni ren wei ni shi dui de.. ni zuo le hui ling ni kai xin.. juz do it.. so now.. wo kai xin ma?

will be seeing gnia tmr.. kinda half hearted abt going out.. cuz i wanted to spend time with other pple.. but i haven been hanging out with gnia for 2 over yrs.. god damn long.. hais.. can sumone juz guide me? i really dun wanna continue regretting. i hate myself for all these dilly dallying.

sighx. ann jia you. dun give up on urself. show ur own true personality. but u muz be happy. u muz.

+ stretched

2005-02-04T19:29:00.000+08:00

sighx.. ann's currently tiredd.. mentally n physically worn out manx..

blogging n eating dinner at e same time.. abit guai guai de..

tmr wan go out lo.. got alot of things to buy.. gotta make a trip to popular.. get some fileys.. n postits.. also wan buy earrings frm bits n pieces.. cuz i really dun lyk my ear sticks.. keep falling out at nite when i sleeping.. =.= den hafta pierce back nx morn veh pain n troublesome.. hmm.. also wan to buy some chocZ.. for v day? i see first lo.. see if got enuff cash anotz.. get for ching feli they all can liaoz.. cuz i noe they sure give me.. wait i nv return gift lyk veh paisehhh.. -.-"

hmm.. if no cash wan bake cookies for v day lo.. this wk veh hectic for me.. wan mug but always not in e mood.. summore got sho much stuff to do.. plus extra tuitions n all.. choir.. blahhhx.. ann's burning out soon.. x

todayys geog test was a complete disaster.. see how me n yuxian die-ded.. piangZ.. anywayz i nv count e marks.. sho dunno if i'll fail anotz.. juz did all i could.. even if hasniza gave me 10 more mins i also wudnt noe wad else to write.. hellz.. sho sucky..

cny nx wk.. tues cny eve.. dunno if i shld meet up wif 6b02 peeps anotZ.. den go watch constantine with them.. haix.. i see if gnia going anotZ.. if she is den i go too.. anywayz i sunday den reply arthur's sms lo.. heckkk.. [if not den im FREE lo.] hahahs. cny 1st day shld be not tht busy i guess.. nowadays veh little pple come.. laz time everyone will come my hse for mahjong n steamboats.. now no more le.. dunno y.. cny 2nd day sure nth to do de.. other den watching tv n snatching chocZ wif bro.. i cant think of other programs manx.. anyone's pocket too heavy? cny 2nd day i go ur hse collect angpows.. hahahs..

mr lim's nice manx. he bot hershey chocZ for us. cuz me n yx requested them for 3205's bday on 3rd feb. hahahs. kiwi rox. ann n yuxian rule. yayyys. THX weihao for giving yx 3 hersheys, ws 4 and me only 2. hrmph. biggggg bully. booooo.

finished dinner.. gotta start on work.. darn sch.. darn life.. darn sch life..

ann's gonna buck up..

.youuu.rock.my.life.

+ stress +

2005-02-02T21:55:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..

here to relieve my stress..

the common tests r coming real soon.. judging frm my slacky character rite now.. i really cant make it manx.. arghh.. summore lost my laz yr's geog notes.. mr ismail i miss u!!! =.= come back n rewrite my notes for me!! ahhhh..

choir's been rather normal.. except tht we're now OFFICIALLY ms lim's best choir.. n im freaking proud of it.. anderson choir rox. yeahh. we are finally recognised. we r the best choristers. sho peeps. go for the gold. we can do it. =))) hmm.. and of cuz.. for tues's matter.. wanna thx a few pple..

first to puayfen mama.. thx.. for every single thing u did for us.. for me.. for sumone who din deserve any opportunity.. thx for giving me e chance.. thx for understanding my dilemma n thots tht dayy.. i wun forget wad u told me.. neither will i let u down.. =)) to evon biao mei.. thx for being dere when my tears had no place to shed on.. thx for ur shoulder.. ur advice.. all ur support n encouragement.. thx for believing in sumone u grew up together with.. thx.. to auntie deborah, AUNTIE jiahao [not u mushroom didi], senior jiaying and junior huda.. thx for being dere as well.. thx for talking me round.. telling me tht i can do it.. n i really hope i wun fail any of u.. to feli.. thx for waiting for me.. though we din talk much tht day.. i noe u noe wad was going thru my mind.. sho.. yeah... thx for being dere.. really.. luv ya loadds feli.. yepps.. n to the one with e least amt of useful advice.. but yet can make me luff despite e tears in my eyes.. abel yang kuan.. thx for standing in front of me n poking ur nose in this business.. asking me if i were ur fren.. i haf nth but DOTS for u.. hahahs.. rite..

lastly to the one tht did nothing much n knew nothing at all.. ben.. thx for being ard after choir tht dayy.. think if u werent ard i wud haf gone madd in class alone.. hmm.. u n kk really made me luff lyk siao rite after choir tht dayy.. the me walking out of avt was totally diff frm the me walking outta sch.. all thx to both of u.. u may not noe wad happened.. but u played a big part larh kayys? yup..

iz getting late.. ciao pple..

+ mouldychocZ +

2005-01-30T16:16:00.000+08:00

kaox.

ann is such a dumb ass. ann ate mouldy chocoZ without realising.

was doing chem wb this morn.. den felt hungry sho went to take e box of mnms in e fridge.. saw e white white stuff.. thot thts normal cuz frozen chocoZ r always liddat.. i summore kiasi go ask mum first b4 eating.. n she said iz fine.. sho i ate lyk 10 plus of it? den felt abit weird.. cuz e mnm shell iz not crispy liao.. more of soft soft.. +.+ sho i went to let mum see.. she shocked diao.. quickly ask me spit out everything frm my mouth.. den gimme a big glass of tea to neutralise e poison.. den made me eat loads for lunch.. say wad.. eat more den come out faster.. -.- okayy..

felt veh uncomfortable after lunch till now.. juz came back frm tuition.. almost died dere lo.. pain until keep sweating.. e tcher ask me izit cramps.. diao.. summore ask me wan panadol anotz.. cramps hai hao lo.. this one dunno izit food poisoning.. bro summore keep scaring me say iz fatal.. =.= say wad muz go hospital n pump e stomach lyk in those tv serials.. hahahs.. im not that dumb brother.

hrrm.. now feeling veh weird in e stomach.. dunno izit only in my mind.. and mum's attempt of making me shit faster din work. darnZ. who can punch my stomach now..?

o yahh. ann went to take IC pics ytd. collected it this morn. o manx. i muz advertise for tht lao kok kok in toa payoh. he's damn pro sia. he uses adobe ps to edit my pics. omg. he's older den my dad n he uses adobe better den me. *faints.. i almost died of shock when i saw it this morn. iz lyk sho fast. i only stayed in e shop for 8 mins liddat. todayy can collect liao. piangz. summore sho nice. sho unlike me. cuz tht L.K.K. uncle removed my pimples n added blush onto my cheeks. -.- he even removed my mole. woootZ. ann looks totally different. lao kok koks rock. he took my parents' wedding pix. n my mum claims her biggg framed pic was on his shop wall till e renovation over 10 yrs ago. +.+ rmb pple. photoworld wide. right in front of e entrance to braddell mrt. hahahs.

ytd tll was not badd. we visited kala ong's class. feli.goh!! i keep jumping but still cant see u!! hahahs.. our class seems to dislike e new tcher. we miss ms ng loh. straits times rock ok. who cares abt wadever financial times which isnt by sg peeps. sg rox ok. so stop suaning us n den say no offence. hrmphh. shame on u singaporean woman. call urself a tcher. bleahhhhh.

arghhh. e stupid pain in my stomach is backk. i gotta run for some help. darn it. but chocZ still rock. im still not afraid of it. so ben. u still owe me a cornetto choco ice cream. XDDD
*runs*

+ clean +

2005-01-27T18:46:00.000+08:00

yoohoo..

currently feeling veh clean.. reason cuz i juz bathed.. -.- n also i juz cleaned my keyboard.. every single button.. and i shun bian cleaned my piano keys.. feeling sho contented.. juz now had piano lesson.. filled up e entry form for grade 6 prac.. realised prac exams veh X.. 216 bucks lo.. pay $$ to make myself anxious/scared/worried.. stupid fact.. hrrm.. dunno to pick july/aug/sept.. iz lyk got napfa n common tests.. sianz.. but i really veh proud of myself.. finally grade 6 liaoz.. dunno how many entry forms i filled over e yrs.. frm grade 1.. i can still rmb how all e prac exams were.. esp e one with milo stained sch shoes.. cuz i threw up on e mrt on e way to takashimaya for my grade 3 or 4 exam.. sighx.. summore sho many pple ard me already grade 7 grade 8.. some even taken a few diplomas le.. music geniuses.. haix.. dunno how i lived thru sho much inferiority. but ann shall perservere. ann muz endure. kambatae!! XDDD

tmr got maths common test.. rite now feeling rather stable.. think i'll start having e jitters only when i wake up tmr morn.. inequalities shld be fine.. but rite now mr lim teaching indices.. damn cham.. until now i still dunno how to do ques h. yuxian cheated. she used e calculator. hrmph. ann shall be guai. i will leave e ques blank. XDDDD

rite.. e jap guy came todayy.. me anki n alfred went for sang torch duty.. yepps.. until now i still dunno e jap guy's name n wads his job all abt.. but who cares.. im only a photographer.. gonna upload e pics later.. got lotsa crap one.. got anson's pic eating e choco.. hrrmph.. n also got me n yuxian's pic.. cuz today mr lim go vball tournament.. den we free period.. played ard after doing work.. ask eunice help us take pic.. yayyy. den weihao came along with his hp n took lyk more den 5 shots for us.. cuz after every shot we keep saying e pic not nice enuff.. wahhahahas.. dumb jiemeis.. den we took e 3456 shot.. angelyn. yuxian. wanyi. eunice. and me. 2/3 2/4 2/5 2/6. twosix'04 rox. yayyyy. =)))

hrmm.. go upload now.. den try to put it up here.. nv try b4..

a test shot taken by alfred.. me n anki.. i was holding my mp3 player.. anki was..? adjusting her tie? yeahhh.. i look sho dumb.. -.-

anson trying to piss me off by eating e choco their grp made.. n telling me how nice it was or sth.. stupid aozy.. hrmph..

fooooddd left on e table.. i managed to get a shot a few mins b4 they were eaten by jj n chai they all.. hrmph.. baddies.. nv leave some for sang torch crew.. bleahhhh.. pigggs..

sang torch creww.. with e principals.. n e jap guy beside me.. hahas.. taken by uncle george.. woootZ..

me n yuxian jie.. in class.. yayyy.. taken by eunice.. behind e one tht cover face iz joanne.. 7 rox!! XDDDDDDD

cheerioZ pple~

+ loose retainers +

2005-01-24T22:48:00.000+08:00

hihi peeps..

this will be a short entry.. e nite iz getting late.. cuz mg's blog mentioned tht only ws n mc updated.. sho i decided to blogg a little.. shun bian wait for ben to reply my msg b4 i go to bedd.. hmm.. ben replied after i typed hmm.. -.- he went to wash our air tight container.. muz be veh polluted liaoz.. haixx.. wad u expect.. he's ben.. -.-

pokie pokie pokie pokie goes.. kaboom kaboom ka boom boom boom.. yayyys.. help yuxian advertise during choir todayyy.. sho cute sia.. i used pokie ok.. it refers to yx.. -.- i dunno y though.. siao jie.. feb's coming real soon.. prepare to call me jie.. wahahhahas..

abel's baddd at chinese. n he sounds farnie in it. i tried not to luff wor yang kuan. hahahs.. nice compo u haf todayy. but i prefer e boy who wet his pants story. hahahs.. jiayou.. nx time ask pple do compo HW for u dun say too loud. opps. *runs away* XDDD

rite.. yuxian's getting disgusted by my loose lower retainers.. i pop it out almost every other sec.. i dunno y but my tongue luvs to do tht.. hahahs.. told jie lotsa stuff todayy.. iz not crap.. though i crapped ego in my bk.. blahhhs.. but at least one of it is true!! ann IS a guai kia!! ann ann did her tuition hw. i FINISHED e whole compre passage lo!! for once. ann did her hw. all by herself. not told to do by anyone kayyys. this is called. guai. wahahahahas..

bedtime!! wooootZ.. whose turn to tug ann into bed n sing lullaaaaby? hahahas.. ciao peeps..

*ann bounces off lyk e maniac..

[unlike yuxian jie.. who bounces left right up down.. =.=]

+ pineapple tarts dayy +

2005-01-21T21:52:00.000+08:00

.i.am.tired.
.dead.beat.

o manxx.. i've been helping out in e kitchen frm this morn 9 plus till evening 5 plus non-stop.. 8hrs straight.. i rock. woootZ. mum n aunt's in this annual pineapple tarts production again.. this yr got sumone order 800.. pengx.. i see them sho cham.. i decided to help.. laz nite they started at 8.. slept at 330am.. piangz.. power sia my mum.. i today till 5 plus jiu run go sleep liao.. she continued till 930.. juz went to rest only lo.. tmr muz continue 3 more recipes i think.. without me cuz i got tuition.. they arhh.. powerrrr.. fuyo.. hahahx.. -.-"

i practically helped. finally. i din mess anything up this yr. yayyy. -.- ritex.. we made 5 recipes todayy i think.. which iz ard 1000 tarts..? not sure lehh.. but my mum rox. so does my aunt. they rock lo. can sit dere for sho long.. aiyox.. bet tonite everyone run go use e OTO massage thingyy.. hahax..

hRrmz.. todayy's a 21st.. still rmb laz dec de 21st.. i say all 21st will haf sth baddd happen.. sho far iz been fine.. but still got 1 over hr to 21st.. sho i shallnt say much.. lalala~ cny eve'04 iz exactly a yr ago.. sho cool.. makes me think of ats.. i dunno y.. i nv go back on tht dayy laz yr.. dunno whether shld go back this yr anotz.. see e sch building? bet no sec 3s going back lo.. unlike bifang's class.. sho on de.. haish.. anywayz i not much in contact with e rest le.. even gnia's not going back.. guess zi also.. haix.. thot we all jiang hao wan go back together every yr de.. saddd.. aitong.. sho much memories.. sho sho much..

gnia.. still rmb xi shui chang liu? dunno y i can picture.. iz lyk a photograph.. we 2 munching seaweeds.. plucking nectar frm e side gate area.. dunno if iz still ard or knock off le.. den we sit dere while gerard n es they all played catching n whizz pass us.. how much we avoided yj n gang.. how much i told u abt my everything.. how much we made each other promise we'll get into choir.. how much we said abt e future.. how u munched on gardenia bread made by ur mum.. -.- n me refusing to eat much cuz i dun wan spend $$.. diao.. it all seems sho clear to me.. i'll nv forget.. y i get into choir.. my childhood fren.. our naive promises juz becuz we lyk to sing together.. roaring westlife songs on excursion trips.. how sandy n gang were annoyed by us.. hahahahx.. 6b'02.. lim bian tai lao shi.. hahahx.. i can still rmb e joke he told me.. haven start telling me i sit dere luff lyk siao liao.. see his face already wan luff mahhx.. -.- e joke was sth lyk he sit on e bus.. in front sit one couple.. den he saw e long hair one as e gal end up iz guy.. den e short hair one as boy end up iz gal.. -.-" kayyys.. how yeow kian wee flew outta e classroom when he was caught talking to me in class.. lin lao pull his hand n he flew.. hahahahahahxxx.. farnie guy.. went RI izit? dunno.. he makes me think of alfred n wei siang combine together.. at least he n ws use same type of pen.. n handwriting veh alike.. but he damn damn noisyyy..

hmm.. now im missing 2/6'04 again.. haixx.. miss twosixers sho much tht i dunno how to describe how i feel liaoz.. n now im thinking of mg.. dunno y.. n mg makes me think abt her dad.. n her dad makes me think abt my dad.. n my dad make me think of e cold war im currently having with him.. we havent been talking since mondayy.. he fetch me to sch everymorn.. n to tuition.. but yet.. we nv spoke a word at all.. not even an excuse me.. haix.. tell me.. wads wrong.. im pretty sure im not in e wrong for anything.. iz juz a weird...... i dunno.. breakdown lyk vehicles? haix.. wonder how mg's life been.. her dad tht prob.. haix.. cheerioZ..

o yahh.. finally spoke to april n shimin abt tht thing ytd le.. told them alot of things.. hahahs.. thx for all ur wishes.. n stay kawaii~ =)

ching u sick izit? jiayou worZ.. get well soon.. cny coming le.. -.-

shall end here n go talk to ben..

2101..

+ jay'sbdae +

2005-01-18T21:08:00.000+08:00

happy bdae jayyyy!!!
wo men yong yuan ai ni!!
jia you!! XDDDDDDDDD

yayyy.. jay's bdayyy.. lalala.. currently in a veh hyper mood.. dunno y.. was damn moody todayy... but after playing piano felt better.. guess cuz of my mum.. i play piano play sho many yrs my fam pple no comments de.. once in a while got some SHUDDAP lahs.. budden today my mum gave me a thumbs up when i was playing ji mo de ji jie.. i stopped playing to stare at her.. diao.. weird lo.. we juz quarrelled ytd.. n i kinda realise my parents r abit senile according to ben.. n i personally think they r pmsing.. agree sokmui? hrrmm.. me n dad's conversation on mon morn.. in e car when he fetching me to sch..

dad: eh today wad time ur sch end?
me: err.. i think iz 2 plus lo.. i call u when i finish class..
dad: y 2 plus?
me: cuz sch timetable iz 2 plus mah.. lessons 2 plus den end mah..
dad: come home earlier.
me: .... how to?
dad: juz come home earlier lah.. den ask mum cook for u etc etc..
me: .................. [kaox.. u think anderson was opened by u izit..?]

o yah.. forgot to sayyy.. juz recovered frm a stupid sickness.. it all dates back to laz fri.. when abel n weihao were e only ones feeling HOT in class.. we wanted e aircon off but they insisted on.. sho fine.. i got full blast.. n weisiang almost froze. wth iz their prob lo. such considerate classmates. n chairman. hrmph.. anywayz.. on sat morn.. i forced myself to go for cca open hse.. cuz i got e accappella performance.. wanna go lo.. see how sec 1s cheer for our amos.. hahahax.. e shuai n talented indo sec 4 scholar.. woootZ.. anywayz.. e response was great.. ran downstairs to change n finally got outta e yucky day gown n my make up.. bleahh.. den run to ching at e sanguine torch booth.. watched e pds performance.. wooootZ.. was pretty good.. but too front up.. den i abit stunned liddat.. summore mr neo beside us.. den ching blabbered to him.. *ahem.. okayy.. thx ching for e pics.. i'll dl them asap.. -.- ritex.. den i went for a bite.. continue feeling dizzy n stomach churning..

hmm.. went home at 12 plus.. mum drove me.. i went home n slumbered on e living room couch immediately.. missed tuition at 230.. developed at fever at 37.9deg at ard 5 plus.. had piano summore.. after piano go back sleep.. woke up at ate a lil while watching hzgg3.. deg rose to 38.3.. i thot it was pretty mild.. mum gave me some cheeena med.. den i went to sleep at 830.. woken up at ard 11 by my mum to find fever at 39.3deg.. xia dao wo.. den my bro keep asking me wads my name.. diao.. wan check if my brain cooked liao anotz.. den say wad got pig brain soup.. -.- anywayz.. dad drove me to sin ming dere e clinic.. open until 12am lo.. den mum n bro came along.. i first time see this doc i wear pyjamas liao.. so informal.. ren jia ke shi da yi sheng leh.. e doc veh cute.. knock door go in he o.0 at me n ask if i had a sis.. den continue ask dunno wad sis wadever.. forgot liao.. wth.. i nv come ur clinic to acknowledge u as my long lost whoever.. juz goddamn make my fever go!! hahahx.. anywayz he gave me a jab.. ON MY BUTT!!! [stupid place to jab.. but he say my arms no meat sho cannot. -.- ] cuz my fever den was 39.8 liao.. he took my temp den started ooooh n ahhhing.. -.- say veh hot veh hot.. make me think of alex tan.. say himself hot.. diao diao diao!!

anywayz.. e damn doc talk sho much crap summore make us pay sho much.. 98 bucks siah.. for e jab.. latenight consultation.. n also lotsa med.. fever.. anti-flu tabs.. cough.. sore throat.. pain.. antibiotics.. piangz.. n an mc. -.- not u ching. anywayz.. it was e cutest mc i've ever received. 2 days off frm sch. 1 wk off frm PE n CCA. song bo. n if u were wondering wad i was suffering frm.. according to e doc:"orhhh.. ur case iz influenza.. u noe wad izit? influenza iz not normal cold.. normal cold no fever de.. urs 39.8 deg.. iz virus liao.. [make me think im a computer].. wahhhh u not badd.. pple dying to get e virus to be immune to it.. u nv get jab already kana.. hmm but den if u gotten e flu jab u wun kana this.. but now u wan get flu jab also too late.. cuz u kana flu virus liao.. u get it? u got innnnnflllllluuuannnnnnZzzzzzA.. -.- no PE, no physical activity.. o yah no shopping as well. u get it? u can only go to sch when u no fever liao.. n dun go for ur cca.. harh u in choir? orhhh.. dun go larh.. wait spread to more pple.. den ahhhchooo n cough tht time muz cover mouth.. =.= muz drink more water harh.. if ur urine yellow colour means u muz drink more.. muz be CLEAR.. u noe? CLEAR.. tht means enuff liao.. -.- " this doc.. lame lyk siao.. i nth to say liaoz.. this sign ----> -.- type until i dun wan type liao.. i stand dere orh orh orh straight lo..

go home.. conked out.. nx morn fever gone.. realised i wanna go sch on mon.. haven touched hw.. chiong arhhh.. den do half.. afternoon tired again.. conked out.. woke up at dinner time.. watch hzgg3 and e sg match.. wooootZ.. 2:1 again.. 21 rox!!! hahahahx.. sg rox too.. yayyy.. hrmm.. guessed thts all..

todayyys lesson not baddd.. chem was fine.. i luv to write in colour markers.. woootZ.. nice nice.. den lame with yuxian.. go PE.. tht new tcher shook his butt at me.. -.- do stretching suppose to stretch e waist dere n turn in circles mah.. den i was behind him.. he juz faced his butt to me n did e stretch.. i was totally stunned. den i siam away. he realised. den he followed to my new position n did e stretching again. wad e hell. sick tcher. but no doubt fun. he made abel run 8 rounds in total n weihao 5.. hahahx.. bleahhhh.. physics was ok.. at least i finally noe wad e units were.. -.- yep.. den it was li elect.. booooring until like siao.. den maths.. ok larh.. not badd.. at least mr lim say every mth he will give those who r celebrating their bdays on tht mth a chocolate.. yayyyy.. go broke in april mr lim. BROKE. yayyyy. he's such a nice kiwi. XDDDDD

ritexx.. long long entry.. to make up for my absence.. will not be updating sho soon i guess..

3/2 jiayou.. more bond okayyys!!

april n shimin dun scared abt wad happened today hor.. iz ok de.. relax kkx?

eunice dun worryy.. im not angry with u galz.. iz juz tht abel.. take care!!

all those sick.. yuxian's pal rachel.. get well soon.. hahahs.. n feli u too..

tatass peeps..

+ hectic updates +

2005-01-12T21:11:00.000+08:00

woooootZzz...

haven been updating for quite some time.. juz realised this a few mins ago.. hrrm.. shall blog abt sch.. wellz.. basically everything seems to be going quite well.. reach sch by 7.. walk to a half filled class where yuxian iz always earlier den me.. hrrm.. put down bagg den start smsing ben.. den start chitchatting.. go locker etc.. den by e time e music starts.. i realised got 2 msgs frm ben say he reach class liao.. den i run over to 3/3 wif yuxian to wave at him while she tries to get rachel's attention.. hahahax.. hrrm.. den we 2 go assembly.. blah blah.. i stand with jo.. today sho suey abel stand behind us.. no wonder he's a tenor lo.. can reach most of e notes.. not badd.. hrrm..

den go back class.. grab my pencilbox n paper run to 3/3 for eng while ben always forget to wave back at me.. hrrrm.. den angeline will say.. wahh he veh qian bian.. -.- ritexx.. realised tht nowadays ben kinda cock eyed de.. hahahahx.. go wear specs back larhh.. eh no.. get contacts.. u wear specs mg sure call u gonecase de retard.. hahahxx.. hrrm.. den will get rubbish geog lessons where i nv listen.. always go toilet wif yuxian.. n yawn.. piangx.. y do i sound more n more lyk mg.. diaox.. anywayz.. mr tok's hcl lessons r fine.. extra cold due to e aircon.. XDDD hrrrm.. den e physics tcher.. mr alex tan.. veh you mo.. always make jokes den he start luffing den we luff back.. -.- ritex.. mr lim arhh.. abit too cold lo.. lyk nv bond wif us liddat.. haix.. his teaching iz ok larh.. juz tht alot of times pple talk den too noisy he bo chap.. yeah..

b4 u noe it.. iz recess.. den will run to 3/3 again.. -.- yeshh.. den walk to canteen.. meet mg n aozy.. sit down eat eat.. try to run away frm some horrible n disgusting n busybody-ing n nth better to do guys.. bleahhhhx.. den b4 u noe it again.. iz time to part n i hafta go back to class.. ritex.. den booooooring lessons again.. den me n yx will luff at abel + weihao + divek.. all their nonsensical bits.. gawdddd.. who can stop luffing lo.. sheryl luckily u not in our class.. will luff till pengx.. esp abel.. kaoxx... hmm.. den i'll start doodling on any sheets of un-official paper passed to us.. write 2/6'04 n 2/4'04 rawks.. cuz of yx larhh duh.. den pass to divek he will gimme tht pathetic look.. hahahx.. realised tht normally we luff at him hor.. iz becuz of e way he talk.. not his jokes.. -.- hrrrm..

den b4 u noe it again.. fang xue le!!! wahhahahahx.. run to 3/3 as usual with yuxian.. den meet mg n aozy.. kk they all too.. den we go eat.. all sit down eat.. luff at kk bending e metal fork n spoon.. luff at cc doing e banana dance.. den i'll choke on my food sooner or later.. -.- sho farnie lo they 2.. diff class really wasted.. if not can sign up for talents@and do some comical acts.. hahahahx.. hmm..

i forgot to intro my chem tcher.. mrs huynh? wadever.. da feng chui correct liaox.. me n angeline think de.. hahahx.. she's not bad larh.. but she teach hor i always no full concentration.. will think abt other things lo.. sighx.. dunno y i this yr sho slack.. got this feeling will veh cham.. lyk sec 1.. sec2 de glory yr iz over liao.. too badd.. blahhhx..

dunno y these few days my headache keep coming on n off.. this whole wk's been quite hectic for me.. ben i think worse.. under e sun n lotsa physical torture.. sho cham lo cca open hse.. muz wear e damn blue day gown.. sho yucky.. itchy inside lo.. but can run.. though my shoes r always giving me probs.. i prefer e maroon gown though.. e one we wearing for syf.. yep.. now gotta advertise for sang torch too.. o btw.. we got 2 ccas le.. cuz sang torch came under media club.. say yayyyy.. =)

hmm.. shall be nice n try to make frenx with e darn chem theory wb.. damn u chem.. better make frenx with me.. wad an ass subject.. hrrrrmphh.. tmr puayfen mama's bday.. yayyy.. happie bday wor lao ma.. juz lyk wad u wrote on e board in avt.. u'll forever be e best choir mama ard!! yepp.. stay pretty mum!

retainers on tmr afternoon.. everyone pls look at my teeth.. booooo to retainers.. AHHHH... o.0

ciao ard pple..

+ sgwin +

2005-01-08T22:56:00.000+08:00

wooooootZzZzZzz!! singapore won!! wahahahahx... yeshh.. ur eyes r not playing tricks.. juz lyk wad e commentator said juz now.. singapore won 3-1.. muahahhahahx..

hmm.. veh high.. cant believe it lo.. was only expecting a draw.. but nvm.. it was away.. i dun think we'll do as well nx wk when iz home.. haix.. muz promote soccer in sg lo.. cuz we are good.. =P i dun care how many foreigners were invited to play for sg.. as long as we nv bribe e referees or anyone else.. bleahhhhx..

hrrm.. today's a nice dayy.. i overslept my hp alarm by 45 mins n woke up at 10.. met naomi at 1130 at j8.. den we go gai gai.. she say e 37deg bag tht i lyk not really nice.. cuz of e colour.. but i lyk it lo.. gonna buy tmr.. hehhh.. paiseh naomi.. lyk veh nv give u face.. u say weird weird i still buy.. diao.. -.- but final decision iz aunt's.. cuz she sponsering me.. hmm.. hehh.. tmr gonna buy my new yr clothes too.. with mum i think.. yayyy.. shopping spree.. ooohlala.. den i help feli reserve her chem tb at popular.. n bought my ciyushouce dere too.. along with naomi's notebk.. yesh u pigg.. iz still wif me.. -.-

hmm.. todayy's tuition was cool.. e guys switched their names in front of e new tcher.. made a hell lot of joke outta it.. yeahh.. n dere's this unknown indian tcher.. a lady.. veh cute.. our tcher was away.. den we were chatting happily.. sudd tht unknown tcher push e door n come in.. den opps at us n say.. o sorry wrong class.. hahahh n she started giggling to herself.. -.- den after 1 sec we luffed lyk siao while she went away.. hahahhx..

ritex.. finally all done with e damn reflection ws.. n did yuxian's card.. nono letter of appreciation.. -.- kayys.. hzgg was touching todayy.. esp everything ziwei went thru.. n wad yongqi said.. hrrm.. now iz nice.. but e mean n evil zhihua iz sho pissifying.. hrrmph.. wad an ass.. sudd thot of wad fangwenshan wrote in bandaotiehe e bk.. hahahx.. yesh sheryl e poem i told u over e phone tht dayy.. hahahx.. da ma de, bi shang zui.. waahahhahahx.. okok nvm.. mg i lend u e bk den u noe wad talking me.. hrrm.. n sheryl u next.. o yah ching.. sorry mine was e last bk in e shop.. my cousin checked on e laz day she was dere.. sho sorry.. nx time if haf i help u buy..

dedications to naomi.. yoyo gal.. u look pretty funky todayyy.. yep.. n i guess going to sec 3's gonna be tough for ur height.. okok n weight.. hahahahx.. ermx.. thx for hanging out with me today.. crapping abt stuff n being able to withstand my bhb-ness abt my teeth.. woootZ.. i luv my teeth lo.. hahahx.. yep.. jiayou worx.. our neos rock.. they r e first on e yr.. yayyyy..

o yah.. my bro bought a creative zen mp3.. he spoilt e one bought at mc's dad's shop.. -.- i dunno how.. but apparently he's been meddling with it happily.. so i guess i'll juz hafta watch in envy n satisfy myself with mpio.. hrrm.. btw.. who has a workable discman can lend me arh? i dun care how many hands it was owned to.. juz wan it to work.. -.- sho pissifying.. my com cant seem to burn mp3s over.. hrrrm.. stooopid larhhh.. juz realised i forgot to add a wishlist for myself.. blahhhx..

shall go now.. ciaoZzZ pple.. sg rox.. =)

+ braces-less +

2005-01-07T23:01:00.000+08:00

yoooohoooooooo..

att everyone.. ann has removed her braces.. i repeat.. ann teo lee lin has removed her braces todayyy.. my teeth will look lyk an original human being.. no man-made functions till nx thurs liddat.. cuz gotta put on retainers nx wk le.. wahahhahx... meanwhile i can eat anything i wan.. ooohlala..

hrmm.. removing e braces was painful.. lotsa blood i guess.. first part cut e wire at every space.. den e doc tried removing e rings over my last tooth of every ends.. which made 4 of them.. pain liao siao.. it was practically lyk e removing teeth incident i had in sec 1.. using tht stupid instrument for eating crab de.. -.- summore no ma zui yao.. got abit of blood taste.. arghhh.. den e doc kept saying sorry.. diaox.. hmm.. den he scrapped away e cement.. which made a high squeak.. sucks.. den when he ask me to rinse my mouth.. i realised everything was gone liao.. -.- alrite.. den he started cleaning.. sucky manx.. lotsa blood.. much much worse den tht time at sch dental.. piangz.. i rinse lyk 5 times still got fresh blood.. kaox.. scared me.. den e nurse say iz alrite.. start polishing.. pengx.. more blood.. arghhh.. den he wanted to make a mould outta my teeth to make e retainers.. it was sho sucky!!! e lower jaw first.. veh yucky taste.. den e upper jaw was scary.. he push all e way up den i wanted to puke lo.. iz lyk irritating my throat according to e doc lo.. den e nurse veh professional.. she noe wads gonna happen sho already got a NTUC plastic bag waiting for me.. but e doc.. veh cham.. i dere spitting out lotsa saliva his hand still holding e mould in my mouth.. yuck yuck.. poor doc.. im nv gonna be a dentist.. yucks.. anywayz.. i forgot wad he did.. but dere was more more blood.. sho bleahhhhx..

left e clinic today feeling high.. sho went to call ben as he haf requested.. shall skip everything tht happened.. felt pissed anywayz.. den reached home.. stood in front of e mirror n smile lyk siao.. diao.. but realised it was all a broken smile.. sho.. yeah.. started oning my webcam to e whole world.. showing off my booootiful set of teeth.. -.- talk to sheryl on phone.. felt better.. though she got pisser den me when her parents sorta wanted her to do stuff she didnt wanna do.. hrrm.. den i watch abit of tv.. talk awhile online.. went for dinner.. had my bath.. den sat down in front of com..

mc composed some lyrics.. kinda nice.. den she asked me write lyrics show her.. sho i wrote.. bleahhxx.. such a sad song.. iz called shi fou.. -.- dunno y i keep thinking abt negative stuff abt bgr.. hrrrm.. anywayz.. i juz realised 10 mins ago tht i din blog.. so here i am..

i did my reflection ws this morn.. sho farnie.. left e make a card part.. iz for yuxian.. n e movie thingy.. wadever.. tmr den do.. lalala.. shall go add a wishlist lo.. im boredd n broke.. but nice aunt agreed to sponser my new sch bag.. yayyyy.. n new clothes sponsered by parents.. yayyy.. 37deg.. here i come!! hahahx.. going b.u.m as well i think.. since op iz sho disappointing.. sighx.. shopping spree on sunday i guess.. wheEeeEeEeee..

thts all i haf.. juz forget all e pissifying stuff todayyy.. ching thx for asking me to write e lyrics.. i kinda gained inspiration to write more nx time.. hahax.. n sheryl.. thx for listening this evening.. apologise for stressing on e secretive part.. yep.. thx jiahao for asking me to write lyrics.. i'll try to try one for u.. hrrm.. ciao pple..

+ firstschday +

2005-01-06T20:30:00.000+08:00

hio pple..

today's e first day at sch for us as sec 3s.. cuz of e camp.. things r not really gd though.. im starting to dislike being in 3/2.. i dunno y.. i juz feel sho different frm e rest.. n wad makes me feel gd is when e bell rings for recess or lunch.. so tht 2/6 can gather.. haix..

y does 2/6 rock sho much..? y cant i not be e only gal frm 2/6 in 3/2.. y muz our subject tchers be sho sucky..? y muz mg move to 3/1..? y cant ben n kk they all be in e same class as me sho their jokes will be dere for me when im down..? all these questions keep bombarding in my head whenever i think.. sumtimes i do noe e answer.. but i juz feel sad.. n when im in confusion wif lotsa stuff in mind.. i start kicking stuff ard or becum moody.. until i find sth fun to do n forget abt e sad stuff.. i also dunno how to say.. iz lyk i study sho hard iz to get into same class as my frenx de.. den now liddat.. sho little twosixers in 3/2.. i feel sho upset.. lyk all's lost liddat.. haix.. e feeling of going sumwhere alone sux.. e feeling when u're finding all ur frenx but cant see their sight at all sux.. haix.. sad case for me.. but i really miss 2/6 lo.. i bet lotsa twosixers r too.. i dunno y.. look at all e 3/2 pple.. i really not much feeling.. except for tht few pple lah.. but as a whole.. dere dun seem to be any bonding going on.. n e tchers.. wait till i meet them lo.. =.=

imagine.. nx time i read mg's blog.. i wun see any stuff abt wad happens in lessons de.. cuz normally i read her blog to refresh my mind.. [i suffer frm long n short term memory lost wad.. -.-] den i go blog abt e day.. haix.. lesser lame jokes ard me.. lesser jay fans ard me.. no more mg to experience gastric pains wif me.. -.- okok.. anyway i miss u lo mg.. haix.. n ching n feli.. n naomi's walking.. naomi's da dao li.. naomi saying orange rocks most.. kk slapping his face saying he's at fault.. layjia's screams.. jody's craze abt no. 5.. cc doing all those gao xiao moves.. sho many stuff.. haix..

dunno y sudd feel sho much abt 2/6.. guess iz becuz of e times we had together during recess n lunch break.. iz lyk.. all together.. summore alot of pple dun lyk their classes.. e feeling when feli told me she missed me.. iz sad.. real sad.. i almost cried while hugging feli.. n ching too.. din manage to hug anki.. but nvm.. i wanted to hug every twosixer n tell them how much they meant to me.. we r a family.. twosix04.. rite now as im typing.. tears r forming in my eyes lo.. haix.. when ching told me she wanted to make a class tee for 2604.. i was lyk oh oh y not?? hrrm.. i really dun mind lo.. but make it red or some bright colours can? realised tht 1603, 2604, choir tee, anderson yeah.. all dull de.. haix.. all mg's fav colours.. n this yr.. 3/2 wants black.. arghhh.. i dun wan.. i wan reddd... red rox.. sighx.. twosix arh!!!

i juz cleared my jay stuff.. jay plastic baggs.. jay tissue box.. jay poster.. n i browsed thru ban dao tie he the book.. woootZ.. shuai wor!! hrrm.. guess rite now only jay can make me happy.. n im listening to his songs now.. repeating at a veh special song.. san nian er ban.. haix.. 3205.. y cant u rock more? at least abit more? hmm.. really hope e nx entry will be sth lyk.. omg omg.. 3205 rox rox rox!! -.- haix.. im trying to stay hopeful.. but no matter how much 3/2 rock.. twosix rocks e most lo.. yesh 2604 forever.. =)

best wishes to all.. try to adapt in ur own classes ba twosixers.. after all we're gonna live thru these 2 yrs..

+ sec3camp +

2005-01-05T20:12:00.000+08:00

halo pple..

currently my mood iz stable.. was veh pissed in e evening.. shall explain later.. talk abt e camp first.. though i wun elaborate much.. cuz my 2 fingers haf cuts at e typing area.. sho got prob.. n i wanna sleep early tonite.. due to e pathetic 4 hrs of sleep i had laz nite.. ritex...

e camp.. was okayy.. but juz tht.. e utensils really lyk sai.. o manx.. i really cant eat properly without washing lo.. unless e plates looked ok.. -.- anywayz.. it was fun.. but i really no comments abt my new class.. after mg n jiahao leave tmr for 3/1.. n hanhui n evelyn too.. o manx.. im sad.. tht han hui guy.. he reminds me of huabin.. tht laughter.. tht monkey-ness.. diaox.. anywayz im sad tht he's leaving.. iz lyk less monkey business in 3/2.. but of cuz worse iz mg n jh.. piangz.. i no comments lo.. cry already cry le.. sad already sad le.. confirm liao le.. no choice i gotta be e only 2/6 gal in 3/2.. gd luck to me.. n my 2 bodyguards.. e WEIs.. weihao n weisiang.. hallelujah!! shall blog abt pple i rmb..

galz.. eunice.. a veh sweet n cute gal.. naomi-liked.. not e sec 2 naomi.. iz naomi when she was in sec 1.. still blur blur n innocent.. hahahax.. ermx.. eunice slept beside me lo.. veh helpful n full of vibrance i guess.. ermz.. den iz joanne.. yeah p6 classmate.. hmm.. i keep going to her when i think abt sad stuff.. glad she's in 3/2.. den iz angeline.. vball de.. eyes veh bigg.. veh tan also.. her mandarin guai guai.. den she scared of long n big steps.. come down slow n steady de.. hahax.. den iz april.. quite gao xiao.. also veh nice gal lo.. puqin.. wootZ.. i find her veh strong.. -.- diaox.. cuz she went up e rock climbing thingy sho fast n steady.. hahahx.. yep.. den yirong.. sec 1 first day met her.. now see her also quite refreshing.. -.- diaox.. charmaine? yah.. badminton de.. veh farnie.. only rmb everytime mg booo! her.. she'll say wah lao.. -.- hahahx.. veh short n light gal.. hrmm.. wan yi.. her hair veh short.. bathe tht time use sink.. hahahx.. sho cute.. abel go trick her.. den she kana slapped on e face.. sho cute.. hahahax.. ermxz.. den edlin? e 2/7 de.. veh chio sia.. she got initiative de lo.. not as badd gal attitude as i thot her appearance was.. diaox.. -.- n the jessica n josephine.. indo scholars? dunnoe lehx.. ermx.. they veh quiet lo.. jessica kept falling down during nature trail.. hahahx.. n of cuz 2/4 gang.. zijun.. i find her chio sia.. hahax.. den always scream.. night walk with her she screamed.. diaox.. see her rock climb we all down dere held our breaths for her siah.. anna.. her laughter veh unique.. diaox.. luvs netball as much as jody lo.. hahax.. natalie.. veh chio.. veh cute.. e way she talk veh farnie.. diaox.. evelyn.. i dunno her well.. but think all of them veh close.. yeah.. jiayou!! laz but not least.. my twin jie yuxian.. hahahx.. yep.. she veh sula!!! hahahx.. same as me.. diaox.. dun dare rock climb.. at least ur sula twin mei did it okayyy.. bleahhhx..

guys.. duh abel yang first.. hahahx.. a full of crap guy.. mg say he abit lyk eng version of nigel? yep.. size abt e same.. wahahhahax.. e penguin divek? yeah.. his jokes veh not original.. but laughter can make everyone luff.. diaox.. lestor.. aka gao de.. hahahx.. damn damn tall siah.. naomi stand beside him sure wanna die.. =P oh n also han hui larhh.. sho pro at high elements.. ncc taught him alot worx.. he do all those lyk drink water.. even e climb over wall thing.. i look at him when he was abt to pull me up e wall.. [siao.. how can a skinny guy ever pull me up? diaox.. u step aside ba.. i rather e big burly ones.. -.-] n guess wad? he was e one who used e strength at his arms to lift me over e wall.. o.0 i almost saw e wrong person when i was safe on top.. diaox.. o and ian? he makes me think of ian sim.. p6 classmate.. hahahx.. he veh angmoh de.. dunno how i survive in this class.. sho much english.. diaox.. 2604 all mandarin de.. haix.. i forgot got wad guys le.. ok juz thot of one.. mg!!! u noe who the u noe wad lahh.. o.0 cant get weihao doing tht action outta my mind.. diaox.. disgusting manx..

hrrm.. individualy it sounds nice isnt it? but honestly.. i dun really think we haf class spirit at all lo.. [omgomg!! y am i thinking abt e campfire performance?!!?! worse performance award!!!] perhaps it wud be lyk 1603.. at first liddat.. reach 2604 den high high.. hrrmx.. but den nx yr we not 3nian2ban liaox.. =,= ritex.. jiayou 3205..

today 2604 go out together after reaching sch frm camp.. sho shuang.. u noe twosixers!! yuxian told me she veh envious of our class spirit!!! jiayou pple!!! hahahx.. okok.. hrrmz.. seeing everyone together again was great.. i felt happie.. all over my body.. my soul.. everything was sho nice.. nice nice n still nice.. sighx.. nvmx.. anywayz.. today go home kana scolding by parents for an hr or so.. cuz i told them i'll be back after lunch.. n i reached home at 520 to find mum telling me she juz called sheryl to ask where i was.. -.- ritex.. nvm.. go jody's hse play mahx.. though i din do much.. but i luff with suyi tht time felt veh high.. e high high 2604 feeling.. hahahx..

o yah.. y was i pissed?!?! ahhhhhhhhhhh.. sumone broke my jielun 8 dimensions casing.. iz BRAND NEW!!! i juz received it as a pressie frm cousin a nite b4 camp.. today got crack at e front cover!!! jay!!!!! ahhhhh.. pengx..

... .... [yayyy 7 dots!! -.-] ritex.. say i wun elaborate end up sho long entry.. now another cut by a damn piece of paper.. great.. hrmpph.. got lotsa undone work siah.. pentominoes.. choir.. blahhh.. but nvm.. friday gonna remove braces le.. IM SHO HAPPIE!!! WAHHAHAHHAHAHX!!!!!!! [7 exclaimations again!! -.-]

rite.. today im officially 14yrs n 9mths old.. hahahx.. i luv to do this dun i? hahahx.. sho nice lo.. countdown to my own bday.. hehhh.. 3 mths.. jiayou ann!! u're gonna be 15!!! woootZ... [yuxian seeing this? hahax..]

hrrrm.. shall go talk to ben le.. lalalala.. cuz i asked him to wait for me finish blogging first den talk to me on msn.. -.- my fingers rmb!?!? ok buaiZ..

+ twosix04 +

2005-01-02T14:49:00.000+08:00

heyyya.. finally e laz day of our loooongg hols le.. saddd.. sec 3.. haix.. i no comments le.. say liao sad.. might as well dun say.. hrrm.. i juz packed lyk 90% of my camp stuff.. later den continue.. sianx.. juz rmbed i forgot to reply ben's sms.. -pause-

okay done.. now.. 2005 le.. continue abt 2/6'o4.. a class tht rocks all e way.. a class tht brought honour in lotsa ways.. we.. top in sci n maths for average.. we rock.. we haf mrs lim n mdm hee.. one iz caring tcher award de.. one iz mushroom award.. -.- kayys.. we rock jiu dui le.. we rock.. our form tcher.. mr tok.. he no. 1 at lame jokes.. a.k.a san mao.. 3 hair lao shi.. gets v v excited when playing supermario.. -.- hrmm.. our pple rock too.. i dun care if pple thinks i bhb.. but twosixers rock till e end.. i luv 2/6'04..

1. jody.. veh proud of netball.. luv 5.. luv *ahem.. longlong alvin.. hahahx.. veh sweet couple.. loudspeakers together with layjia.. overall nice n veh easily-approachable.. luv challenging games etc.. hahax.. x roads rmb?

2. meigui.. veh veh veh lame.. always crap together with jiahao n sheryl.. come up with e wad's-e-opp-of-this joke.. -.- kayys.. my daughter in pig fam.. luvs jay.. luv *ahem radio AOZY.. lalala.. overall a veh gd councillor when u got probs.. yep.. have a pair of gd listening ears.. close to sm sheryl meiching.. o and me too.. *waves.. XDDD

3. angelyn.. hrmm.. ching's nai hai in pig fam.. born on national day eve.. hair veh nice.. rebond liao summore got e brownish sparkle under e sun.. hahahx.. in talents@and de.. together with seowhui.. play piano veh nice.. netballer also.. ~endure!

4. ankita.. my sis in pig fam.. a veh nice gal whose ALSO born on national day eve.. always bully her sis.. got a veh nice mum who will co-operate with her VEH NICE frenx to surprise her on her bday.. wahahahx.. hrrm.. always complain she veh short.. luvs beckham.. a netballer too..

5. anson.. nickname aozy.. *ahem look at meigui's profile above.. lalalala.. i nv say anything.. hahahx.. ermx.. luvs to sing.. eh nono, iz anyhow scream n shout for no reason n swing his arms all ard.. -.- laz time choir de.. eat veh fast drink veh fast go toilet veh fast walk veh fast.. chi1 he1 la1 zou3.. hahahx.. excel in almost everything..

6. abel.. ermz.. chairman for 1/6'03.. once my ah gong.. will be gone nx yr to njc.. stays in a damn convenient place.. above sengkang mrt.. -.- kayys.. all e best larh..

7. kakei.. e monkey frm hk.. veh violent.. chinese veh pro.. be maths rep until quite cham.. hahax.. likes e innocent gal in choir who can sing chao high.. sheryl u're NOT innocent.. we r evil pigs who luv bullying feli rmb? XDDD kayys.. always seen with ben cc nigel.. quite talented when it comes to changing song lyrics.. hahahx.. his jokes veh original n you mo too..

8. alan.. a.k.a. e sunshine boy.. well known for his "hello da jia hao.. wo shi alan wo shi alan" tht joke.. n tht knock e door joke.. hahahx.. haf a veh deep n husky voice lo.. in class talk always cant hear him.. sit behind me b4.. always gay with jj.. hahahx.. now iz hua bin worx?

9. jiahao.. my didi.. a.k.a. mushroom.. a.k.a. xiaolun.. play piano lyk drink water.. always entertain pple during recess.. wear cap scared kana bashed by pple worx..? hrm.. haf a veh nosey bro called jiajian.. n his sis.. jiaxin izit? veh veh cute worx.. hahahx.. cousins also veh cute.. but he not cute.. bleahhh.. XDD

10. alfred.. a.k.a. the rabbit.. veh angmoh guy.. luvs to talk alot.. but veh cham always kana bullied by us.. noe him since p4 de tuition.. still rmb him as e guy who went swimming after tuition lessons.. -.- drama club de.. erm.. overall veh nice to me.. sumone who helps me do stuff when i too lazy to do.. opps.. i din mention hw horx? =P

11. yan yu.. a veh chio gal frm hk.. st john de.. maths quite pro.. always seen with suyi hz layjia pris.. yep.. frm yang zheng de.. i noe her via polly.. noe polly via huijun/zi.. -.- ritex.. i lyk her voice.. no particular reason.. stay kawaii gal~

12. mei ching.. wootZ.. my lao po.. XDD hahax.. n granddaughter frm pig fam.. part of threesome n b4.. laz time chinese dance n choir de.. but now gave up both go cybernetics.. pro at html webdesign n photography.. yep.. she has a nice voice.. took part in talentime wif her in 2004.. yeah.. we got 2nd.. heh.. she's veh chio.. seems to always get involved in love webs when she isnt interested at all.. hahax.. also veh hardworking.. kambatae ching!

13. su yi.. aka apple~ hehhx.. my choir senior's cousin.. also sjab de.. hrrm.. got times when she starts acting cute.. sth lyk a baby.. den got baby talk.. -.- ermz.. yeah.. rmb tht time she come mi hse do geog project she wear alot of fancy rings.. hahax.. veh in sia.. ritex.. stay smiling~

14. jin ning.. a veh tall netballer.. frm china de.. sho she older den us by a yr.. always hear her say OMG!!! zhe mo ban zhe mo ban?!?! hahax.. lac lac gal.. muz jiayou in netball alrite? hehh..

15. sheryl.. my mama in pig fam.. crazy abt jay.. overall a veh overprotected gal.. haix.. poor thingg.. but she has a loud voice.. in choir.. sop.. yep.. whack pple veh pain.. -.- hrrm.. her dad looks veh cute.. she's lyk a 75% of her dad n 25% of her mum.. wootZ.. jiayou.. n dun pon choir in 2005 worx..

16. hua bin.. hahahhx.. name veh unique.. ice skating.. ncc de.. den wear e uniform look veh oversized.. he got a veh nice tan.. hahahx.. cuz i saw his back while he changed in class one day for ncc.. opppps.. sorry lah galz.. wahahahx.. hrrm.. gd at drawing cartoons worx.. n his jokes.. piangz.. veh lame.. laz time sit in front of me always crap with jiahao n mg n sheryl.. yep.. used to haf rumors with naomi e penguin.. XDDD

17. pei hung.. hrrm.. ritex.. she's got an attitude.. overall i think all of us dunno her well.. n she lyk veh in solitude de.. dunno y.. lotsa means jokes abt her.. also dunno how to react.. can juz say.. all e bez bah.. yeah..

18. layjia.. aka emma.. loudspeakers with jody.. hahax.. makes lessons veh alive lo.. sho funn.. hrmm.. she luvs tennis.. veh easy going de.. luvs her dogs.. -.- o yah she frm peixin.. n was once my cousin's student.. wootZ.. got lotsa frenx ard e island i guess.. hahahx..

19. junjie.. aka jj e sotong.. hrmm.. a veh blur guy.. laz time sit behind me i always feel lyk throwing my shoe into his face.. cuz after tcher say sth.. he'll ask e same ques again.. diaox.. yep.. cybernetics de.. got veh long legs.. dun try playing catching with him.. his fingernails veh long.. can scratch de.. -.-

20. sokmui.. my ah ma in pig fam.. after rebond hair look nicer.. hahahx.. if sm sees this she's gonna get pissed.. bleahhhx.. hrrm.. close frenx with naomi mg n pris.. yep.. veh tall also.. vball de.. hairwriting veh unique.. piano skills veh gd.. she luvs her p6 class alot.. hmm.. ritex.. dunno y she got tht kinda wise look in her.. hrrm.. maybe cuz she's my ah ma lo.. -.-

21. xinwan.. art club de.. veh pro at hcl.. hrrm.. overall a quiet gal.. but i lyk her personality.. lyk those sweet sweet cute cute type.. hahahx.. gd luck..

22. naomi.. aka e penguin.. a veh special fren to me.. always seem to be dere when im down.. veh veh enthu at times.. n noisy yep.. hahahx.. brightens up our lives i guess.. yep.. her height.. haix.. dun look lyk sec 3.. but i think she's growing le.. sho jiayou.. yep..

23. weihao.. ritex.. i cant say anything badd abt u.. cuz u saved me at maple tht day.. hrrm.. overall a guy who always crushes on diff gals.. hahahx.. nx yr suey suey same class as me.. -.- n suey suey in ncc.. oi oi ncc guys.. make him a man leh... XDDD

24. shu ling.. a veh quiet gal.. hardworking n veh gd at her studies.. handwriting also neat neat de.. overall a nice gal who's willing to help.. yep.. also sjab de.. got tht guai kia look.. hahahx..

25. ming hui.. hrrm.. i dun really noe her.. but think she got determination de.. slimmed down quite alot after taf.. think if she thin hor will haf lotsa guys lyk her.. yep.. always helpful de.. jiayou..

26. felicia.. hrrrrrrm.. sudd come until feli i dunno wad to write.. yeah.. she's leaving for new zealand nx yr.. sadd.. haix.. a gal who's part of b4 n threesome n pig fam.. a gal whose voice is veh angelic.. a gal who has e listening ears open for frenx.. a gal whom we will not forget.. ritex.. thts all i can say.. other den e bully-her-father characteristic n luv pink lyk siao personality.. she's fine.. XDDD

27. wei siang.. aka secretliker.. hmm.. a veh siao guy.. luvs oldies.. always nv sleep den got veh veh veh deep eyebags.. lyk veh high when it comes to html.. yep.. iz exactly 1 mth younger den me..

28. ruth.. hmm.. sit beside me for 1 term b4.. a veh nice gal.. chio n kawaii.. hahax.. badminton de.. juz started wearing braces.. wahahhahahx.. ritex.. erm.. almost gd in every subject.. jiayou worx..

29.. priscilla.. a veh you mo person.. her jokes can make pple luff for a day.. diaox.. kayys.. luvs pan wei bo.. wuha~ -.- hrm.. close to alot of pple.. yep.. but i not close to her.. hmm.. got e dec chalet for us.. though veh small but nice larh.. hrmm.. kambatae!

30. sortcheng.. hrrm.. we got connections.. our dads r old frenx.. yep.. n we din noe till sec 1.. cool sia.. hrrm.. got a veh weird voice.. can sudd slur up high high de.. hahahx.. her notes can write until damn small.. veh gd at cooking sewing etc.. diaox.. her mum trying to make her a gd housewife lo.. hahahahx.. jkjk.. at least better den me.. cant even fry an egg.. -.-

31. chaitanya.. wootZ.. hrrm.. kinda pro at maths stuffie.. *raises eyebrow*.. always seen with junjie abel alan.. yep.. was 2/6 chairman.. erm.. all e stuff tht happen laz time i forget le.. sho.. yep.. thts all i haf..

32. seow hui.. band de.. hahax.. laz time same chinese tuition as me.. but now i quit le.. my zuo wen leh!?! hahahx.. we call each other zuo wen n ying yong wen.. cuz she supposed to pass me a zuo wen but 1 yr later still haven pass.. diaox.. ritex.. play flute de.. veh talented.. jia you worx..

33. nigel.. hahahx.. my papa.. bball de.. short short cute cute.. but abit irritating at times.. XDDD i veh bad.. scold my own father.. hrrrm.. veh kiasu when it comes to studies.. sit beside him got lotsa pressure.. heng nx yr we diff class.. hahax..

34. huizhen.. yooohoo.. pple call her xiao song.. hahahx.. she always sit in front of me during exams.. den we always screw up during eng/lit.. cuz i always win her 1 mark budden we same same both b4.. hahahax.. ritex.. first in class lo.. veh smart.. got her 500 bucks.. sad i lost it by 3 positions liddat.. nvm.. chao broke now.. jiayou muz beat all e smart asses in 3/6.. hahahx.. bring honour to 2/6'04!!!

35. ann.. diaox.. me lahh.. ritez..

36. siew boon.. laz time sec 1 sit with her.. always pass science by 3 marks.. haixx.. her handwriting veh bigg n look lyk guy's de.. hahahx.. got an attitude tht pple rarely see.. yep.. so nv judge a bk by iz cover..

37. chengcheng.. hahahx.. got a veh farnie name.. always gay ard n do breakdance with kk.. diaox.. tht time come my hse.. perform for meiching in front of e webcam.. sho toot.. kkx nvm.. stay veh veh far away.. lyk punggol.. diaox.. poor thing.. whole day stay at home watch tv.. den will lose our pentominoes de.. hrrm..

38. benjamin.. errrr.. i dunno wad to say.. diaoz.. orhh.. a veh lagg guy whom mg thinks iz a retard.. but he's not okayy.. hrrrmph.. anywayz.. he luff in a veh farnie way tht always make me luff 1 sec after he luff.. -.- his happy bday song cant be downloaded though.. doubt anyone wanna hear.. kkx.. except me larh ok? bleahhhx.. XDDD

39. qijia.. yayyyy.. laz one.. hahahx.. a councillor.. veh enthu de.. got leadership qualities.. 2/6 got lotsa stuff she settle i think.. yep.. a nice gal lo.. also my mei mei in pig fam i think.. yah.. though we not close.. diaox.. jiayou!!

frm tmr onwards.. we'll be separated in a way or another.. but.. 2/6 spirit stays forever in our hearts..

yayyyy.. i luv 2/6'04.. twosixers rox!!!!

hui yi shi yao liu zhe de.. twosix forever..

+ 2005 +

2005-01-01T18:27:00.000+08:00

hihi.. happy new yr!!

it's 2005 le.. sho fast.. sch gonna reopen le.. everyone's gonna be separated in a way.. yeah.. new yr new look.. sho i changed e layout.. nice? by xiaoyu de.. dunno y after i dl rite.. she lyk deleted it or sth.. cuz it disappeared.. but since i dl liao might as well use.. yep.. meanwhile mg is in midst of making a layout for me.. but i luv xiaoyu's layout mahx.. summore e theme fits my mood.. yeahhh..

new yr resolutions?

1. be strong. mentally n physically. [lesser mcs. i got 6 MCs in 2004. -.-]
2. be happie.
3. make more frenx.
4. dig out time for outings.
5. try to luv 3/2'05.. [with abel yang ard.. god bless us.. XD]
6. try not to fail in any subjects. [quite difficult for sec 3s yeah?]
7. improve in html n my piano skills.. [at least pass grade 6 with a score higher den 103?!?!]

yayy.. i shall stop at 7.. hahax..

realised i haven blogged abt twosixers yet.. stopped at alfred.. but nvm.. e nx entry i'll compile all together.. n it'll be twosix entry.. yep..

i think i got all my stuff ready for camp.. gotta check out e camping bag.. dunno where my bro's one went.. but mum got me a new one after all e fuss.. i wan a pillow lo.. shall kope frm bro somehow.. hrmph..

i got loads on my wishlist lo.. shall add one tmr.. now in a hurry to go cousin's hse for newyr celebration.. diaox.. yah e same cousins.. tell me.. y am i going dere juz to watch them play xbox again..? haix.. forget it.. parents always wan face.. shall give in to them since iz e first day of 2005.. n i wun be hearing their voice frm 3rd to 5th.. XDDDD

currently listening to bro singing luan juan feng.. -.- *runs away*

well.. until den.. may 2005 be filled with luv n happiness.. peace n joy.. for every one in e world.. bless all e tidal wave victims~
buaiZ..

+ depressingtimes +

2004-12-31T11:21:00.000+08:00

halo pple..

currently feeling sick.. due to e cold i caught.. juz now summore go walk in e rain to post letter.. cant bathe in hot water cuz my heater got prob de.. mum's room is inmidst of spring cleaning.. so suan le.. i drink warm water can liaoz.. sighx.. got this feeling a fever is developing.. -.-

kayys.. anywayz.. i haven been in e bez of moods recently.. learn frm mg.. go bathe for 1 hr liddat juz to let e tap run as much as it wants.. den when go out u will feel better.. guess thts how i was able to appear happy when im out.. at least liddat wun affect e pple ard u.. yeahh.. perhaps some of u may think.. gd wad.. 3nian2ban.. jay's.. and dere's only a piece of wall between u 2.. but to me iz not.. e past experiences been haunting me lyk anything for e past yr.. n sudd when reality juz crashes down on u.. lotsa shattering.. n all u feel iz.. crushed.. yah yah.. i shld haf trust in us.. n yah yah.. i shld think positive.. but iz hard.. none of u will understand..

nevertheless.. wanna thx a few pple here who stood beside me.. thx a million pple..

first.. to mg.. thx for being dere for me throughout tht faithful day.. i noe u're feeling much worse den i am.. n dere r some things i cant be of help to.. yeah.. but thx for being my spokesperson when i needed u most.. muz jia you n dun give up alrite? yep.. anything need abt help muz tell me.. i'll be dere juz lyk how u stood by me tht day.. cheer up..

nx to ching.. thx for going out with me tht faithful day.. thx for cheering me up with ur jokes.. perhaps some stuff tht i told u.. u may not understand.. but i do not deny tht im veh naive.. yeah.. but thx for listening to me..

to feli.. thx for watching phantom of e opera with me 1 day after e faithful day.. thx for being able to read my mind n able to sense my tears.. thx for bullying ur dad to fetch me home.. thx for everything u understood abt me.. rmb our deal ok? iz a promise for life..

to jiahao.. thx for asking me to zhen zuo qi lai when i came online tht faithful day.. i wun go in search of death juz becuz of this.. juz needed some time to cool down.. its hard to accept e truth.. but still.. im glad u understand.. i noe u arent really happy abt certain stuff.. cheer up kayys?

laz but not least.. to ben.. i noe u feel sad as well.. but up to this stage.. i dun think dere's anything we can do other den to curse tht damn grp of tchers who allocated e classes.. yeah.. rite now i only hang on to fate.. n our jie zhi de cheng nuo.. thx for being able to suit to my mood.. u did a great job.. n thx for letting me mess up ur maple acc.. tht game can really make me forget abt sadd stuff temporary.. n also.. laz nite.. thx for comforting me at e late hrs.. im really glad u nv give up any hope on us.. i guess im e useless one.. i've seen pple frm diff class together.. but i nv gave it any thot.. cuz i nv gave it any hope.. how e hell do they find topic to chat abt after many wks.. diff frenz diff almost everything.. haix.. wanting me to fit myself into it nx yr.. i really dunno how.. n im really afraid tht history will repeat itself.. nevertheless.. i do trust u.. juz that i dun really trust myself.. n i really really dun trust fate anymore.. i will embrace myself sooner or later.. as u haf said.. dun think.. cuz thinking makes us sad.. memories r holding us together.. i too hope there'll be more to come..

yep.. thts all i haf.. cya pple..

+ boxingday +

2004-12-26T22:01:00.000+08:00

yoohoo.. im tired to bits.. hrrm.. juz realised tht i've blogged in tired mood for e past few entries.. but today.. sure will tired de mahx.. da sao chu wad.. ermz.. spring cleaning.. yeahh..

hrmm.. packed all my stuff.. except my wardrobe.. cuz too lazy.. n dun wan brood over new yr clothes yet.. haix.. anywayz.. i started packing frm 1 plus all e way till 6 plus.. den had piano lesson with bro till 715 liddat.. den can sit down n slack.. had dinner n watch tv.. sighx.. threw away lotsa stuff.. had trouble clearing my filey lo.. sho many memories of 2/6.. haix.. sadd.. shall do a 2/6 profiley thingy for every twosixer.. hrrm.. here it goes..

1. jody.. veh proud of netball.. luv 5.. luv *ahem.. longlong alvin.. hahahx.. veh sweet couple.. loudspeakers together with layjia.. overall nice n veh easily-approachable.. luv challenging games etc.. hahax.. x roads rmb?

2. meigui.. veh veh veh lame.. always crap together with jiahao n sheryl.. come up with e wad's-e-opp-of-this joke.. -.- kayys.. my daughter in pig fam.. luvs jay.. luv *ahem radio AOZY.. lalala.. overall a veh gd councillor when u got probs.. yep.. have a pair of gd listening ears.. close to sm sheryl meiching.. o and me too.. *waves.. XDDD

3. angelyn.. hrmm.. ching's nai hai in pig fam.. born on national day eve.. hair veh nice.. rebond liao summore got e brownish sparkle under e sun.. hahahx.. in talents@and de.. together with seowhui.. play piano veh nice.. netballer also.. ~endure!

4. ankita.. my sis in pig fam.. a veh nice gal whose ALSO born on national day eve.. always bully her sis.. got a veh nice mum who will co-operate with her VEH NICE frenx to surprise her on her bday.. wahahahx.. hrrm.. always complain she veh short.. luvs beckham.. a netballer too

5. anson.. nickname aozy.. *ahem look at meigui's profile above.. lalalala.. i nv say anything.. hahahx.. ermx.. luvs to sing.. eh nono, iz anyhow scream n shout for no reason n swing his arms all ard.. -.- laz time choir de.. eat veh fast drink veh fast go toilet veh fast walk veh fast.. chi1 he1 la1 zou3.. hahahx.. excel in almost everything..

6. abel.. ermz.. chairman for 1/6'03.. once my ah gong.. will be gone nx yr to njc.. stays in a damn convenient place.. above sengkang mrt.. -.- kayys.. all e best larh..

7. kakei.. e monkey frm hk.. veh violent.. chinese veh pro.. be maths rep until quite cham.. hahax.. likes e innocent gal in choir who can sing chao high.. sheryl u're NOT innocent.. we r evil pigs who luv bullying feli rmb? XDDD kayys.. always seen with ben cc nigel.. quite talented when it comes to changing song lyrics.. hahahx.. his jokes veh original n you mo too..

8. alan.. a.k.a. e sunshine boy.. well known for his "hello da jia hao.. wo shi alan wo shi alan" tht joke.. n tht knock e door joke.. hahahx.. haf a veh deep n husky voice lo.. in class talk always cant hear him.. sit behind me b4.. always gay with jj.. hahahx.. now iz hua bin worx?

9. jiahao.. my didi.. a.k.a. mushroom.. a.k.a. xiaolun.. play piano lyk drink water.. always entertain pple during recess.. wear cap scared kana bashed by pple worx..? hrm.. haf a veh nosey bro called jiajian.. n his sis.. jiaxin izit? veh veh cute worx.. hahahx.. cousins also veh cute.. but he not cute.. bleahhh.. XDD

10. alfred.. a.k.a. the rabbit.. veh angmoh guy.. luvs to talk alot.. but veh cham always kana bullied by us.. noe him since p4 de tuition.. still rmb him as e guy who went swimming after tuition lessons.. -.- drama club de.. erm.. overall veh nice to me.. sumone who helps me do stuff when i too lazy to do.. opps.. i din mention hw horx? =P

sighx.. im too lazy liaoz.. stop at 10.. tmr den continue part 2.. *yawnx..

ciao pple..